lay open and unhurt in my lap and oddly enough I sat exactly where I had sat before, although my table had joined the wreckage around the Frenchwoman. A curious gardensound filled the cafe: the regular drip of a fountain, and looking at the bar I saw rows of smashed bottles which let out their contents in a multi-coloured stream-the red of porto;*
the orange of cointreau,* the green of chartreuse,* the cloudy yellow of pastis.* across the floor of the cafe. The Frenchwoman sat up and calmly looked around for her compact. I gave it her and she thanked me formally, sitting on the floor. I realised that I didn't hear her very well. The explosion had been so close that my ear-drums had still to recover from the pressure.
I thought rather petulantly, 'Another joke with plastics: what does Mr. Heng expect me to write now?' but when I got into the Place Gamier,* I realised by the heavy clouds of smoke that this was no joke. The smoke came from the cars burning in the car-park in front of the national theatre, bits of cars were scattered over the square, and a man without his legs lay twitching at the edge of the ornamental gardens. People were crowding in from the rue Catinat, from the Boulevard Bonnard. The sirens of police-cars, the bells of the ambulances and fire-engines came at one remove to my shocked eardrums. For one moment I had forgotten that Phuong must have been in the milkbar on the other side of the square. The smoke lay between. I couldn't see through. I stepped out into the square and a policeman stopped me. They had formed a cordon round the edge to prevent the crowd increasing, and already the stretchers were beginning to emerge. I implored the policeman in front of me, "Let me across. I have a friend. . ."
"Stand back," he said. "Everyone here has friends." He stood on one side to let a priest through, and I tried to follow the priest, but he pulled me back. I said, "I am the Press," and searched in vain for the wallet in which I had my card, but I couldn't find it: had I come out that day without it? I said, "At least tell me what happened to the milkbar": the smoke was clearing and I tried to see, but the crowd between was too great. He said something I didn't catch. "What did you say?"
He repeated, "I don't know. Stand back. You are blocking the stretchers."
:' Could I have dropped my wallet in the Pavilion? I turned to go back and there was Pyle. He exclaimed, .'Thomas."
"Pyle," I said, "for Christ's sake, where's your Legation pass? We've got to get across. Phuong's in the milkbar." "No, no," he said.
"Pyle, she is. She always goes there. At eleven thirty. We've got to find her." "She isn't there, Thomas." "How do you know? Where's your card?" "I warned her not to go." I turned back to the policeman, meaning to throw him to one side and make a run for it across the square: he might shoot: I didn't care-and then the word 'warn' reached my consciousness. I took Pyle by the arm. "Warn?" I said. "What do you mean 'warn'?" "I told her to keep away this morning." The pieces fell together in my mind. "And Warren?" I said. "Who's Warren? He warned those girls too." "I don't understand."
"There mustn't be any American casualties, must there?" An ambulance forced its way up the rue Catinat into the square, and the policeman who had stopped me moved to one side to let it through. The policeman beside him was engaged in an argument. I pushed Pyle forward and ahead of me into the square before we could be stopped.
We were among a congregation of mourners. The police could prevent others entering the square; they were powerless to clear the square of the survivors and the first-comers. The doctors were too busy to attend to the dead, and so the dead were left to their owners, for one can own the dead as one owns a chair, A woman sat on the ground with what was left of her baby in her lap; with a kind of modesty she had covered it with her straw peasant hat.
She was still and silent, and what struck me most in the square was the silence. It was like a church I had once visited during Mass-the only sounds came from those who served, except where here and there the Europeans wept and implored and fell silent again as though shamed by the modesty, patience and propriety of the East. The legless torso at the edge of the garden still twitched, like a chicken which has lost its head. From the man's shirt, he had probably been a trishaw-driver.
Pyle said, "It's awful." He looked at the wet on his shoes and said in a sick voice, "What's that?" "Blood," I said. "Haven't you ever seen it before?" He said, "I must get them cleaned before I see the Minister." I don't think he knew what he was saying. He was seeing a real war for the first time: he had punted down into Phat Diem in a kind of schoolboy dream, and anyway in his eyes soldiers didn't count.
"You see what a drum of Diolacton can do," I said, "in the wrong hands." I forced him, with my hand on his shoulder, to look around. I said, "This is the hour when the place is always full of women and children-it's the shopping hour. Why choose that of all hours?" He said weakly, "There was to have been a parade." "And you hoped to catch a few colonels. But the parade was cancelled yesterday, Pyle." "I didn't know."
"Didn't know!" I pushed him into a patch of blood where a stretcher had lain. "You ought to be better informed."
"I was out of town," he said, looking down at his shoes. "They should have called it off."
"And missed the fun?" I asked him. "Do you expect General The to lose his demonstration? This is better than a parade. Women and children are news, and soldiers aren't, in a war. This will hit the world's press. You've put General The on the map* all right, Pyle. You've got the Third Force and National Democracy all over your right shoe. Go home to Phuong and tell her about your heroic deed-there are a few dozen less of her country people to worry about."
A small fat priest scampered by, carrying something on a dish under a napkin. Pyle had been silent a long while, and I had nothing more to say. Indeed I had said too much. He looked white and beaten and ready to faint, and I thought, 'What's the good? he'll always he innocent, you can't blame the innocent, they are always guiltless. Ail you can do is control them or eliminate them. Innocence is a kind of insanity.'
He said, "The wouldn't have done this. I'm sure he wouldn't. Somebody deceived him. The Communists..."
He was impregnably armoured by his good intentions and his ignorance, I left him standing in the square and went on up the rue Catinat to where the hideous pink Cathedral blocked the way. Already people were flocking in: it must have been a comfort to them to be able to pray for the dead to the dead.
Unlike them, I had reason for thankfulness, for wasn't Phuong alive? Hadn't Phuong been
'warned'? But what I remembered was the torso in the square, the baby on its mother's lap. They had not been warned: they had not been sufficiently important. And if the parade had taken place would they not have been there just the same, out of curiosity, to see the soldiers, and hear the speakers, and throw, the flowers? A two-hundred-pound bomb does not discriminate. How many dead colonels justify a child's or a trishawdriver's death when you are building a national democratic front? I stopped a motortrishaw and told the driver to take me to the Quai Mytho.
PART FOUR
CHAPTER I
I had given Phuong money to take her sister to the cinema so that she would be safely out of the way. I went out to dinner myself with Dominguez and was back in my room waiting when Vigot called sharp on ten. He apologised for not taking a drink-he said he was too tired and a drink might send him to sleep. It had been a very long day.
"Murder and sudden death?"
"No. Petty thefts. And a few suicides. These people love to gamble and when they have lost everything they kill themselves. Perhaps I would not have become a policeman if I had known how much time I would have to spend in mortuaries. I do not like the smell of ammonia. Perhaps after all I will have a beer." "I haven't a refrigerator, I'm afraid."