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That’s where Baron Samedi lives,

that funereal and dissolute god

who is the guardian of the cemetery where

no one may enter without his permission.

We stroll along the brightly lit streets

of the world’s great cities

with our urbane airs and our educated politeness

not knowing that our lives are filled

with secret feelings and sacred songs

we have lost somewhere inside ourselves

and that resurface only at funerals.

We have two lives.

One belongs to us.

The other belongs

to those who have known us

since childhood.

The mother’s tongue.

The father’s country.

The son’s bewildered look

as he discovers in a single day

his own legacy.

They rush the coffin

toward the far end of the cemetery.

Past the last graves with flowers on them.

A few stones this way and that in the tall grass

where fat pink fish swim.

The best spots, by the entrance,

are reserved for those who

have never left Baradères.

This wild kid who wreaks

havoc in Brooklyn

suddenly discovers

his origins

in a lost village.

He bends over to catch bare-handed

a pink fish with an electric charge.

It sends him hopping on one foot.

The fish makes its getaway

to the sound of the laughing crowd.

I stand at the edge of the group

to attend the ceremony,

not wishing to disturb them.

No one seems to notice I am there.

That’s what they want me to think.

I have learned how discreet

people are in this part of the world.

A man comes up to me, his formal manner from another era. It would give us great pleasure were you to remain with us afterward, he tells me. Later I learned he had worked for UNESCO as a translator and after he retired, he returned to live here. The continuous movement between urban and rural worlds strengthens the bonds between culture and agriculture.

The house where the funeral reception takes place stands on the slope of a deforested hill. The kids, along with a few young goats, keep rushing down it. To dry my clothes, I sit by the fire where ears of corn are being smoked in the coals. A little girl in a pretty blue dress and sparkling eyes brings me a cup of coffee. She curtsies by way of greeting. I kiss her on the forehead. She opens her eyes wide then runs off. In a storm of saliva, the retired polyglot confides in me that finally he has time to reread the Aeneid.

No one asks me

where I came from nor where I am going.

My past counts no more than my future.

They accept me in the gravity of the present

without demanding explanations.

A starry sky

that makes me dream

of hot evenings on the gallery

with my mother

and of course Baudelaire whose

“The Balcony” was my father’s

favorite poem.

I also recall the picnics

Aunt Ninine organized at the beginning of July.

And other precious memories

that convince me, now,

that my childhood was but an

endless season of sunshine,

though the rain did fall.

Nothing is more brilliant than sunlight in the rain.

Suddenly I feel so light.

The sky is no farther

than that banana leaf

that brushes my head.

A Dandy Dies Like a Dandy

I push my way through the banana plantation

divided by a stream

whose song I heard

before discovering in the shadows

its shining back

lit by moonlight.

I come upon an old man

sleeping under a banana tree.

What kind of life

has he lived

to go on smiling

in his dream?

I suppose it was different from

the former minister’s who spends his nights

in a museum, where most of the paintings

reproduce the bucolic setting where this peasant is sleeping.

One is living in the other’s dream.

I go through the little cemetery.

The earth has drunk up all the water from the sky.

The dead were thirsty

though they do prefer

something stronger.

I just need to look up

to see Sirius

on the collar of Canis Major.

I will spend the night

with this brightest of stars.

I sit down

in the night

on a headstone

to smoke a cigarette.

And think of my father.

That teenager who yesterday was running

nearly naked in the rain

through the streets of Baradères

could have lived out his life

like his friends

who never left their native village.

And never have known

such a strange destiny.

The path trampled through the grass crosses the cemetery and hits the rocky track that leads to the paved road. He started out on that path on his way to Port-au-Prince. And years later, to Havana, Paris, Genoa, Buenos Aires, Berlin, Rome, the world’s great cities. And then New York where I recently saw him stiff in a black alpaca suit with a magnificent tie of the same color. Always elegantly dressed. The way his generation was. The only personal feature: that smile pinned to his face, witness to the final burst of pain.

My mother questioned me at length

about what he wore for the funeral.

Every detail of his appearance

counted for him — and now for her.

All I remembered were his hands

and his smile.

In the end, once a dandy, always a dandy. Especially when the dandy has stopped taking care of himself. The form can change. The personality, never. If personality never changes, then that Baradères teenager knew everything back then. All the roads he was to take were already laid out inside him.

On a night like this, he must have

looked into the sky at

that great life-size map and seen

all the hospitals, prisons, embassies,

feigned celebrations and lonely nights

that one day he would face.

And if the moon was full and bright

he must have seen my life too,

an extension of his

so similar to it.

We each have our dictator.

For him it was the father, Papa Doc.

For me, the son, Baby Doc.

Exile without return for him.

For me, this enigmatic return.

My father has returned

to his birthplace.

I brought him back.

Not the body

burned to the bone by ice.

But the spirit that made it possible

for him to face

the deepest solitude.

To stand up to that solitude

all those gray days

and cold nights,

how many times did he

picture in his mind

the primitive images

of Baradères in the rain?

He in Baradères.

I in Petit-Goâve.

Then each followed his path

through this wide world.

To return to our point of departure.

He gave me birth.

I take care of his death.

Between birth and death,

we hardly crossed paths.

I have no memory

of my father that I can trust.

That belongs to me alone.

There is no picture

of us alone together.

Except in my mother’s memory.

A Son of the Village