“Luke. Don’t,” I begged.
He turned to me then, still on the phone.
“Oh, she’s at yoga? No, no message, I’ll just call back later. She’ll be in after seven? Okay, thanks, Mrs. Caswell,” he said, pressing End. He slid the phone back in his pocket. Logan and Dev let go.
“You’re fucking crazy.”
“No, I think you are,” he said, getting in my face. “I think getting tossed from school did a number on you. And since I’m your best friend, it’s my job to shock you out of it. We’ve been working on this since last winter. Don’t quit now. Wren is inconsequential.”
My jaw clenched. “Wren is not inconsequential.”
“Tell you what, just go see the Hollister chick—sniff it out—then you can do whatever you’re doing with Wren, take her to freakin’ prom for all I care. My theory being that once you get a taste again, you won’t want to stop.”
“And after I do this, you’ll just let me walk away?”
He folded his arms across his chest. “Sure, you can walk away and have polite, monogamous sex with your uptight, little, quiet chick. Although, yoga, hmm, she must be very bendy.”
“Fine, then,” I said. “Just stay away from Wren.”
He held out his hand. Andy chanted my name, quietly at first, “Gray-son, Gray-son,” until Logan and Dev joined in. I shook Luke’s hand. He grinned.
“Enough of this girlie-man shit. Let’s have a beer,” he said.
FIFTEEN
WREN
MY MOTHER STOOD IN MY BEDROOM DOORWAY, waving two dresses at me.
I took out my earbuds . “What?” I asked, propping myself up on an elbow.
After school I’d told her I needed a quick nap, but the truth was the thought of going to work and facing Grayson made my stomach churn. It was a pathetic, annoying feeling, and I wanted it to go away. He hadn’t texted me all week, but there’d been a strange phone call to the house yesterday. A boy, my mother had said, prodding me to elaborate. The caller ID read Unknown.
I hoped it was Grayson, but I didn’t need anyone to know that.
“The black one or the burgundy one?” my mother asked, annoyance edging her voice.
“The black one.”
“Right, it’s slimming.”
She disappeared in a rush, the dresses fluttering on their hangers in her wake. I put my iPhone on my bedside table and followed her to her room. She was already putting her arms through the sleeves of the black dress.
“Could you zip me?” she said, standing with her back to me. I pulled up the zipper, which stopped at the middle of her back—leaving a good three inches of zipper just gaping, like a taunting, sharp-toothed mouth saying, Fatty!
“Um, Mom,” I said.
“Is it stuck?” she asked.
I tried bringing the two sides closer together, but even with all the breathing in and the tight, binding underwear that promised to take off ten pounds, there was still a good inch between both sides of the zipper. She muttered something under her breath, grabbed the burgundy dress from her bed, and disappeared through the bathroom into her walk-in closet.
“Why all the fuss?” I asked, following.
“I didn’t tell you?” she asked, walking out of her closet in the burgundy dress and standing in front of her bathroom mirror. The size tag stuck out at the nape of her neck. I walked over and tucked it in.
“Tell me what?” I asked.
“We’re meeting Brooke and Pete for dinner. Pete’s parents will be there. This is the first time we’re all meeting since . . .” She hesitated a moment, squeezing out some beige liquid makeup from a tube onto the back of her hand, then smoothing it onto her face with her fingers. “Well, since the announcement.”
“Oh,” I answered. My mother hadn’t brought up Brooke’s pregnancy with me, but I knew it was something she thought about . . . a lot. I’d seen her sneaking her mini pretzels and Nutella—her go-to comfort and stress foods—more and more over the past few weeks.
“I’m heading over to the Camelot just to make sure everything’s in place. Eben will be maître d’ for the wedding tonight.”
“Eben’s maître d’? He must be stoked!” I said.
“He’s earned it.” She dipped a brush into light cosmetic powder and twirled it onto her face until her skin was matte perfection. “I just wish we had more to offer him.”
“What do you mean?” I asked, leaning against the counter.
She placed the brush back in a cup on the vanity, then fished through her makeup bag, pulling out a compact of different shadows. She fumbled with it for a minute.
“Here, let me,” I said, taking it out of her hand. Her eyelids twitched as I smoothed on champagne-colored shadow with a brush.
“Business is down from last year, even after the renovations,” she said. I picked out a contour brush and ran it across a shade called Fawn to put in the crease of her eyelids.
“But we’ve been busy,” I said, using the tip of my finger to smudge the color to her outer lids. My mother blinked fast a few times, then glanced at her reflection in the mirror. She turned her face from side to side with approval.
“Brooke told me about what you said on Thanksgiving—”
“What?”
“About how you thought you could run the Camelot someday. Wren, I had no idea.”
“Mom, that was random,” I answered, grabbing an amber eye pencil. “Close ’em.”
She obeyed, and I gently pulled her lid taut to draw a line as close to her lashes as possible.
“We have an offer on the land. A builder. They want to put condos—”
“Don’t talk, unless you want crazy Cleopatra eyes. Almost done,” I said. My heart sank. The tug of sadness I felt surprised me. Tears clouded my vision as I finished up. I stepped back to admire my work.
Her eyes met mine and softened. “Wren.”
“Close one more time. I just have to smudge the line—”
She took my hands in hers.
“Mom, I don’t know why I’m crying. It’s fine, really.”
“Believe me, I thought long and hard about this, but the Camelot isn’t the place it once was—people want exotic locations.”
“And cupcakes,” I said, pulling my hands away and swiping a tear.
“Did you really want to run it someday?” she asked, leaning against the vanity counter, arms folded.
Having the question asked point-blank made me realize that my answer was a resounding no. The Camelot had only been a “just in case,” because it felt so comfortable. Safe. The news still made me feel ungrounded. The Camelot had defined so much of our lives. My life. Everything kept changing so fast; I wondered if I’d ever catch up.
“No,” I answered, reaching over to finally smudge the liner. Satisfied, I stepped away. “It was just an idea, that’s all. I change my mind a hundred times a day.”
“I would never want any of you to be forced into taking over the business. I fell into it myself. The Camelot was my grandfather’s baby, but he would have known when to get out.”
“Does the staff know?”
She spoke as she put on a coat of mascara. “No, I haven’t said anything. I’ve got mixed feelings about closing. We’ve tried so hard, and I hate the idea of knocking the place down, but in the end we’re just not making our nut. And it’s an excellent offer. This influx of cash will help with so many things, but it’s still not an easy decision. Some of the staff are like family. It’s why I’ve been so tense. Well, part of the reason. I’m not even sure I should have told you,” she said, putting the lash wand back into the mascara tube. “I think I just wanted to hear how it sounded.”