The man, in his madness, grabbed hold of Julia by her shoulders, dragged her back, swung her around, and pushed her to the floor! She fell heavily on the uncarpeted boards, while I, in the greatest distress, stood up from the table where I had been performing and tried to reach her. The assailant was between us.
Again Nugent grabbed him, this time restraining from behind, clasping his arms at the back.
"What shall I do with him, sir?" Nugent cried valorously.
"Into the street with him!" I yelled. "No, wait!"
The light from the window was falling directly on his face. Behind him I saw the sight I then most wanted to see; dearest Julia was rising once more to her feet. She signalled quickly to me that she was not hurt, and so I turned my attention on the man.
"Who are you, sir?" I questioned him. "What interest is it you have in my affairs?"
"Get your ruffian to release me!" he muttered, breathing stertorously. "Then I will depart."
"You will depart when I decide!" I said. I stepped closer to him, for now I recognized him. "You are Borden, are you not? Borden!"
"That is not correct!"
"Alfred Borden, indeed! I have seen your work! What are you doing here?"
"Let me go!"
"What's your business with me, Borden?"
He made no answer, but instead struggled violently against Nugent's hold.
"Get rid of him!" I ordered. "Throw him where he belongs, into the gutter!"
Then it was done, and with commendable despatch Nugent dragged the wretch out of the room, and returned alone a few moments later.
By this time I had taken Julia into my arms and was holding her close, trying to reassure myself that she was indeed unharmed, even after being thrown so roughly to the floor.
"If he has hurt you or the baby—" I whispered to her.
"I am not injured," Julia replied. "Who was he?"
"Later, my dear," I said softly, because I was all too aware that we were still in the shambles of the ruined sйance, with an angry or humiliated client, his miserable children, his four adult relatives and friends now visibly shocked.
I said to them all with as much gravity and dignity as I could muster, "You understand I cannot continue?"
They showed their assent.
The children were led away, and Mr L—— and I went into private conference. He was indeed a sympathetic, intelligent man, proposing at once that we should leave all matters as they presently stood, and that we should meet again in a day or two to decide our next move. I assented gratefully, and after Nugent and I had transported our apparatus back to the cart we set off for home. While Nugent drove, Julia and I huddled together behind him in a state of distress and introspection.
I voiced my suspicions as we trundled along in the gathering twilight.
"That was Alfred Borden," I explained. "I know little of him other than that he is a magician, barely distinguished in the business. Since his interruption I have been trying to recall how I know him. I think I must have seen him perform on the stage. But he is hardly a major figure in our field. Perhaps he was deputing for another when I saw him."
I was speaking as much to myself as to Julia, trying to make the assailant comprehensible in a way I recognized. I could only explain his attack on me in terms of professional jealousy. What other motive could there be? We were virtual strangers to each other, and unless there was a substantial lapse in my memory our paths had never crossed before. Yet his whole demeanour was that of a man bent on a mission of revenge.
Julia was hunched beside me in the foggy evening air. I questioned her about her health many times, trying to reassure myself she had not been harmed by the fall, but she said only that she was anxious to return home.
Soon enough we were here in Idmiston Villas, and I made her go straight to bed. She looked exhausted and strained, but she continued to assert that all she required was rest. I sat with her until she fell asleep, and after a hastily prepared bowl of soup, and a quick and energetic walk through local side streets to try to clear my mind, I returned to write this account of the day.
I have twice broken off to see Julia, and she is sleeping peacefully.
24th November 1878
The worst day of my life.
27th November 1878
Julia is home from hospital. once more she is sleeping, and once again I come to this diary, such barely adequate source of temporary distraction and comfort as it is.
Briefly, Julia wakened in the small hours of the 24th. She was bleeding heavily and racked with pain. This seemed to course through her like a series of waves, making her scream and contort in agony before giving her temporary surcease, then beginning again.
I dressed at once, roused my neighbours, and begged Mrs Janson to leave her own bed and sit with Julia while I sought help. She agreed without complaint, allowing me to rush off into the night. Luck, if that is the word, was briefly with me. I came across a hackney cabman, apparently returning to his home at the end of a night of work, and I pleaded with him to help me. This he did. Within an hour Julia was in St Mary's Hospital in Paddington, and the surgeons did their necessary work.
Our baby was lost; I almost lost Julia too.
She remained in the public ward for the rest of the day, and for the two days following until this morning, when I was allowed at last to collect her.
There is a single name that has now unexpectedly entered my life, and it is one I shall never forget. It is Alfred Borden’s.
3rd December 1878
Julia is still weak, but she says she hopes to be able to help me with my sйances from next week. I have not yet told her, but I have already decided that never again shall she be put at risk. I have advertised once more for a female assistant. Meanwhile, this evening I have a stage performance to carry out, and have had to search through my repertoire to put together an act that does not require assistance.
11th December 1878
I came across Borden's name today. He is advertised as a guest magician in a variety show in Brentford. I checked with Hesketh Unwin, the man whom I have recently appointed as my agent, and learned to my satisfaction that Borden was a replacement for another illusionist who had been suddenly taken ill, and in the process caused the magical act to be moved from second on the bill to the graveyard of all magicians: the first act after the interval! I showed this to Julia.
31st December 1878
Total Income From Magic for 1878: Ј326 19s 3d. From this must be deducted expenses, including the hiring of Appleby and Nugent, the purchase and stabling of the horse, purchase of costumes, and much apparatus.
12th January 1879
My first sйance of the new year, and the first in which I was assisted by Letitia Swinton. Letitia was formerly in the chorus at the Alexandria and has much to learn about the magic profession, but I am hopeful she will improve. At the end of the sйance I asked Nugent to hurry me back to Idmiston Villas, where I have been with Julia, telling her of my day.
A letter was waiting for me here. Mr L—— has decided, in the event, that he no longer requires a sйance in his home, but that in careful consideration of what happened he has decided I should be paid the full fee, as agreed. His payment was enclosed.
13th January 1879
Today Julia locked herself in the bedroom, ignored all my knocking and pleading and admitted only the maid, who took her tea and some bread. I was not working today, and had been planning to be at the workshop, but in view of Julia's strange mood felt I should remain at home. Julia emerged after 8.00 p.m., and said nothing of what she had done or why she had done it. I am perplexed by all this. She says she is no longer in pain, but other than this refuses to discuss what happened.