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so quickly — barely eight seconds.

Here it comes again.

The same one?

As if that mattered.

The young man sweeping

the hotel courtyard so energetically,

so different from the old man yesterday morning,

seems to have his mind elsewhere.

Sweeping, because it lets you dream,

is a subversive activity.

This morning it’s not Césaire

I feel like reading

but Lanza del Vasto

who was able to be satisfied

with a cool glass of water.

I need a man of serenity

not some guy seething with anger.

I don’t want to think.

Just see, hear and feel.

Note it all down before I lose my head,

drunk on this explosion of tropical

colors, smells and tastes.

I haven’t been part of a landscape like this

for so long.

In the slum called Jalousie (because of how close the luxury villas are, which tells us something about the sense of humor you need to live there) the little girl woke up before the others to go fetch water. I follow her with the binoculars the hotel owner lent me. She climbs the mountainside like a young goat, with a plastic bucket on her head and another one in her right hand. I lose sight of her as I scan the neighborhood waking up. There she is again. Her wet dress flat against her thin young body. The guy with the mustache and the tie sipping coffee on his gallery watches her too.

Let us carefully observe the scene.

Close-up on the face of the mustached guy.

His intense concentration

on the dance of the girl’s hips.

The slightest movement of that wonderfully supple body

is absorbed by his greedy little eyes.

The nose awakens to the scent.

The cat leaps.

Claws buried in the back of her neck.

The girl’s arched back.

Not even a cry.

Everything happened

in his head

between two sips of coffee.

I sit on the veranda

and gently place the binoculars

at the foot of the chair.

Warmed by the sun

already strong at six in the morning

I soon slip into sleep

both light and deep.

Almost asphyxiated

by the smell of warm blood

that goes to my head.

The butcher is cutting

beneath my window.

The machete whistles.

A red rainbow in the air.

The cut throat of a young goat.

The animal seems to smile in its pain.

Its eyes, soft green, find mine.

What is there beyond such sweetness?

Its neck breaks

like a cane field bent low by the breeze.

Behind me the owner

smiles with her eyes.

Her long experience

of pain

should be taught

in these days

when we learn everything

except how to face

the storms of life.

The Human River

I step into the street

to bathe

in the human river

where more than one swimmer drowns

each day.

The crowd chews over the naïve fresh meat

of all those exiles who hope to recover

the years of absence in their energy.

I’m neither the first nor the last.

On the sidewalks.

In the parks.

In the middle of the street.

Everyone buying.

Everyone selling.

They try to trick poverty

through constant movement.

My eyes take in the scene.

Peasants listening to their transistors.

Hoodlums on motorbikes.

Girls working the street by the hotel.

The music of flies

above green mud.

Two bureaucrats slowly crossing the park.

Zoom in on that girl laughing on the sidewalk across the street with a cell phone jammed in her ear. A car stops next to her. Strident honking — as if the driver’s hand were stuck on the horn. The girl pretends not to hear. The driver goes on his way. Laughter from the fruit vendors who witness the scene.

Primary colors.

Naïve motifs.

Childlike vibrations.

No space left empty.

Everything full to the brim.

The first tear will cause

this river of pain in which

people drown, laughing, to

overflow.

Proud carriage.

Empty belly.

The moral elegance of the girl

who walks past me

for the third time in five minutes.

Without a look in my direction.

Attentive to my slightest move.

Have you ever considered a city

of more than two million people

half of whom are literally starving to death?

Human flesh is meat too.

How long can a taboo

stand up to sheer necessity?

Fleshly desires.

Psychedelic visions.

Sidelong looks.

They’d like to devour

their neighbor for lunch.

Like one of those mangos

with such smooth skin.

A man whispers something into the ear

of his friend who smiles discreetly.

A gentle breeze lifts the woman’s dress

as she runs laughing to hide behind a wall.

Drops so fine

I didn’t realize it was raining.

Pain takes a time out.

This undecided lizard,

after much thought,

jumps from its branch.

A grass-green flash

cuts through space.

I am in this city

where nothing

for once

happens besides

the simple pleasure of being alive

under the blazing sun

at the corner of Vilatte and Grégoire Streets.

Hundreds of paintings covered in dust hang on the walls, all along the street. They look as though the same artist painted them all. Painting is as popular as soccer in this neighborhood. The same luxuriant landscapes remind us that the artist doesn’t paint the real country but the country of his dreams.

I ask that barefoot painter

why he always paints trees bending low

under the weight of ripe heavy fruit

when everything around him is desolation.

You understand, he tells me with a sad smile,

who would want to hang in his living room

what he can see out the window?

What Happened to the Birds?

When I see that teenager sitting by himself

on the branch of a mango tree

strumming away on a battered old guitar,

I understand that amateur musicians

have taken over from the birds.

All that boy needs

is a pair of transparent wings.

A man who knew me thirty-five years ago comes up to me, arms open. With abundant details and flying spittle, he conjures up memories I’d completely forgotten and, worse, that don’t interest me. I try to avoid his eyes as we speak. What started as a wonderful reunion has turned into torture. I’m waiting for him to get to the point: money. In the end he moves on without asking anything of me. I might have underestimated him. As I walk, I try to retrace the thread of his story. Why didn’t I listen to him more carefully? Because of his dirty clothes, his black fingernails, his toothless mouth? If he had been cleaner and more prosperous, would I have paid him more attention? Even if he opened the photo album of my teenage years before my eyes.

This old gentleman slightly bent at the waist

sweeping dry leaves

that have fallen into the courtyard of the city hall.

An activity that must take him all day.