“No, don’t pick me up. Really. Please.”
“Please?” he echoes. “I’m trying to do you a favor and you’re begging me not to? Okay. Whatever.”
Great. Now he’s hurt. Or pissed off. Both, apparently.
Do you really care how he feels?
“Listen,” he says after a long pause, “about this Cincinnati thing—”
“Did I tell you it was Cincinnati?” She could have sworn she’d just said Ohio earlier, when she was rushing around trying to get ready to leave.
“Yeah. You did. You don’t remember?”
She sighs inwardly.
“Anyway . . .” he goes on after realizing she’s chosen to ignore the question, “do you want me to come along?”
“Come along? To a funeral in Cincinnati?”
“Why not? I got nothing better to do this weekend.”
That, she believes.
He goes on, uncharacteristically earnest, “You might need a friend there to support you.”
You’re not my friend, Tony.
“No, thanks,” she says.
“Okay. Just thought I’d offer.”
“That’s very sweet, but I’ll be fine.”
“Is someone picking you up there when you land?”
“Yes. A friend.”
The word spills from her tongue with deliberate emphasis.
So what if it’s a lie?
“Who? Another ‘friend’ you’ve never met?”
She doesn’t bother to answer that.
“You know, you should be more careful, Elena,” Tony tells her. “All these strangers . . . it’s not a good idea to be so trusting. I mean . . . you said your friend was murdered . . .”
Oh, crap. Did I tell him that, too?
“How do you know that whoever killed Meredith isn’t going to come after you next?”
Meredith. She apparently even told him the name. What else did she tell him? Next thing she knows, he’ll be rattling off her e-mail password and bank account PIN number.
“Hey, look—“ Tony flips on the turn signal. “We made it.”
She looks up. They’ve reached the airport exit at last.
This has been the most horrific week of Beck’s entire life. But as she stands in front of the mirror in her cheerful blue and yellow childhood bedroom wearing a somber black dress, she knows the worst is yet to come.
She hasn’t been to many funerals—she barely remembers her paternal grandfather and maternal grandmother’s. Her maternal grandfather died just a few years ago, though that was hardly a heart-wrenching tragedy, as he was in his nineties.
But this . . . today . . . Mom . . .
This is going to be brutal.
How is she going to make it through the next several hours? How is she going to stand up and read a poem at the service?
One thing is for damned certain: it won’t be by leaning on Keith.
Yes, he’s been dutifully at her side these past few days. Physically, anyway.
But emotionally? He’s completely checked out. Not just checked out of the situation, but out of their marriage. If she wasn’t a hundred percent sure of it last week at this time, it’s since become abundantly clear.
And not just to her.
Her brother Neal pulled her aside last night to ask if everything is okay between her and Keith.
“What do you mean?”
He looked her in the eye. “You know what I mean, Beck.”
She shrugged. It was no wonder Neal had noticed.
Ever since Keith drove back here to talk to the cops the other day, he’s been quieter than usual, almost standoffish with visitors—and there have been many. Everyone loved Mom. The house has been full of people.
For Beck, that’s meant an endless round of hostess duties. That, in and of itself, has been a challenge.
This is her mother’s house, not hers. Mom’s kitchen, Mom’s friends. Mom was always the one who decided what to serve, which platters to use, whether to make coffee or serve cold drinks, which glassware went into the dishwasher and which had to be washed by hand . . .
Beck and her sisters-in-law always helped, of course. But Mom called the shots.
Now it’s just her. Her brothers’ wives have had their hands full looking after their little ones, who are overwhelmed just being in the house with all these people—and without Grandma.
Both Teddy and Neal have been busy talking to people, tending to details. Teddy, the numbers guy, has been handling the bills and the paperwork; hands-on Neal dealt with the logistics of cars clogging the driveway and the street, the funeral service arrangements, where to seat all the visitors . . .
Poor Dad is too shell-shocked to do anything but sit and stare as people pat him on the shoulder.
But Keith . . .
Keith has spent the last few days either hiding away upstairs or on his phone incessantly checking his e-mail or texts. That didn’t escape Neal, the more intuitive of Beck’s brothers.
Touched by the concern in his eyes when he asked her about it, Beck said, “Now isn’t a great time to get into what’s going on with me and Keith.”
“I know it isn’t,” he agreed, putting an arm around her. “But when you need to talk . . . I’m here. Okay?”
She nodded her thanks, unable to speak.
Her brother—both her brothers—have solid marriages. Teddy rekindled the flame with his high school prom date a few years after graduation and walked down the aisle with her at twenty-three; Neil wed his college sweetheart. They’ve both always made it look so easy.
Maybe that’s why she said yes when Keith proposed, though he seemed halfhearted about it and she had her reservations even then, mostly based on his mercurial moods.
She didn’t share that with anyone, though, not even her friends, or her mother. She figured everyone must have doubts but also assumed it was normal for relationships to run hot and cold. Anyway, that was the logical sequence of events, right? Graduate high school, graduate college, get a job, get married, buy a house . . .
Have babies is supposed to be the next step, but it looks like for her it will be Hammer Out Separation Agreement.
“Rebecca?” Keith pokes his head into the room as she reaches up to fasten a string of pearls around her neck. “Your father wants to know if you’re ready to go.”
“Almost.”
The funeral director asked the family to be there a couple of hours ahead of everyone else. That was the case when her grandfather died, too—but it was so they could have a private viewing of the body.
Today, with Mom, that’s not going to happen. Her body was cremated. That was Dad’s decision. He said it was what she would have wanted.
Beck isn’t so sure about that, but she wasn’t about to argue.
Her hands tremble; she struggles with the clasp on her necklace.
Keith, still standing behind her in the doorway of her room, doesn’t move to help her. Not surprising.
She wonders if he remembers that she wore these pearls on their wedding day. Mom gave them to her. Beck stumbled across them last night in a velvet case in a dresser drawer here in her bedroom, still right where she stowed them before she and Keith left on their honeymoon.
Whoever broke into the house—whoever murdered her mother—didn’t find them.
He didn’t find a lot of things you’d have expected to be stolen.
Maybe that’s why the detectives don’t seem convinced it was a just a simple robbery gone bad. They didn’t come right out and say that the other day, but Beck could read between the lines.
They suspect her father.
That they didn’t arrest him doesn’t mean they’ve ruled him out—but it doesn’t mean they haven’t.
She can only hope that after interviewing everyone in the family, including Dad himself, they realize it’s ludicrous to think he could be behind this.
But if it goes any further and the police want to talk to Dad again . . .
Beck and her brothers have been quietly discussing whether they should hire an attorney. It’s not something anyone wants to bring up to their father, but they’ve agreed that if the questioning persists after today, they should all stop talking to the detectives and get in touch with a lawyer.