“What is that?”
Madar-jan looked down, her voice lowered.
“A death in the family would mean there could be no wedding for at least a year.”
“A death? Raisa, what in the hell are you talking about?”
“It happens all the time, Shaima. You and I have both heard stories. Remember Manizha from the other side of the village?”
“Raisa, you’ve lost your mind! Just think about what you’re saying! You think setting yourself on fire is going to solve any problems? You think orphaned girls are better off than married ones? And what about the little ones? What do you think they’ll do without their mother? For God’s sake, look at your in-laws! You’ve got two widows in this compound and your brothers-in-law are eyeing them already.”
My heart pounded so loudly I was certain they could hear it.
“I just don’t know what else to do, Shaima!”
“You have to find a way to turn them down. To make Arif turn them down.”
“Easier said than done, Shaima! Why don’t you come for the nikkah? Bring your big mouth and I’ll see what you do then.”
“I will be here, Raisa. Don’t think I won’t.”
Madar-jan looked exhausted. She leaned her head against the wall and closed her eyes; the shadows under them had darkened since yesterday.
We gathered around Khala Shaima.
“My girls, let me tell you a little more about Bibi Shekiba. As much as I hate to think it, her story is your story.” She sighed and shook her head. “I suppose we all carry the story of our ancestors in us. Where did we leave off?”
CHAPTER 20. SHEKIBA
Two days passed before Shekiba could stand. Her lip was swollen and scabbed, her legs and back bore multiple bruises and each breath yanked her ribs in different directions.
It wasn’t her naseeb to claim her father’s land. Instead, Azizullah had dragged her back to the house and beaten her for an hour. Every time his strikes slowed, he would yell and huff about the humiliation she had caused him. His momentum would pick up again and he’d toss her left and right with each blow.
Marjan had watched from the doorway, shaking her head. She had one hand over her eyes and when she could watch no more turned her back and left. Shekiba did not notice. She had let her mind drift long ago.
Marjan came to her three times a day and brought her tea and bread. She would prop Shekiba up and dribble tea into her mouth with small lumps of wet bread. She rubbed an ointment on Shekiba’s back and on her cut lip.
“Stupid girl. I warned you not to bring up such matters. Now look what you’ve done to yourself,” she muttered over and over again.
Shekiba wished Azizullah would have killed her. She wondered why he hadn’t.
She did not see him, but she could hear his voice. His mood was sour and the children avoided him. Marjan could not.
“Make sure she’s up and ready today. No excuses.”
“She is weak but I will see what she can—”
“Weak? If she’s so weak, what was she doing walking through town, following Muneer and his son around? Why did I find her at Hakim’s front door? She’s a liar and the sooner we rid ourselves of her, the better. No excuses. She will be up and ready today!”
Shekiba heard the words and the situation began to register. Today was the day King Habibullah would pay a visit to Hafizullah. Today was the day she would be gifted again.
Azizullah left early in the morning and Marjan huffed for an hour before coming to Shekiba.
“Come on. Time to get washed up.” Shekiba was lifted to her feet by a woman half her height but twice her width. Marjan guided her to the washroom and let her slide onto the floor. “You stupid girl. You’ve made more work for me! God knows you won’t last at the palace if you pull tricks like this.”
“I only wanted what should be mine. You would have done the same,” Shekiba said flatly.
“No, I would not have! You think you’re the only girl who should have inherited land? My brothers divided our land and not one square inch of it was deemed mine. That’s how things are! You accept it or you die. It’s that simple.”
“Then I should die.”
“Maybe so, but not today. Now get undressed so you can take a decent bath.”
Azizullah returned in the evening, his mood much improved.
“What a day it’s been! Hafizullah outdid himself! Never have I seen so much food. I even met with some of the king’s advisers. Good people with a great deal of influence. I think this visit will bring good fortune to our family and our town. We have put ourselves under King Habibullah’s nose and he will surely remember how hospitably he has been treated here.”
“Did you speak to the king too?”
“Of course I did! What kind of question is that? He’s a wise man — this I could see right away. But they’ll be leaving at first light and I think the girl should be presented tonight, over dinner, so that everyone can see what a gift we have made to the king! We will make our mark while Hafizullah makes his. Bring the girl! I do not want to sit here and chatter with you now. I want to get back before dinner.”
“The girl is ready,” Marjan said, and went to bring her. She found Shekiba sitting against the cold wall, her legs tucked under her. “Get up, Shekiba. It’s time.”
She looked at Marjan blankly. After a moment, she rose, ignoring the pain shooting through her ribs. Marjan led her by the elbow to the living room. She stopped short in the hallway.
“Shekiba, listen to me. You are a girl without mother or father, without brothers or uncles to look after you. Obey the word of God and let Him look after you. Bring your head out of the sky and understand your place in this world.”
“I have no place in this world, Khanum Marjan.”
Marjan felt a chill run through her spine. Shekiba’s words were cold, resolute. She wondered if this half-crazed girl had finally gone completely mad. Zarmina’s warnings echoed in her mind and she decided to keep her mouth shut. If Shekiba was going into a frenzy, she didn’t want to invite her wrath.
Azizullah was standing at the door to the courtyard, putting a green and blue vest on over his tunic. His face and voice were stern.
“If this girl has any sense in her at all, she will give me no trouble tonight. And if she dares to walk with even the slightest limp, I’ll take both her legs off.”
The warning was issued. Marjan bit her lip and handed Shekiba her burqa. Shekiba slipped it over her head and followed behind her master with a resigned step.
Every footstep jolted her bruises and welts. Shekiba kept pace, though, too hurt to risk more punishment. Within twenty minutes, they approached a home with horses and armed soldiers outside. The horses were tall and muscular; their tails flicked side to side casually. But what caught Shekiba’s eye was what stood behind them. For the first time in her life, Shekiba saw a carriage. Four large wheels, a cushioned seat and handsome carvings on the sides.
The king, she realized.
They entered the front gate and walked into a courtyard nearly twice the size of Azizullah’s. Shekiba could not help but look around. There were benches and several bushes with striking purple flowers. From the living room came the sound of men laughing loudly.
She walked around to the back of the house to enter into the kitchen area.
“Stay outside, in the back. Behave yourself or I’ll let the soldiers straighten you out.”
Azizullah went in through the living room door and rejoined the gathering. Shekiba closed her eyes and tried to eavesdrop on their conversation. The sky grew dim before she heard something that actually pertained to her.