It was like most facilities Jess had seen. White tile floors, prints of colorful paintings hung on cream-colored walls, along with the occasional cluttered bulletin board and posters of children’s television characters. They passed a small room that contained the sad remains of someone’s birthday party: sagging balloons tied to the door handle, trash bags spilling over with paper plates and napkins. The corridors were cool, clean if a little tired. Everything had the look of having been scrubbed too many times.
Jess was reminded of her mother’s struggle to keep her brother out of places just like this. Her youngest memories of Michael were filled with a sense of nostalgia mixed with regret. The Chamberses did not have enough money for proper treatment, and after her parents’ divorce an even larger burden was assumed by Jess’s mother. Eventually they had moved from the little saltbox in Edgecomb to a trailer park on Indian Road in White Falls. During their years living there Jess was constantly confronted with reminders of a life that could be hard and cruel. Drunks, wife beaters, and abused animals were her constant neighbors.
They walked back down the hall, their footsteps echoing through the empty corridor. An open doorway revealed a black man in blue janitor’s overalls pushing a mop across a bare floor; he smiled as he glanced at them and then away, his mop moving with more purpose.
“That’s Jeffrey,” Wasserman said, after they’d passed. “He’s sort of a jack-of-all-trades around here, I’ve had him for years. He cleans up the place, acts as a general handyman, even helps with the patients. They love him.”
The raised voices of children grew louder as they turned a corner and passed by the empty cafeteria. “Forgive me,” she said, “but you seem young to be running a place like this.”
“My grandfather started a clinic many years ago in West-wood, and moved to this location when I was just a boy. He was a great man. I’m simply following in his footsteps.” Wasserman stopped in front of a set of wide double doors. “This is one of my favorite places.”
Inside the carpeted room were different kinds of play sets, tunnels and rings, blocks, tables, and chalkboards. Eight or nine children crawled and tumbled over themselves and played with several white-shirted adults, and for a moment Jess was fooled into thinking she was in a playroom like any other, before the details bled through. Wire mesh over the windows. A child of perhaps six in the corner rocking slowly back and forth in repeated, rhythmic motion, another muttering to himself and patting his head roughly with his palm. A third rubbing her chapped hands together again and again over a plastic toy sink.
She had done group casework before, assisted in community outreach programs, visited hospitals and sat in on counseling sessions. But this would be different.
Face it, head-on. This is what you want, what you need.
Her brother’s death had given Jess a deep resolve to make the health care environment easier and more accessible for mental health patients, especially children. It had been a long road, but now here she was and it was time to put up or shut up.
“We try to keep the numbers down,” Wasserman was saying. “They’re easily distracted.”
“Is she here?”
“Sarah? Oh no. These children are minimally supervised and generally nonviolent. We’ve had to keep her separated for some time now.”
A young man spotted them from across the room. He moved in a sidestep, shuffling motion, skirting the younger children and coming to their side like a nervous bird looking to be fed. “Twenty-three. Twenty-three steps.”
“Hello, Dennis.” Wasserman smiled. “Dennis helps out with the younger children.”
“Do I go to bed early tonight?” Dennis said. He had a plump, boyish face; he was dressed like a boy of six or seven, red baseball cap, blue striped pullover shirt and blue shorts, Velcro shoes with long, white socks pulled up almost to his knees. The stubble on his cheeks stood out in awkward contrast to the rest of him. “Is it Thuuuurrrs-day? Thursdays are early nights. Friday I go outside. Not Wednesday.”
“This is Miss Chambers, Dennis. She’ll be visiting us for a while. You might see her, and if you do I don’t want you to be afraid. She’s our friend.”
“Do you love me? Then say it. Sa-aaay it.”
“I love you, Dennis.”
“I make her spirit glow.” Dennis smiled brightly and shuffled away, muttering to himself and pulling at the brim of his cap.
“One of our roles here is to place various psychopathologies in a developmental context. Most of Dennis’s mannerisms would not seem all that out of place in a four-year-old. However, in a boy of almost eighteen, they are extreme. At the core is our belief that most adolescent pathologies stem from normal childhood development.”
“Sigmund Freud.”
“He pioneered the concept, yes.”
“But you don’t adhere to his theory of psychosexual development.”
“Not as a general rule. Piaget’s cognitive theory is more appropriate.”
They watched the group of children for a moment. “There are things to learn about each of them,” Wasserman said. “For example, Dennis doesn’t like to be touched. Most of the time he’s harmless and quiet, but if you touch him he’ll become extremely agitated. That is a simple rule. For Sarah, you’ll have to learn more.”
“And what about biological causes of mental disorder?”
Wasserman looked at her like a parent at a misbehaving child. She was suddenly aware that he was lecturing to her. “This is a progressive facility, Miss Chambers. Our staff is well educated. We treat chemical imbalance with medications, and provide support with play therapy and modeling.”
Wasserman turned and proceeded out the door. After a moment, and a deep breath to calm her singing nerves, Jess followed, her briefcase tucked tightly under her arm.
“Sarah’s in the basement level at the moment, in one of our quiet rooms,” Wasserman said, as they walked to a set of elevators next to the fire stairs. “You might be a bit shocked at first by her appearance. Let me assure you that everything has been done to make her life here as comfortable as possible. However, she’s been very difficult recently. There are precautions that must be taken in regards to her safety and that of those who work around her. She’s deceptively strong, and as I said before, she can be very clever.”
“I’m curious, Doctor. Why did you introduce me to Dennis?”
“To show you that not all of our guests are so severely restricted. And to see how you reacted to him.”
“I hope I didn’t disappoint you.”
“It’s important that they not sense your discomfort. If you’re unsure of how to proceed in a given situation, and all of us are at some point, it is best to refer to your superior.”
The elevator doors opened onto another world. Heavy cinder block walls and bare concrete floors met them as they stepped from the elevator into a narrow rectangular room. The overhead lighting was bright and unwavering, but it was the shadows Jess noticed. Clinging like cobwebs to the corners, they disappeared when she turned her gaze on them, but then returned to lurk at the edges of her sight. Perhaps it was her mood.
A heavy woman wearing a white coat stepped out from behind a desk as they approached. She was large through the shoulders and hips and very dark-skinned, and moved with a quiet shuffle so that she seemed to avoid the light, slipping through it like one of the shadows.