She heard him approach the bed and for a moment he stood over her, his breathing deep and even. Then she heard him whisper her name. Her heart leaped and she fought the urge to jump up and throw her arms around him in joy. Instead, she keep her eyes closed and her body still.
The bed sank beneath his weight. He moaned softly as he pulled her against him, pressing her backside into his lap and wrapping his arms around her waist. She knew he just needed to be with someone, anyone, right now, but she was thankful he'd chosen her. For the first time, she understood the loneliness he felt, isolated and so far from everything familiar. She'd felt that same loneliness as she watched him on the beach.
Still, though she knew he was in pain, a lazy sense of comfort and satisfaction worked its way through her body. She felt exhausted, yet strangely exhilarated. He was here with her, where he belonged, at least for a little while longer.
When she was certain he slept, Meredith slipped out of his arms and turned on the bedside lamp. The light spilled across his face and she held her breath, waiting for him to open his eyes. But he was deep in slumber, his perfect features tranquil and untroubled.
She turned on her side and faced him, lazily studying every detail of his face. Dark lashes, sinfully long for a man, and flawlessly arched eyebrows, as black as raven's wings, framed his eyes. Taken alone, they would have appeared almost feminine, but amidst the strong cheekbones, the sculpted mouth and the aristocratic nose, they fell into a remarkable masculine balance.
He had changed back into his old clothes before going out to the beach, but he had discarded his waistcoat before crawling into bed with her. His linen shirt gaped open in the front, revealing a wide expanse of smooth chest, dusted with dark hair. She reached out and held her hand close to his skin, close enough to feel the warmth radiating into her fingers, yet not close enough to touch him. Slowly, she skimmed her fingers above the ridges of his muscles, imagining the feel of him, without making contact.
As she explored his body this way, first with her eyes and then with an invisible touch, she marveled at the man who shared her bed… the man who had kissed her earlier… the man who had awakened feelings she never knew she possessed.
She'd had a number of relationships with colleagues on campus, always more intellectual than anything else. But she'd never felt for them what she felt for Griffin. Though she had tried to convince herself she was sexually attracted to these men, when it came right down to consummating the relationship, she couldn't bring herself to go through with it.
In this day and age, her virginity loomed over her like a big scarlet V, a quality that most men felt was more odd than admirable. So maybe she was a little repressed, but all repression aside, she couldn't deny her attraction to Griffin.
He was the opposite of everything she'd thought she wanted in a man-he was a man of action, not introspection. He could be brooding and distant, keeping his emotions locked deep inside. Griffin Rourke was definitely not a sensitive, nineties kind of guy. But she didn't want that. She wanted him-exactly the way he was, with all his simmering arrogance and sensual energy and chauvinistic ideas.
Maybe that was why she felt so at ease around him. In the past, just the thought of making love to a man had caused her paroxysms of nervousness. But Griffin knew nothing about the games that men and women played in today's society. To him, she appeared sophisticated and self-assured, a woman of action, and in his presence, she'd begun to believe as much of herself.
She groaned inwardly. If only that were true. If only she werea woman of action, she might be able to touch him, instead of just holding her hand so near to his body. Or she might have the nerve to kiss him, instead of just staring at his lips. Or she might even make love to him, instead of fantasizing about it.
She watched him for a long time, inhaling the scent of him, committing every detail of Griffin Rourke to her mind, knowing that at any moment, he might be snatched from her life forever.
As her eyes finally drifted shut and she felt herself slip ping toward sleep, she knew that it didn't matter how much time they had left. It would never be enough. And yet, it had to be. For whatever it was-a day, a week, a year-it would have to last her a lifetime.
Rain drummed gently on the roof of the cottage. Griffin stood at the window and stared out at the steel gray sky and the dark water below. The trees in the yard swayed against a fine breeze which blew across the Sound to the mainland. Thunder rumbled in the distance, low and deep. With a silent oath, he turned and looked at Merrie. She sat on the sofa, her legs curled beneath her, books spread all about her, perfectly happy to stay inside.
"I have sailed in weather much worse than this," he said. "The wind is perfect for a quick sail up the Pamticoe."
"Pamlico," Merrie corrected distractedly. "And I'm sure you have."
"You would not be in any danger."
She looked up at him with doubtful green eyes. "There is nothing that you can say that will get me out on the water today, so you might as well relax."
"Relax," Griffin muttered. "I cannot relax. I don't understand this preoccupation you have with relaxing. We have been relaxing for three days, waiting for this weather to clear. 'Tis only rain."
After three nights waiting on the beach, waiting for time to swallow him up again, he was anxious to try something new. Their trip to Bath had given him new hope. A visit to where it all began might provide answers to the way back.
"We're in the middle of hurricane season. I'm not going out on the water until the sky is perfectly clear and that's that." She glanced up at him. "Can't you find something better to do than pace the room and curse beneath your breath? Why don't you take a walk?"
"I do not find aimless walking about a relaxing venture," he replied.
"What do you colonials do for fun? You must have something to occupy your leisure time."
"There is fox hunting and cockfighting," Griffin said.
"I meant like a hobby," Meredith said.
"Horse racing, wrestling matches. Sometimes there are parties with dancing and gambling… and drinking, of course."
Meredith frowned. "All right, maybe there isn't much of interest to occupy your time here. We'll just have to find you some new hobbies."
"To what end? What would this pointless activity accomplish? Would it turn me a better profit or make my life easier?"
Merrie blinked, then frowned, a look of consternation crossing her pretty features. "No," she finally said. "But it would give me time to do my own work."
Griffin sighed inwardly at her edgy reply. Would he ever learn to control his impatience? It was his least admirable quality, right behind his stubborn nature. "All right," he relented. "I would agree that during my time here, I could make use of a hobby."
Her smile was worth his capitulation, for it warmed him to the very center of his soul.
"Good," Merrie said. "Now, what did you usually do on a rainy day back in your time?"
He grinned lasciviously. "I can think of only one thing," he teased. "And I would guess things have not changed that much in this century."
"I'm talking about hobbies, here," Merrie said, understanding his meaning immediately. "What would you like to be doing… for fun… I mean, for a hobby?"
Griffin considered the question for a long minute then shook his head. Besides spending a rainy afternoon in bed with a warm and willing woman, the only other thing he could imagine doing was standing on the deck of his own ship, feeling the swell of the sea beneath his feet and the rain on his face, hearing the snap of the sails above his head. He'd been born to captain a ship, to realize the dreams his father had of building a vast shipping empire on the profits from tobacco.