“That makes no difference. You know it doesn’t. Seeing is thinking and thinking is as bad as doing. Have you forgotten old Palmer?”
He had lived in a cottage outside the city walls, a long way from the road. A peddler, desperate to sell his goods, had called there one day and later reported what he had seen: this man, neither farrier nor armorer nor metalworker, was brazing metal and building something from it. The soldiers rode out of the Prince’s command and took him. He was tried and found guilty and hanged. For a week his body hung on the gibbet outside the North Gate.
Martin said: “He was making a machine. And in his cottage, where anyone might find out. We are the only ones who know this place. I have not shown the book to anyone else and will not. I will hide it; not even in here. Under rubble, outside.”
“But it is a forbidden thing! Whether you are discovered or not, that is true.”
“But why forbidden?”
“You do not need to ask that. Because our ancestors made machines and the machines destroyed the earth, causing earthquakes and volcanoes that killed men by the hundreds of thousands. That is why the Spirits decreed that the making of machines was an abomination.”
“I suppose there were bad machines. But there may have been others as well. This one—I cannot follow the details properly—but it is about something that cuts grass. How could that cause earthquakes and volcanoes?”
“I tell you the Spirits condemn machines. All machines.”
“The Spirits, or the Seers?”
“The Seers are the servants of the Spirits.”
“Or their masters.”
“You must be mad! No man can rule the Spirits, who are eternal.”
“If they exist.”
“You have seen and heard them.”
“I have seen strange things, in the dark.”
“That is blasphemy!”
I spoke in anger. I almost hit him, moving a step forward and doubling my fist. We stared at each other in the flickering candle’s light; then I stooped and picked up the book. Martin made no protest as I shredded the pages: they were not parchment but made of some flimsier material. There were more pictures of machines and I averted my eyes so as not to see them. He watched me as I crumpled the pages on the floor and put the candle flame to a corner of one. They burned slowly because there was no draft down here, and smokily. When the heap was charred and black I put my heel on it and ground it into fine ash.
I said: “I’m going up now. There might be news of the fighting. Are you coming?”
He nodded. “All right.”
I wanted to tell him why I had been angry. Not because of the blasphemy in itself but because of the risks that it involved. It was true that he had only said these things to me and in a place where we were quite alone, but even that was dangerous. What point was there in giving word to thoughts like that? One took risks, in battle for instance, but only for a worthwhile end. There was none here.
But I said nothing because, my anger cooling, I thought it best to let it all drop, to forget this unprofitable and perilous subject. We did not talk about it again except one night, weeks later, when we stood together on the northern wall and watched the red glow of the Burning Lands beyond the hills. As we looked a spot brightened, sign of a new eruption. Martin said:
“How could they have caused it?”
“What?”
“The machines. How could any machine make the earth produce burning mountains? I have listened to a man who has seen them quite close. Thousands of feet high, he said. How could any machine do that?”
I said: “It doesn’t matter how. And it is not worth talking about. It happened, and that’s enough.”
I was not angry now but anxious for him. For myself, too. I could hear voices from an alehouse behind and beneath us, spilling out through the night air. But Martin said no more.
• • •
I had the chance of making many new friends at that time. Boys, of my own age and older, paid me a lot of attention, seeking my company and flattering me when they had it. I suppose something of the sort might have happened simply because of my victory in the Contest, but of course there was more to it than that. From being nobody, the second son of an obscure Captain, I had become the Prince’s heir.
This flattery did not please me as at one time I would have thought it would. On the contrary the few fits of depression I endured during that splendid summer were directly caused by it; because it all seemed meaningless when it was lavished on me and worse than meaningless: destructive. The victory had been a true one, and hard-earned; my father’s acclamation and the honor paid me by the Spirits were both great things. To hear them mouthed by sycophants was to have them cheapened, and I was forced to turn away before they were made entirely worthless. Two or three times I went back to my room in the palace, not wanting even to see Martin, and lay on my bed, my thoughts black with despair. What sense was there in striving for anything, when all achievement ended as the prey of mean minds? But the moods were few, and they passed quickly.
I knew what was said of me when I turned away—that my head had been swollen by my success and my father’s, that I was too proud to mix with those I deemed lesser mortals. So at times I gritted my teeth and made an effort to put up with them; not because I cared much for their opinions but because these were my father’s subjects and would, in due course, be mine. Between a Prince and his people there must be good will or at least its semblance. I do not know how far I succeeded in my wooing of them. Not much, I fancy. My heart was never in it.
The one whom I did take to my heart and who became my second friend, strangely enough, was Edmund. My father had been magnanimous in his dealings with Stephen’s family. There had been some who had argued that his sons should be killed and many who had favored exiling them from the city. They had stood with their father in defying the Spirits and removing them meant removing a future danger. But my father would have none of this. They had done their duty as sons in supporting their father and provided they made due allegiance to the new Prince no harm should come to them: Charles was permitted to keep his Captaincy.
But their position was a poor one. Poor as far as money was concerned—their father’s goods were forfeit and they and their mother went to live in a small house, a hovel almost, in Salt Street—and poor in reputation. No one now had a good word to say for the dead Prince and his sons incurred the same scorn. The boys who crowded round me spurned Edmund, whom a few weeks earlier they had courted.
One day I was with a group of boys at the Buttercross when Edmund joined us. There had already been attempts to make an Ishmael of him by showing that he was unwelcome, but he had stubbornly refused to accept it. The boys started this again and one of them said something about a smell of death and traitors. Others laughed. I saw Edmund go white. He said:
“My father was no traitor, but killed by one. A traitor from a gutter in Dog Alley . . . and now you lick his boots!”
It was true that my father had been born in that street, one of the meanest in the city. The eyes of the others watched me greedily to see what I would do. I did not want to fight him here, in front of them. I made a jest instead.
“Dog Alley—that runs into Salt Street, doesn’t it?”
They laughed in support of me. Edmund said:
“Yes. Times change. Scum comes to the top.”
He spat at my boots as he said that. I had no choice but to hit him. They formed a ring around us, and we fought.
His family had been noble as long as could be remembered in the city—since the Disaster, it was said—and he had a look of breeding, being tall with a long face, thin lips, arrogant blue eyes. But he was strong, too, and he fought with the anger pent up since his father’s death. He threw me and leaped on me. I rolled clear and got to my feet. We grappled and he threw me again. He knelt on me trying to spread-eagle my arms. Panting, sobbing almost, he whispered: “Scum . . . scum!”