“And so,” Neville said, “having courted you for the first part of the Season, Trentham is now inviting you to court him for the second part, is he, Gwen? It makes some sense. You ought to know what it is you would be marrying into if you were to wed him.”
“There is no question of my marrying him,” she said.
“Is there not?” he said. “Then you will refuse his invitation?
Why subject yourself to the company of shopkeepers and businessmen, after all, if there is no serious purpose to it?”
“Gwen must not be pushed, Neville,” her mother surprised her by saying. “Clearly she has tender feelings for Lord Trentham just as he has for her. But theirs would be no easy or ordinary match—for either of them. He has acquitted himself well at ton gatherings, especially during that sordid episode at the garden party, for which he was in no way to blame. But he has never looked quite comfortable despite all his well-deserved fame. Gwen does not yet know how comfortable she would be in a gathering of his people, especially one that is destined to last for five days. How clever of him to think of that. Only the most hopeless romantic would be foolish enough to believe that a marriage concerns no one except the two people involved. It concerns a great deal beyond that, not least their families and the society with which they are accustomed to mingle.”
“You are quite right, Mother,” Lily said, gazing along the table at Neville. “But even so, it is the two people concerned who matter most. I dare not think what my life would be now if Neville had not fought for me when I believed a workable marriage between us was an impossibility.”
“There is no question of marriage between Lord Trentham and me,” Gwen said again.
Which was a ridiculous thing to say, of course. Why else had he invited her?
If you want me, Gwendoline, if you imagine that you love me and think you can spend your life with me, come to my world. You will find that wanting, even loving, is not enough.
And why was she thinking of accepting? No, she must be honest with herself. Why was she going to accept? Because she wanted him? Because she imagined that she loved him? Because she wanted to spend the rest of her life with him? Because she was determined to prove him wrong?
She did not imagine that she loved him.
“Then do not go,” Neville said.
“Oh, I am going,” she said.
Neville shook his head and half smiled. Lily clasped her hands to her bosom and beamed with delight. Gwen’s mother reached out and patted her hand though she made no additional comment.
“I am taking Sylvie and Leo to the park this morning while Neville is at the House,” Lily said. “Come with us? I can take the baby too if you do. You can do all the running after balls. It seems they will never learn how to catch them.” She laughed.
“Of course I’ll come,” Gwen said, getting to her feet. “Perhaps they cannot catch, poor things, because their mother cannot throw. Aunt Gwen to the rescue.”
For three years Hugo had jealously guarded his privacy in the country, first at his cottage and then at Crosslands. It was his own domain, his refuge from the tumult of the world. He had never invited anyone to stay, even his fellow members of the Survivors’ Club, and he had only rarely invited neighbors for dinner and cards.
But things had changed.
Actually, everything had changed.
Come to my world, he had said to Gwendoline. And suddenly he had ached with the need to give her the chance to do just that, not for a mere afternoon of tea and conversation or an evening of tea and cards, but for … well, for a long enough spell that she would know what it felt like to be out of her own comfortable domain.
You will find that wanting, even loving, is not enough.
And he felt the desperate hope, the need to be proved wrong.
He could and would mingle with her world whenever it was necessary to do so, provided he could keep the reins of his businesses in his own hands and retreat to the country for several months of each year. But could she mingle with his world? More important, would she? Or, like Fiona, would she ignore them if they were to marry, pretend they did not exist?
He would not be able to bear that.
His family was important to him despite the fact that he had neglected them for years. He had rediscovered them lately, and he was not going to let them go again. Or marry a wife who would ignore them. And he had discovered Fiona’s family and liked them even though they were not related to him in any way. They were Constance’s family, though.
He had known about the upcoming anniversaries for a while. And he had been toying with the idea of inviting both families to Crosslands for a short time during the summer. It could not be for long. These were working people who could not afford to take lengthy holidays.
But why not invite everyone to Crosslands for the actual anniversaries? Why wait until summer? The possibility popped into his mind during the week following his last visit to Gwendoline. When he had told her she would hear from him, he had not known what she would hear. And when he had invited her to come to his world, he had not known quite how it was to be done.
But then he had known.
And everything had worked out wonderfully well. Despite the short notice, everyone was able to make arrangements to be away from their work for a week. And everyone was excited at the prospect of seeing his large country estate and being together there and celebrating two such grand events.
The only thing that remained to be seen was whether Gwendoline would be able to leave London in the midst of all the activities of the Season. And whether she would wish to. And whether she would.
It did not matter anyway, he told himself. He wanted to go for the sake of his family. It was time that he opened the whole of his life to them. And Crosslands and all he had there were a large and significant part of his life.
If Gwendoline could not come or would not, then that would be the end of it. He would not try to see her again, and he would put the pieces of his heart back together and move forward with his life. If she did come, on the other hand …
But he could not, would not think beyond that. He had told her that wanting, even loving, would not be enough for them. He was not sure he believed that. But he did not not believe it either.
And then he had a brief note from her, accepting his invitation.
His house, he remembered then, was like a barn. Although it was fully furnished, he had only ever used three rooms of it. The others were permanently shut up and covered in dust sheets. His servants could easily manage those three rooms and cater to his needs when he was there, but they would be quite overwhelmed by a house party. His stables and carriage house were well managed by a groom and his young helper. They would need more help, though, when a whole cavalcade of carriages and their attendant horses descended upon Crosslands. His park was barren, his flower garden bare soil.
Was there enough bed linen? Were there enough towels?
Enough dishes and cutlery?
Where would all the extra food come from? And who was going to cook it all?
But Hugo was not his father’s son for nothing. He advertised for a butler and chose with care from the seven applicants. After that, everything was taken out of his hands and he was made to understand that any interference on his part was neither necessary nor welcome. His new butler was a man after Hugo’s own heart.