Ingrid tried to avert her eyes, but couldn’t. His unwavering gaze didn’t belong to a spurned lover, but a betrayed commander. It was his pride, not his heart, that had been wounded. “No.”
“And now that he’s dead?”
Finally, she looked away, her eyes coming to rest on their intertwined hands. “For the longest time after you left, I kept track of your whereabouts. I’d call my brothers and ask if they’d seen you, if you were safe. Sometimes I swear I wanted to hear that you’d been killed. The hardest thing I ever did was to stop caring for you.”
“I’m sorry.”
She pulled her hands free. “It’s too late for apologies, Erich. Six years. These days, that’s a lifetime.”
“When did you stop?”
“Stop what?”
“When did you stop caring?”
“I don’t know,” she said. “What does it matter?”
Grasping her arms, he gave her a violent jolt. “When?”
She stared at him before answering, keenly aware that despite his lovelorn words he was not here to pay a social call. “Long before you ‘ruined your career for me’, I didn’t have the strength to hate you anymore.”
Turning her shoulders, she forced herself from his embrace. She was frightened by his coarse behavior. Never had he been pushy or demonstrative. If anything, he was the opposite. Cool to the point of indifference. Sachlichkeit, he called it, and when she used to say it was just a soldier’s ruse to get out of an argument, he’d simply smile at her and give a shake of his blond head.
A queer expression crossed Seyss’s face, a rare current of indecision, and for a moment his lips moved as if he were going to ask her something. But just as suddenly, his hesitation vanished. Pivoting, he walked to the window, and right away she saw that his bearing had changed. The spine had stiffened. The shoulders fallen back. He was the soldier again, the time for reminiscences done and discarded. And she knew she’d been right to feel afraid when he’d first walked through her door.
“How did you know I would be here?”
Pulling back a lace curtain, Seyss craned his head outside and peered up and down the street. The windows were simply wooden frames, the glass blown out during the battle for the city. “I didn’t, really,” he said, pulling his head back into the apartment. “Egon mentioned you might be in town. He told me all about your crusade with Major Judge. Actually, I was looking for a place to go to ground for a few hours. Tell me, schatz, when is he due back?”
Ingrid approached him, laying a hand on his shoulder. “Erich, please go. I won’t tell him you’ve been here. I give you my word.”
He shot her a bemused look, as if her suggestion were ridiculous, then returned his eyes to Eichstrasse. “Soon, I take it. Or do you wear that perfume all the day long?” He sniffed at the air. “Joy. It was my favorite. I suppose I should be jealous.”
Ingrid took a step back, her cheeks flushing with shame. She’d picked up a petit flaçon of the perfume at the open-air market in the Tiergarten, a token to celebrate her finding a way to visit her cousin. Now her victory was in tatters, and she had to find some means of alerting Devlin to Erich’s presence.
“It’s madness, Erich. Whatever you’re trying to do, stop it. Just leave now. Leave the apartment. Get out of the country.”
Seyss might not have heard. His only response was a dry laugh, followed by a hunching of the shoulders that signaled an increased concentration. “Where has he been all day?”
Ingrid was careful in choosing her words, wanting to be cooperative so long as it didn’t endanger Devlin. “Looking for you.”
“Thank God Berlin’s a big city.”
Seyss moved away from the window and set out on a tour of the apartment. Two strides took him to the door which he latched with a turn of his wrist. Grunting, he returned to the windows, drawing the lace curtains over each — she supposed to prevent anyone from seeing in. His last stop was the bathroom. A window above the tub led to a rusted fire escape at the rear of the building. Using both hands, he wrenched open the window, brushing away a smattering of broken glass. Taking one of the iron buckets, he set it precariously on the rail of the escape. The softest step on the escape would send it clattering to the ground three stories below.
“And when did he leave?” Seyss asked, retreating from the bathroom.
“Just after seven.”
“What did you say he was wearing?”
Ingrid detested his smugness. “His uniform, of course,” she said, gathering the courage to lie. “Just like yours.”
Seyss had envisioned it differently. She would rush into his arms. They would hug, and in her long denied joy she would forgive his transgression. Naturally, they would fall onto the nearest bed and make love, and it would be a loud, sweaty, earthy, affair. The imaginary scene had taken place in a dozen familiar locales — Villa Ludwig, Sonnenbrucke, even here, in their lover’s hideaway on Eichstrasse — and a thousand exotic ones, too. Fodder for a soldier’s six years of dreams.
And like a storybook it had almost come to pass: the unexpected meeting, the hushed voices, the tender embrace as his fingers caressed her hair, still the same vixen’s blonde that he’d adored. Even the mention of Judge’s Christian name and the piercing note of her perfume had failed to dim his hope. She had wanted that pleasure for herself. One word and his carefully constructed palace had crumbled to the ground. “No.”
Seyss sat down on the bed, motioning for Ingrid to take a seat on the couch across the room. He took out the .45, checked to see that a round was chambered, then set it beside him. Six years had passed, he sighed. People changed. Smelling her florid scent, his jaw suddenly clenched. Sachlichkeit, he ordered himself.You don’t know this woman any longer.
“Schatz, I must ask you another question. No more pleasantries, okay? Very important.” He waited until her eyes were fully on his. “What news did you want to tell Judge?”
Ingrid lifted her shoulders and smiled. “Nothing that concerns you. Just that the water is running again.”
Seyss could still hear the expectant lilt to her voice:Devlin, I have some wonderful news. You’ll never guess what. “No,” he said. “That wasn’t it. You were too proud of yourself. Your cheeks were glowing. What was it?”
“I’ve already told you. We have water again. Go check for yourself. The concierge was here before you came.”
It was a game attempt, he’d give her that.
“Judge, he’s here now, but one day he’ll leave, and it will just be us again. Come, schatz, what were you going to tell him?”
Ingrid opened her mouth, her lips forming around some unfinished words, but said nothing. Seyss rose from the bed and knelt in front of her, placing a hand on one knee. “You were never a gifted liar. Truth was always your strong suit. It was your honesty, your exuberance, that we loved about you. So, schatz, before we go any further, let me be honest, too.” And just then, he gave her leg a very firm, very carefully placed squeeze so that she sucked in her breath and whimpered. “There is nothing you know, that I cannot find out. Verstehst-du?” Biting her lip, Ingrid nodded reluctantly, and he could see a tear forming in her eye.
“What, then did you wish to tell our friend, Devlin Judge?”
Ingrid remained silent, her knees buckled together and her arms fastened around her.
It was a pity, thought Seyss, that people were so unreasonable. He slapped her cheek and Ingrid’s head caromed to the left. A little something to get her attention. Her eyes glared at him wildly, and from nowhere, she threw a punch. He deflected it, yanking her off the couch and tossing her onto the floor. The sight of her laying there angered him — he hated nothing so much as disobedience so he kicked her in the stomach.