"She clearly likes bugs," said Haik. "The world is full of them. They are far more common than people and more varied. Maybe her plan was to create a multitude of bugs through beauty and death, and we are an accidental result of her breeding of bugs."
"Do you believe that?"
"No. She told me we have a gift no other living creature had: we know what we do. I believe this gift is not an accident. She wanted comprehension."
Haik was wrong in saying this, according to modern scientists. They believe life is entirely an accident, though evidently an accident that happens often, since life has appeared on many planets. Intelligent life is far less common, but has clearly appeared on at least two planets and may be present elsewhere in a form we do not recognize. It also is an accident, modern thinkers say. This is hard for many of us to believe; and Haik, living in the distant past, could hardly be expected to bring forward an idea so disturbing.
"Well, you certainly ought to listen to the Goddess, if she talks to you," said Hattali. "When will I hear your play, Dapple?"
"It will take a few days to prepare."
The matriarch tilted her head in acquiescence.
They left Hattali then, going back to their room. "I want you to make masks for a new play," Dapple said. "Five of your strange animals. They interest Hattali. Sit with her while you work, and tell her about your ideas. Taiin is an excellent man. None better! But her illness has got him frightened; and his fear is not helping her mood. Maybe she knows what she’s doing. Maybe it is time for her to die. But I wonder if the fall has frightened her as well as her relatives. A woman like Hattali should not die from fear."
"Has she no daughters?"
"Two. Good women, but not half what she is, and she’s never gotten along with either. The love of her life has always been Taiin."
He left the next morning, called to the western border. Gwa scouts had been seen. Their old enemies might have heard that Hattali was dying. What better time to attack?
"They expect that grief will break me," Taiin said, standing in the house’s front court, dressed in metal and leather armor. A sword hung at his side, and a battle axe hung from a loop on his saddle. "It may, but not while there’s work to be done." He swung himself onto his tsineasily, in spite of age and his bad leg. Once settled on the animal, he looked down at Haik and Dapple.
"She is the last of her generation. What people they were, especially the women! As solid as stone walls and towers! I have lived my entire life in their protection. Now, the walls are broken. Only one tower remains. What will I do, when Hattali is gone?"
"Defend Ettin," said Dapple.
He gathered the tsin’s reins, grinning. "You’re right, of course. Maybe, if I’m lucky, we’ll capture a Gwa spy."
A moment later he was through the house’s gate, moving steadily along the dusty road, his men following, armed and armored.
"You may be wondering about his last remark," Dapple said.
Haik opened her mouth to say no.
"There are men who take pleasure in raping prisoners before they kill them. Or in harming them in other ways. I have suspected Taiin is one such. Now I’m certain."
This was how he’d deal with his grief at Hattali’s illness: by making someone else’s end unpleasant.
"Beauty and death," Dapple said. "This is the way the Goddess has organized her world, according to you and your bones."
They spent the next several days on Ettin Hattali’s terrace. The weather remained dry and sunny. Haik worked on the masks, while Dapple sat with paper and brush, sometimes writing, more often listening.
There was a folding table next to Hattali’s chair. The matriarch’s relatives brought out food and drink. In any ordinary circumstance, it would have been rude to eat while conversing with other people, especially guests, but the old lady had not been eating. Good health always goes in front of good manners.
At first, Hattali ignored everything except water, brought in a glass goblet. This she held, turning the precious object between her bent fingers.
The first mask was the animal on Hattali’s funeral pot: a long narrow head, the jaw hinged and moved with a string, the mouth full of pointed teeth. Snap! Snap!
The skin would be mottled green, Haik decided; the eyes large, round, and red. There were existing animals–small hunters with scaly hides–that had triangular pupils. She would give this creature the same. The spines on the back would be a banner, supported by a harness over Dapple’s shoulders. Hah! It would flutter when her lover danced! As she worked, she described the mask to Hattali.
"Have you ever found large animals?" the old woman asked.
"Not complete. But large bones, yes, and teeth that are longer than my hands. The layer they are in is high on my native cliffs and was laid down when the country was above water. They were land-dwellers, those animals, larger than anything living now, at least in the regions I’ve visited, and with teeth that remind me of birds’ teeth, though more irregular and much larger."
"What eyesight you have!" Hattali exclaimed. "To see into the distant past! Do you really believe these creatures existed?"
"They did," said Haik firmly.
Gradually, as their conversation continued, the old lady began to eat: hard biscuits first, then pieces of fruit, then halinin a small, square, ceramic cup. Hattali was sitting upright now, her bony shoulders straight under an embroidered robe. Hah! She was licking her fingers! "Can you write, Haik?"
"Yes."
"I want you to write down your ideas and draw the animals you’ve found in stone. I’ll have one of my female relatives make a copy."
"You believe me," said Haik in surprise.
"Most of what you’ve told me I knew already," Hattali answered. "How could any woman not know about inheritance, who has lived long enough to see traits appear and reappear in families of people, sulin,and tsina?But I lacked a framework on which to string my information. This is what you’ve given me. The frame! The loom! Think of the patterns the Ettin will be able to weave, now that we understand what the Goddess has been doing with sex and death and time!" The old woman shifted in her chair. There was a cup of halinnext to her on the folding table. She felt for it, grasped it and drank, then reached for a piece of fruit. "I have been wondering whether it’s time for me to die. Did you notice?"
"Yes," murmured Dapple.
"The blindness is hard to endure; but life remains interesting, and my kin tell me that they still need my judgment. I can hardly refuse their pleas. But when I fell, I thought–I know this illness. It strikes women down like a blow from a war club. When they rise, if they rise, who can say what the damage will be? Paralysis, stupor, the loss of speech or thought.
"This time the only damage was to one leg. But I may fall again. I have seen relatives, grave senior female cousins, turn into something less than animals–witless and grieving, though they do not remember the cause of their grief. Maybe, I thought, it would be better to stop eating now and die while I am still able to chose death.
"But I want your book first. Will you write it for me?"