For Tom, the Mass is over all too quickly.
He settles back in a pew and enjoys the peace while he waits for Alfie to change and reappear. Few places in the world have the intense silence of a church, and he still finds it the most effective place to examine his own thoughts.
And right now there are lots of them.
Was it smart to rush into a relationship with Valentina? What does she expect from it?
Where does he hope it will go?
How is it most likely to end?
So many thoughts. All backed up and jostling for attention like closing-time drinkers in a city-centre bar.
Looking back, he can see that they grew close after the death of her cousin Antonio. But maybe there was always a spark between them. Some genetic trigger that attracts people and compels them to be together was pulled.
But he thinks there’s more than that.
More than just the physical.
He admires her strength and ambition, respects her individuality and her determination to make a go of things on her own. He loves her sense of humour and her desire to do good.
Yes, Tom concludes, it was smart to throw himself into a relationship with her. Chances of happiness don’t exactly queue up outside your door and knock noisily for an appointment. Especially if you’re an ex-priest with no job, no home and no savings.
He looks up from the old dark wood of the pews and sees Alfie, his face beaming as brightly as the winter sunshine filtering through Michelangelo’s dome. The service is over.
‘Well, if it isn’t the planet’s most troublesome ex-priest.’ He opens his arms.
Tom embraces him warmly and puts a hand gently to his face. ‘You looked magnificent up there, my friend. I’m so proud of you. How did you end up saying Mass in here?’
Alfie puts an arm around Tom and guides him towards the door. ‘A long story, best told over hot coffee and Italy’s finest pastries.’
‘Sounds heavenly.’
‘Sufficient to say it was God’s will. That and the fact that innumerable first choices went down with a severe dose of the shits after a very poor communal meal.’
24
The hospital cafeteria is sickeningly warm and smells queasily of hot fat and bleach.
Over barely warm coffee and day-old croissants, Valen tina and Federico try to make sense of what’s just happened.
Not that there’s much to make sense of.
The woman prisoner is bark-at-the-moon mad. And from the quick check Federico does with HQ, there’s still no sign of a victim.
When the dregs of a poor espresso have been drained, Lieutenant Assante heads off with instructions to write up his notes, mail them to Valentina and not mention the case to anyone else until she tells him to. He resents the tightness of her leash, but with any luck he’ll be off it and back with his wife and family by lunchtime.
Valentina’s about to call Tom when she’s struck by an urge to return to the ward. If nothing else, she’d like to learn more from Louisa Verdetti about the patient’s latest outburst, providing of course the director hasn’t already left.
She has.
Her office is empty. Lights out. Blinds down. Door locked. It looks like most of the nursing staff have gone too. No doubt the skeleton Sunday crew has been stretched to invisibility doing routine jobs.
Valentina takes advantage of the slack supervision. She flashes her ID at the guard in the corridor and within a minute is once again face to face with Suzanna.
‘Hi. How you doing?’ She closes the door gently behind her.
The young woman is sitting up in bed, hunched over a wooden roller tray, the type patients are served meals on.
She glances towards the captain but doesn’t say anything.
Valentina makes small talk as she heads her way. ‘You look as though you’re busy. Are they making you work for your stay?’
A tiny voice comes back. The voice of a sad child. ‘Mommy says I have to do my homework. She says if I don’t get it done I’m not going to be allowed to go with Daddy when he comes for me. Do you know what time it is?’
Valentina stays calm. ‘Plenty of time, honey. You’ve got plenty of time. What’s your name?’
She doesn’t look up from her writing. ‘Suzanna.’
Valentina is relieved. ‘That’s right. Suzanna Grecoraci, I remember now.’
‘No, silly. That’s not my name. I’m Suzanna Fratelli. I’m only eight. Suzanna Grecoraci is the name of that old lady, the one who is friends with the others.’ She looks up and gives Valentina a childish giggle. ‘You must be really silly to mix us up.’ She adds a critical stare to her facial repertoire. ‘Have you been drinking? My daddy mixes things up when he’s been drinking.’
Valentina moves closer to her. ‘No, I haven’t. Do other people mix you up?’
‘Sometimes.’ She looks down and works some more on the paper in front of her. ‘The others call me Little Suzie; that way when I leave notes and things they don’t get us confused.’
‘The others? What others are they?’
‘You know. The others, the ones who live in here with us.’ Valentina’s out of her depth and she knows it. ‘How many, Suzie? How many others are there?’
Suzie stops her work and counts them off on her fingers. ‘More than that!’ She holds up two outstretched hands, fingers spread wide. ‘ Lots more.’
‘Really?’ Valentina works her way around so she can see over Suzie’s shoulder. ‘That’s really good. What is it?’
Suzie moves her hands to reveal a large crayoned drawing. ‘Romans. Do you like Romans?’
‘Some of them.’ Valentina leans closer. The crayoning is good. She can easily identify Roman soldiers, a crowd, senators in togas and – she has to look twice – a woman with her hand in the mouth of a giant white disc.
The Bocca della Verita.
‘That’s blood!’ says Suzie, jabbing excitedly at a smear of red. ‘It’s from Cassandra.’
The background of the drawing is filled with strange shapes: a sun, maybe a moon, and some badly drawn stars, so bad they’re more triangular and lopsided than star-shaped.
‘Cassandra is having her hand cut off,’ explains Suzie, almost as though she were recalling a favourite fairy tale. ‘It’s because she won’t tell them about the secret.’
‘Oooh, it looks nasty.’ Valentina rubs her own wrist. ‘What secret is that?’
Suzie frowns. ‘I don’t know. It’s Cassandra’s secret and she never tells. No matter what.’
There are sounds outside the door. A trolley being wheeled into an adjacent room. A woman’s voice talking loudly.
Suzie looks scared. ‘You should go now.’ She glances nervously towards the door. ‘If you don’t go, Momma will find you – then you’ll be sorry.’
Valentina gives her a reassuring smile. ‘I’m a police-woman, Suzie; nothing bad is going to happen while I’m here. I promise you.’
Fear takes Suzie’s voice up another ten decibels. ‘Please go! I don’t want you in here. If you don’t go, Momma will take it out on me and she won’t let Daddy come.’
The trolley is on the move again. They can hear its wheels squeaking. The door to the room next to them is opening. Valentina is desperate to ask more about Cassandra – about the secret – but she can see it would be pointless.
The poor girl is petrified.
She’ll come back and do it when she’s had time to gather her thoughts and think the whole crazy thing through a little more.
She gives Suzie a smile and moves away to open the door. ‘Don’t worry, no one will hurt you. I’ll come back tomorrow and make sure you’re all right.’
Suzie doesn’t reply.
She’s already pulled the bed sheet above her head and curled herself into a tight ball.
25
There is whispering in the womb.
Hushed voices.
Confidential tones.
But I hear them.
I lie curled up, pretending to be asleep, but I hear all their secrets and their laughter.
Mother and the special one – the favoured one – are together. They are out of sight, hidden in the darkness, but their sentences fly like birds and nest in my ears.