‘And you can’t,’ Matthias replied bitterly. ‘You can only possess: the bodies of the Preacher, Rahere, Santerre and the rest. Empty houses!’
‘Empty houses,’ Canabo replied. ‘I could never have taken possession if they had not willed it.’ Canabo leant across and touched Matthias gently on the cheek. ‘I have to be close to you, Matthias, my beloved, my son.’
Matthias felt his stomach clench. He gently removed Canabo’s hand from his cheek.
‘I am not your son,’ he replied. ‘I am the son of Parson Osbert and Christina.’
‘You are my son, the Beloved,’ Canabo retorted, his eyes hard and shining. ‘Christina was my second Eve. In her I found fulfilment, the conception of you. Love and will uniting in another being: that being, Matthias, is you. You are part of me.’
Matthias stared back. ‘You really believe that, don’t you?’ He shook his head. ‘But it’s a lie! You cannot beget. You have no authority. You do not have the power to create souls.’
Canabo breathed in, nostrils flaring.
‘And did you think I’d respond?’ Matthias declared. ‘Did you plot my life on the walls of Tenebral church?’
‘The future is like a river,’ Canabo replied. ‘You, Matthias, can only see either bank but I can see the way it flows.’
‘But why?’ Matthias asked. ‘Look at me! Exiled from my own home. Hunted, harried, threatened and persecuted!’
‘Is that my fault?’ Canabo replied. ‘Has it not been explained to you? How different is your life from millions of others? I had to let you go, Matthias. I had to let you feel and drink deeply from the cup. Yes,’ he leant forward, eyes gleaming, ‘reflect on your life, your world: what meaning does it have? The rich get richer, the fat gorge themselves, the hunter kills the hunted. Tell me, what does that have to do with the will of God and the law of Christ? I had to let you experience life, Matthias: to reflect, to bring you to a point where you could see the empty glories of the world, the power and pomp of princes, the hypocrisy of the Church, the greed of human kind.’
‘For what?’ Matthias asked.
‘To accept me, Creatura bona atque parva. To accept me for what I am.’ He stretched out a hand. ‘To love me for what I am.’
‘And if I refuse?’
‘I am making the same offer to you,’ Canabo replied, ‘which the great Lucifer made to Christ at Gethsemane: to forsake the world of man, to leave them to their power struggles, to the darkness which they create. Just to leave. And yet I offer more,’ he added. ‘To come with me, Matthias, become part of me, to drink the blood, to live for ever, to travel the face of the earth. Never to know death, no more hardship, no more persecution, to live like kings and ride in glory.’ He paused and gestured around. ‘Soon we can leave here, travel south, Matthias, to great kingdoms you have never even thought of, to be accepted as gods: you and me, the Rosifer and his Beloved.’
‘And if I refuse?’ Matthias repeated.
‘There is a time, Matthias, when love will meet. As streets on a corner, there is an inevitability, a final decision has to be made. You have reached that, here, in what that fool Columbus thought Paradise, your decision must be made.’
‘You must know it,’ Matthias replied.
Canabo shook his head. ‘I can see you walk. I can tell which direction you will take. I can guess the motives and thoughts of others, Matthias, but your mind, your will, they must always be yours. If they are not, how can your love be free?’
Matthias bowed his head and closed his eyes. The Rosifer had told him much of what he had suspected. He had been brought here specially, allowed to taste the world and all its joys and sorrows but a decision was to be made. He admired the cunning, as well as the subtlety of the Rosifer. Matthias had tasted the wine of life and it was bitter. Images filled his mind: Emloe’s sneering face; Ratcliffe’s rejection; Symonds, full of ambition and pride. The carnage of East Stoke; the cold cruelty of Torquemada. Everywhere, each place he had gone, the Rosifer had protected him. The images faded. Matthias suddenly recalled Barnwick but, try as he might, Rosamund’s face escaped him.
‘Where are you?’ he whispered.
Then suddenly he felt he was back in Sutton Courteny. It was a summer’s day. He was a child, walking hand in hand with Parson Osbert and Christina. He was holding their hands, they were crossing the great meadow, going down to sit by the mere where they would enjoy the day and wait until the shadows grew longer. Osbert and Christina were laughing as they swung him between them. They let go. He was running across the meadow but he was a man now, not a child, someone was coming towards him: Rosamund, her hair unbraided, her dress flapping in the breeze. A child, he could not make out the face, was running with her; they were calling his name. The image changed: he was home, in the parlour with Father Hubert. The friar was sitting at the base of a statue of St Anthony, he was teaching him his prayer, the one he used to say every night before he fell asleep. Matthias opened his eyes. Canabo was staring at him.
‘What is your answer, Matthias?’
‘Remember this, my soul and remember it well.’ Matthias held Canabo’s gaze. ‘The Lord thy God is One and He is holy. And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy mind, with all thy heart and with all thy strength.’
‘That is no answer, Creatura.’
‘It’s the only one I can give,’ Matthias whispered. ‘When I was a child and met you at Tenebral, you showed me the foxes and we ate roast rabbit. You held my hand, I thought you were God incarnate: such warmth, such friendship, yet when you are a child, you think like a child.’
‘I loved you too, Creatura, and still do.’
‘But, when you are a man,’ Matthias continued remorselessly, ‘you enter a different world.’
‘That is why I waited, Creatura.’
‘Only when I met Rosamund,’ Matthias continued, ‘did I come to know what love really was. I loved her. I still do. I always will. If I had not met her,’ he shook his head, ‘my answer could well be different.’
‘Creatura.’ Canabo stretched his hands out in supplication.
‘I don’t love you,’ Matthias replied. ‘And you are right. I’ve drunk the chalice of the world and its dregs have made me sick. Let me go,’ he beseeched. ‘Release me!’
Canabo looked at him. Matthias hardened himself to the pleading in his eyes.
‘If you really love me,’ Matthias persisted, ‘if you still do, let me go!’
Canabo bowed his head. When he lifted it, tears welled in his eyes.
‘The lords of the air,’ he declared softly, ‘have said this is the time, the demand has been made, your reply has been witnessed.’ He shook his head. ‘Oh, Creatura. .’
Turning, Canabo muttered something to one of his companions. The warrior rose and brought back a small gourd filled with wine. Canabo sniffed it and handed it to Matthias.
‘Drink, Creatura,’ he whispered. ‘Do you remember that day at Tenebral?’
Matthias lifted the gourd. He toasted Canabo and drank deeply to fortify himself. He did not know what was coming and he was fearful lest his body betray him. Canabo was staring at him, a strange, faraway look in his eyes. Matthias felt the wine and what was in it flow through his body. He lurched forward, a terrible numbness spreading from his stomach.
‘I am dying!’ he gasped. He held his hand out. ‘Not alone, please!’
‘Oh, Creatura!’ Canabo was sobbing. He grasped Matthias’ hand. ‘Go, Creatura!’ he whispered. ‘Run like the wind. No objection will be made at your passing.’