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profession, a way of life for people who care about others. I don`t see sufficient caring in

you. The good therapist wants to alleviate suffering, wants to help people grow. But I see

in you only disdain for others—look at the way you dismissed and insulted your students.

Therapists need to relate to their patients, whereas you care little about how others feel.

Take the two of us. You tell me that, on the basis of my phone call to you, you made the

assumption that I had a fatal illness. Yet never did you utter a word of consolation or

sympathy.»

«Would that have helped—mumbling some vacuous words of sympathy? I gave

you more, much more. I constructed and delivered an entire lecture for you.»

«I understand that now. But it was all so oblique, Philip. It made me feel like I was

being managed, not cared about. Better for me, much better, if you had been direct, if you

had sent some message from your heart to mine. Nothing monumental, maybe just some

simple inquiry into my situation or state of mind, or, Christ, you might have simply said,

‘I`m sorry to hear you`re dying.` How hard would that have been?»

«If I were sick, that`s not what I`d want. I would have wanted the tools, the ideas,

the vision that Schopenhauer offered in the face of death—and that`s what I delivered to

you.»

«Even now, Philip, you still don`t bother to check your assumption that I have a

fatal illness.»

«Am I mistaken?»

«Come again, Philip. Say the words—it won`t hurt.»

«You said you had significant health problems. Can you tell me more?»

«Good start, Philip. An open–ended comment is by far the best choice.» Julius

paused to collect his thoughts and to consider how much to reveal to Philip. «Well, I`ve

very recently learned that I have a form of skin cancer called malignant melanoma which

poses a serious threat to my life, though my doctors assure me that for the next year I

should remain in good health.»

«I feel even more strongly,” Philip responded, «that the Schopenhaurian vision I

offered in my lecture would be of value to you. In our therapy I remember you once said

that life was a ‘temporary condition with a permanent solution`—that is pure

Schopenhauer.»

«Philip, that perspective was meant in jest.»

«Well we know, don`t we, what your own guru, Sigmund Freud, had to say about

jesting. My point still stands: Schopenhauer`s wisdom contains much that will serve you

well.»

«I`m not your supervisor, Philip, that`s still to be determined, but I`ll give you

psychotherapy lesson number one, gratis.It`s not ideas, nor vision, nor tools that truly

matter in therapy. If you debrief patients at the end of therapy about the process, what do

they remember?Never the ideas—it`salways the relationship. They rarely remember an

important insight their therapist offered but generally fondly recall their personal

relationship with the therapist. And I`m going to venture a guess that this is even true for

you. Why did you remember me so well and value what happened between us so much

that you now, after all these years, turn to me for supervision? It`s not because of those

two comments—however provocative they were—no, I believe it was because of some

bond you felt with me. I believe you might have some deep affection for me, and because

our relationship, however difficult though it might have been, was meaningful, you are

now turning to me again in the hope of some form of embrace.»

«Wrong on all counts, Dr. Hertzfeld...”

«Yeah, yeah, so wrong that the mere mention of an embrace sends you scurrying

back to formal titles again.»

«Wrong on all counts, Julius. First, I want to caution you against the error of

assuming that your view of reality is the real thing—theres naturalis —and that your

mission is to impose this vision on others. You crave and value relationships, and you

make the erroneous assumption that I, indeed everyone, must do the same and that if I

claim otherwise, I`ve repressed my relationship–craving.

«It seems likely,” Philip continued, «that a philosophical approach may be far

preferable for someone like me. The truth is—you and I are fundamentally different. I

havenever drawn pleasure from the company of others—their drivel, their demands, their

ephemeral petty strivings, their pointless lives—are a nuisance and an obstacle to my

communion with the handful of great world spirits who have something of significance to

say.»

«Then why sign on to be a therapist? Why not remain with the great world spirits?

Why busy yourself offering help to these pointless lives?»

«If, like Schopenhauer, I had an inheritance to support myself, I assure you I would

not be here today. It`s entirely a matter of economic need. My educational expenses have

depleted my bank account, my teaching pays a pittance, the college is near bankruptcy,

and I doubt that I will be rehired. I need to see only a few clients a week to meet my

expenses: I live frugally, I wish to acquire nothing except the freedom to pursue what is

truly important to me: my reading, thinking, meditation, music, chess, and my walks with

Rugby, my dog.»

«You have still not answered my question: why come to see me when it is clear I

work in quite a different fashion from the way you want to work? And you haven`t

responded to my conjecture that there`s something about our past relationship drawing

you to me.»

«I didn`t respond because it`s so far off the mark. But since it seems important to

you, I`ll continue to ponder your conjecture. Don`t conclude that I`m questioning the

presence of basic interpersonal needs. Schopenhauer himself said that bipeds—his

term—need to huddle together by the fire for warmth. He cautioned, however, about

getting singed by too much huddling. He liked porcupines—they huddled for warmth but

used their quills to keep their separateness. He treasured his separateness and depended

on nothing outside himself for his happiness. And he wasn`t alone on this; other great

men, Montaigne, for example, shared this way of thinking.

«I also fear bipeds,” Philip continued, «and I agree with his observation that a

happy man is one who can avoid most of his fellow creatures. And how can you not agree

that bipeds create a hell here on Earth? Schopenhauer said, ‘Homo homini lupus`—man

is a wolf to man; I`m certain that he was the inspiration for Sartre`sNo Exit. ”

«All well and good, Philip. But you`re confirming my very point: that you may not

be equipped to work as a therapist. Your point of view leaves no room for friendships.»

«Every time I reach out to another, I end up with less of myself. I have not had a

friendship in adulthood, nor do I care to form one. You may remember I was a solitary

child with a disinterested mother and an unhappy father who eventually took his life. To

be frank, I`ve never met anyone who has anything of interest to offer me. And it`s not

because I haven`t looked. Every time I`ve tried to befriend someone, I`ve had the same

experience as Schopenhauer, who said he only found miserable wretches, men of limited

intelligence, bad heart, and mean disposition. I`m referring to living persons—not to the

great thinkers of the past.

«You met me, Philip.»

«That was a professional relationship. I refer to social encounters.»

«These attitudes are visible in your behavior. With your contempt and lack of

social skills spawned by this contempt, how can you possibly interact with others in a

therapeutic manner?»

«We`re not in disagreement there—I agree I need to work on social skills. A little

friendliness and warmth, Schopenhauer said, makes it possible to manipulate people just