The strangest feeling came over her. God's truth, he made her feel safe. How long had it been since she'd felt that way? Nicholaa couldn't remember.
She didn't even worry about leaving now. Royce would protect her no matter where they were.
"What are you going to do?" she asked.
"I'll take care of it, Nicholaa." She nodded.
"Stand up now and let me help you get your clothes off," he said quietly.
"Why?"
He ignored the startled tone in her voice. "So you can sleep, wife. I'll wait until your hands have healed before bedding you."
"Thank you."
"Hell, you don't have to sound so relieved."
His surly tone of voice told her she'd offended him. She guessed she'd dented his pride. She stood up and faced him. "Royce, the first time between a husband and a wife should be special, shouldn't it?"
She was blushing like a virgin. She couldn't look him in the eye, either. Her gaze was centered on the floor. He couldn't resist goading her just a little. "But you've been married before, remember? You've had a child, too, or have you forgotten Ulric?"
"Of course I remember Ulric," she rushed out. "I was just trying to explain that, with or without experience, the first time between us should be…"
"Special?" he said when she didn't continue. She nodded. "I would rather not have to worry about someone putting a dagger between your shoulder blades while you're… otherwise occupied."
He untied her belt, tossed it aside, and then stood up. He tried to detach himself from what he was doing as he pulled the bliaut up, over her head. The rest of her clothes followed, save for the thin-as-air chemise. A heavy silence fell between them. She stood as still as a statue. She didn't feel like one, though. Royce was already regretting his rash promise not to bed her.
"You didn't mention your own shoulder blades," he remarked in an attempt to ease the tension building inside him. "You could well be the first to feel the enemy's blade." His voice sounded harsh to him.
She stood before him, her toes curled into the rushes, her head bowed low. Lord, she was even more beautiful without her clothes on. Her legs were so incredibly long. Her skin was smooth all over, and in the flickering candlelight she looked like a golden goddess from magical days.
The provocative scoop-neck chemise left little to his imagination. The swell of her full breasts pressing against the embroidered fabric made his chest tighten.
Yes, she was beautiful. And she belonged to him.
"You wouldn't let anyone hurt me."
"What did you say?"
"I said you wouldn't let anyone hurt me."
It took all his discipline to concentrate on the conversation. "No, I wouldn't."
"Why are you frowning? Are you angry with me?"
He shook his head and almost laughed. The innocent had absolutely no idea what thoughts were going through his mind. He took a deep breath and then put his bride to bed. He covered her with the blankets and turned back to the door.
"Nicholaa?" he called over his shoulder.
"Yes?"
"When we reach my holding," he said, stressing his ownership. "I won't allow any more lies. From the moment we take up residence, you'll always tell me the truth."
"Are you thinking I lied about the woman telling me to kill you?"
"No," he answered. He turned and stared at her.
"I'm talking about the other lies you've told me. They end when we reach Rosewood. Give me your promise."
She didn't want to promise him anything. "What lies do you mean?" she asked, trying to find out exactly what he knew.
"It isn't necessary for me to explain," he countered. "Just promise me, Nicholaa." A hard glint came into his eyes as he waited for her to give him what he wanted.
"Royce, understand this," she whispered. "I will do whatever I have to do to protect Ulric and Justin. That promise I give you now."
"Is lying to me your way of protecting them?"
"In the past, when I-"
"I'm talking about the future," he interrupted. "From the minute we reach Rosewood," he added. "No more lies."
She took a deep breath. "All right," she whispered. "I promise you there won't be any more lies."
Royce turned around and started for the door again. He'd already dismissed his wife from his thoughts. There was much to be done before dawn. He had reached for the door latch when Nicholaa called out to him.
"Royce, my father always kissed my mother good night. It was a family tradition."
He turned back to her. "And?"
"It's a Saxon tradition, too." Another minute passed. "I was just wondering if it was a Norman tradition, too." She was trying to act nonchalant.
He shrugged his answer.
"Traditions should be continued, Royce, especially during unsettled times."
"Why?"
The man wasn't catching on. It was apparent he still didn't understand she wanted him to kiss her. "So they won't be forgotten," she muttered.
"Nicholaa? Do you want me to kiss you?"
So much for subtlety, she thought to herself. "Yes."
As soon as she saw him coming toward her, she closed her eyes. Royce sat down on the side of the bed. He leaned down and kissed her brow. She told him thank you. He kissed the bridge of her nose. She said thank you again.
Her face looked as if it had been burned by the sun. He knew she was embarrassed, but didn't have the faintest idea why. He was too pleased that she wanted his touch to dwell on her daft behavior.
"Traditions are v-very important to m-me," she stammered. "Now that you're my husband, they have to be important to you, too."
That statement gave him pause. "They do?"
"Yes," she answered. She opened her eyes to look up at him. "It's not that I want you to kiss me. It's just that-"
She quit trying to explain when his mouth settled on hers. He stole her concentration completely. His mouth was so wonderfully warm. His fingers threaded through her hair to hold her captive, although that wasn't really necessary; she didn't want to move. The kiss was gentle, undemanding. It left her breathless. And wanting.
Royce pulled back just a little. "Open your mouth for me, Nicholaa," he whispered.
She barely had time to do as he commanded before his mouth took possession again. His tongue swept inside her mouth then, to taste, to stroke, to drive her wild.
He held her still as his mouth slanted over hers again and again. He felt her tremble, and in the back of his mind was the thought that he was probably scaring the hell out of her. She was such an innocent.
Then her tongue touched his and she let out a low, ragged moan. He could feel the passion in her response. Stunned, he damn near lost his control then and there.
He forced himself to pull back. His smile was tender when he saw the result of his touch. Her lips were swollen, rosy, and she wore the most astonished expression.
He rubbed his thumb across her lower lip.
"I don't believe my father ever kissed my mother quite like that," she whispered.
There was a definite sparkle in her eyes. He realized she was teasing him. He responded in kind. "With all those children? I think he did."
He bent down and kissed her again, a quick no-nonsense kiss without a hint of passion in it. She couldn't hide her disappointment when he stood up. "Now go to sleep, Nicholaa," he ordered. "The tradition has been continued."
She didn't say thank you. She sighed instead. Nicholaa was sound asleep before Royce reached the door.
Two fresh guards had just arrived to replace the pair in the hallway. All four soldiers were seasoned knights under Royce's command. One soldier held a goblet filled with the sleeping draft the healer had just delivered. Royce ordered the soldier to throw it away. He then commanded another guard to tell Lawrence he needed to speak to him.