Off-balance and stumbling, he falls against me. Hard.
Actually, he falls against me gently. He is what’s hard…part of him anyway.
Blip.
Ladies and gentlemen, we have blip.
“Mr. Canon,” I whisper up to him, “explain yourself.” My left hand runs smoothly along his hip, drawing ever closer to his…revelation.
I’m not sure where this boldness is coming from. My index finger traces his length. The fabric is rough under my touch.
He hisses. He hesitates. I feel his palms smooth over my arms.
“Some might say this constitutes an offer,” I breathe. Warmth from his hands sears my skin. I’m calm; I don’t let it show.
“One should not make offers one is not prepared to complete.” I turn his words back on him and grasp him firmly.
His head rolls back. I watch his throat as he swallows repeatedly.
He’s losing it. I want more. The power intoxicates me.
Watching him for a reaction, I pull his zipper. He doesn’t disappoint; his breath ceases.
“Stop me,” I say.
He doesn’t. I slip inside and hold him. Grip. Fist.
Claim.
It is silk and heat and pulsing want. His body jerks, surges forward, and I can barely contain my shit because I know, I just know, this is a pure reaction. This is a human moment, and it is everything I wanted and more.
So much more.
My body sings. Oh, my—I am controlling him…I have him in the palm of my hand. Literally. Figuratively.
Fingers curling around, thumb in tight circling circuits, pressing his flesh. He rocks and pants into my hair, down my face. Power. Intoxicating power. This, this I could get drunk on. My free hand follows along the path of his shirt buttons. I release him, and he makes a noise that sounds like a pained whimper, but it dies on his lips when I grab his shirt and tear it open, broken buttons flying across the room.
“Didn’t think I had it in me, did you?” I say as I press my lips to his chest.
“Em…you…you don’t really want this…”
I shove him against the wall. The thud sounds through the room.
“Don’t tell me what I want.” I speak against his skin as I tongue and bend and descend…lower, lower.
“I’m sure I know what you want.” My knees hit the floor. “I’m excellent with non-verbal communication.”
A rhythmic beat resounds in the room. I think it’s the blood rushing through my system, but then I realize he’s banging his head against the wall again and again. He is losing it. I want more.
He’s still nearly fully dressed; I watch his chest rise and fall between partially untucked shirt scraps and draw him out through his open zipper.
My mouth closes around him. He clamps down on my shoulders as if to steady himself, as though the wall is not enough to support his weight. He’s leaning on me. Needs me.
Tapping on his belt buckle, I pull back and say, “Off.”
He nods mutely and complies.
Now, there is an element to oral sex that might be called worshipful, and I’m a fan of it—and even in the pale light it’s clear his cock is worthy of worship, praise, maybe some hymns—but that is not what I’m here for today. I suck him in, swallow around him, press my tongue flat and create enough suction to rival a Hoover.
His knees give a bit, and since his legs are so long, it actually puts him at a better angle.
One hand returns to his ass, securing him where I want him, and I stroke him with the other. He’s moaning and writhing, and I know this is going to be fast.
Embarrassingly fast.
I want nothing more.
I pull out all the stops. Tongue his slit. Tight in my mouth. Hint of teeth. In unison, my hand moves from his ass to massage his perineum while I pull him to the back of my throat, hum, and swallow.
Whoo-hoo. Mind over matter. Deep throat. I have never been able to do that before.
I hum—sorta, it’s not the easiest thing when your airway is obstructed—and only I know it is the opening bars of “The Battle Hymn of the Republic.”
“I…I’m…Christ.” His back is bowed out, arcing, as he twitches and swells. I pull back, and he spills onto my tongue and struggles to stop rocking.
He’s gasping for air, and his hands are running through my hair, then along my face with…reverence?
That is unexpected.
I stand and spit.
“I will add pineapple juice to your breakfasts,” I say and pat his tie twice, his chest heaving underneath. “Drink it if you ever want that to happen again.”
10:10 p.m.
*
Emma Baker
: I don’t give head. I claim it.
ROWE WAS ON THE MONEY about one thing tonight: I did get new stains on my bedspread.
Oh, my God. I sucked off Alaric Canon.
This is something we need to talk about. Discuss. Hash out. Cover.
What have I done?
I wonder if going to his room now is a good idea.
Oh, sure—now I worry about crossing a line. Knocking on a door now is not too invasive; I have tasted the man’s semen, pinged his radar so hard I pretty much sank his battleship.
He would let me know if he wanted to talk, surely.
I’m definitely the sort of person who would want to talk about this…situation. Explain myself, if there is any explanation. Defend if it is defensible. Hear these same things from him. I want to understand him, this. He wanted it, even in a war with himself, he wanted…me?
Maybe this isn’t such a mystery. What guy is gonna turn down a blow job?
I need answers. It’s only natural. It’s in my nature.
But…
I’m not me right now. Nothing I’m doing is natural. Today, the role of Docile will be played by Emma Baker.
And a docile Emma wouldn’t go seeking answers.
She would make sure Mr. Canon’s coffee was ready at 7:00 a.m.
She would turn the lights out and go to sleep so she had her head on straight and could facilitate her boss’s schedule, and she would not not not fellate her boss’s tool.
Since I am only acting like a docile Emma, the lights go out but sleep doesn’t happen.
Day of Employment:
381
6:47 a.m.
*
Bags
: Packed. In case of hasty retreat.
*
Hair
: Straight. Clipped back.
*
Coffee
: Ready.
*
Me
: Not.
I HAVE BEEN STANDING in the hallway for a while. Mustering. Muttering.
Don’t think about it. Don’t think about it. Don’t think—
My hand rises to his door to knock. Before I can, he opens it.
Make or break. If I make eye contact, it’s going to break me.
“Good morning, Mr. Canon,” I say, breezing past him and setting his coffee down with a flourish.
I begin gathering up his things, focusing on them. “Rebecca sent over the reports you asked for; Peters’ assistant finally emailed me the correct documents this time; they’re catering lunch in from a pizza place, so I requested thin crust for you; I have forwarded an email from Mr. Dowry about some tickets to an event later this week; and I will need time in my schedule this afternoon to relocate everything to the new hotel.” And…breathe!
I have packed up during this spiel and now have nothing to do but look up at him.
He’s standing across the room, ready except for the suit jacket still draped across the bed. He seems to have been motionless during my act, to have simply watched me.
I finally meet his eyes. He blinks away.
For over a minute, he says nothing while he fastens his cuffs.
“Is that everything, Ms. Baker?” Monotone.
“I believe so, Mr. Canon.”
“Very well.” He grabs his things and sidesteps the incoming breakfast cart as he exits.