“Did you know” — Miles spoke from the comer — “that in the years she’s been back she’s tried to kill herself three times?”
A kind of pain that might have been grief seemed to work up through Chardy’s knees. He swallowed once, feeling his heart beat hard, or seem to, at any rate. He clenched his fists together.
“I didn’t know that. I don’t know anything about what happened to her.”
Chardy could almost feel Miles smile in the dark. He’d only glimpsed him in the hurried introductions — Speight had said something about a computer whiz — and remembered a short, dark, splotchy man, a boy really, not quite or just barely thirty, with unruly oily black hair. He had the look to him of a priest’s boy, the one in every parish who’d seek a special relationship from the father or the mother superior and draw power off it for years. He’d seen it at Resurrection too, and maybe elsewhere; maybe it wasn’t Catholic at all.
“Once in ’seventy-seven, wrists,” Lanahan amplified, “once in ’seventy-nine, pills, and a real bad one last year, pills again. She almost went the distance.”
Chardy nodded, keeping his eyes sealed on the woman’s image before him.
Johanna, why?
But he knew why.
“The university has had her in and out of various shrink programs,” Lanahan continued. “We got the records. It wasn’t easy.”
But Chardy was not listening. He looked at his own wrists. He’d cut them open in April of 1975 after his lengthy interrogation by the KGB. He knew the feeling of comfort: the blood draining away and with it all the problems of the world. An immense light-headedness fills you, seductive, gratifying. You think you’re going to beat them. He remembered screaming at the officer who had supervised his interrogation, “Speshnev, Speshnev, I’m going to win.” But they’d saved him.
“Is that it?” Trewitt asked.
“Yes,” said Ver Steeg, and the image vanished. Trewitt pulled the curtains open and light flooded the room.
Chardy stared at the wall from which her image had disappeared. Then he turned back to the others.
“So — Paul. May I call you Paul?” Yost asked. Chardy could not see his eyes behind the pink-framed semi-academic glasses he wore, a style beloved of high-level government administrators.
“Please,” Chardy said.
“Ulu Beg knows only two people in the United States. You and Johanna Hull. And it seems unlikely he’d come to you — for help.”
Chardy nodded. Yes, it seemed unlikely Ulu Beg would come to him — for help.
“That leaves this woman.”
“You think he’ll go to her?”
“I don’t think anything. I see only probabilities. It seems probable that he’s aware how difficult it would be to operate in this country without some kind of base. It seems probable, then, that he’d try and obtain one. It seems probable that he’d be drawn to somebody he felt he could trust, somebody who shared his sentiments about the Kurds. It seems probable, finally, that he’d go to her. That’s all.”
“You could try and anticipate his target,” said Chardy.
“You could. And if you anticipated wrong you might put yourself into a posture you’d never get out of. We have no data to operate on at this point as to his target; there are no probabilities. That may change; until it does I’ve decided to concentrate on the probabilities.”
Chardy nodded.
“So we have to wonder, Paul,” Yost continued It was a freak of optics that kept his eyes hidden behind the twin pools of light reflected in his lenses. “You’re our authority. You know them both. Is it feasible he’d approach her? To you, I mean. Does that feel right? And if so, how would she react? And finally, would she cooperate with us? Or, more to the point, with you?”
Miles spoke before Chardy could form an answer.
“She’s not an activist type, we know. She’s not affiliated with any zany political group, she’s not a demonstrator, a kook. She doesn’t sleep with fruity revolutionaries. She’s quiet, she’s solid — except for her head troubles. She doesn’t have a history of doing screwy things.”
He fingered through some pages before him — Johanna’s dossier, probably. God, they knew so much about her, Chardy thought. The idea of this Miles’s small fingers riffling through Johanna’s life offended him. His damp hands on her picture, her documents.
Miles smiled, showing dirty teeth.
Who’ll save you, Johanna, from these guys?
I will, he thought.
And then he thought of her only contact with him, an answer to the fifteen-page letter he’d sent her when he returned from the Soviet prison. It had been a postcard with a cheesy picture of the Doral Hotel in Miami Beach on it, and it had said, “No, Paul. You know why.”
“Paul?”
“Sorry, I was—”
“The question,” Yost said politely, “is: will he approach her? And, would she help him?”
“She’d help us,” Chardy said.
“Come on, Paul,” said Miles … Lanahan! That was it. “For Christ’s sakes, she was sold on the Kurds. If you look at her record the way we did, you cannot escape that conclusion. She went to Iran in ’sixty-nine with the Peace Corps. She came back in ’seventy-three to teach at the college in Rezā’iyeh. She wrote her Ph.D. dissertation on Kirmanji, a Kurdish dialect. She made the pilgrimage to Mahābād, where they had their republic in ’forty-six, and one of her Peace Corps chums told us she wept at the Street of Four Lamps, where the Iranians hanged the Kurdish martyrs.”
“That’s all true,” said Chardy. “But it’s also true she’s too smart to get involved in anything stupid like you’re talking about. This is a very smart woman. She’s brilliant. She just wouldn’t get mixed up in something goofy like this. Ulu Beg or no Ulu Beg.”
“If he approached her, she’d help us?”
“Yes. If we could tell her we wouldn’t hurt him.”
“Paul, he’s already killed two police officers.”
“A terrible accident. And the FBI and the Border Patrol haven’t made the connection to Ulu Beg yet. Because you want to play this thing low-profile. You wouldn’t have brought me in unless you wanted to play it low-profile, and I don’t think you want the FBI nosing through some old Agency business.”
There was stifled silence in the room. Chardy had them, he knew he had them.
“Let me tell her we’ll try and pick him up and let him walk on it. That’s the key. If you say, ‘We’re going to throw this guy in the slammer for two hundred years,’ then it’s all over. But if you say, ‘Look, it’s terrible, but we can still deal with it,’ then maybe you’ve got a chance.”
“You love them. Both. Still.” It was the boy, Trewitt.
“No matter,” said Yost Ver Steeg. “But I’m sure Paul understands” — he seemed to speak to the younger man but in reality talked by echo to Chardy — “no matter what his personal feelings are, just how potentially serious a problem this is. An Agency-trained Kurd with an Agency-provided automatic weapon. Suppose he commits some terrible act of random violence — like the Japanese terrorists at Lod Airport. Or kills an important public figure. The Agency doesn’t need to be tied up in a scandal like that.”
Chardy nodded. They were scared. He could see the headlines, one of the Agency’s secret little wars exploding in America’s own backyard, American blood on American pavement for the first time. They were terrified — of what it would do to the Agency.
“You can see that, Paul, can’t you?”