She recoiled as if I’d struck her, then muttered, “I’ve nothing ready yet. But that doesn’t change my opinion of your book.”
That I knew Emily was venting her rage at me upon my book did not relieve my fear that there might be some validity to her criticism. Perhaps Shirley was indeed a bad book. Yet its defects were of secondary concern to me at present.
“Emily, you are torturing me!” I cried. “I’m sorry I broke my promise. I’ve apologized over and over, and so has Anne. How can we gain your forgiveness?”
Hands clenched, Emily stood rigidly by the fireplace, her face ashen and her angry eyes reflecting the candle flames.
“No harm has come of telling Charlotte’s publisher the identities of Currer and Acton Bell,” Anne said in a pleading voice. “Smith, Elder amp; Company know nothing of you.” She rose and moved towards Emily, her hand outstretched. “Everything is quite the same as before.”
“Everything has changed!” Emily flinched violently away from Anne’s touch. “Mr. Smith will tell more people the secret, and soon curiosity seekers will be knocking on our door.” Her voice ragged with hysteria, she began pacing the room, as if already under siege. “I can’t bear that. I’ll die!” It would do no good to tell Emily that she was magnifying the threat, for her fear of strangers was real and extreme.
“We must talk about what happened to Anne and me,” I said.
“Anne has already told me everything. It makes me ill. I won’t hear anymore.” Emily pressed her palms over her ears. But as I told Anne how a strange dark man had questioned Arthur Nicholls and the postmistress about me, Emily’s hands dropped. She crouched on the floor. “It’s started,” she whimpered. “The public has found Acton, Currer, and Ellis Bell. The hordes will invade Haworth, and we’ll never have another moment of privacy!”
This explanation for the stranger in the village had not occurred to me. Had a reader of our books tracked the authors Bell to their lair?
Anne put her arms around Emily. “It seems more likely that the stranger is one of the men from the train, come to harm us again. Oh, Charlotte, we must keep the doors and windows locked. We must tell Papa, and we must never go out alone. Should we take turns staying up at night to watch over the house and keep Branwell inside?”
“Those measures might postpone trouble,” I said, “but the only way to protect ourselves is to identify our enemies so that they may be apprehended.”
“But how can we identify them?” Anne stroked Emily’s hair.
“This may provide the answer,” I said, and drew from beneath my notebook the package from Isabel White. “I retrieved it from the post office this afternoon. Miss White sent it the day we arrived in London. She must have conceived the idea while we were on the train-surely, that’s why she took such pains to learn my address and the correct spelling of my name.”
“How strange,” Anne said, though Emily seemed not to listen. “Do you think Miss White’s package contains clues as to who killed her and why?”
“I hope so; but alas, I can’t look inside.” I read aloud Isabel’s letter. “My conscience won’t allow me to open the package.”
“Your conscience allowed you to break your promise to me,” Emily said bitterly.
How well she knew how to worsen my guilt! “That was necessary. This matter is altogether different. Isabel White’s letter represents her dying wish, and I cannot defy it.”
“Will you tell Gilbert White about the package?” Anne said.
I had promised to tell him if I had further information regarding the murder. I also wanted to tell him that my attackers appeared to have located me in Haworth; yet my doubts concerning Mr. White had resurfaced. Was this package what he sought when he asked if Isabel had given me anything? Had he befriended me that I might lead him to the book? Would I receive aid by communicating with Mr. White, or further endanger myself and my family?
Before I could frame an answer to Anne’s question, Emily exclaimed with caustic triumph, “Ah, I understand! This man Gilbert White is the reason for your interest in the murder. You’ve fallen in love with him, just as you did with Monsieur Heger in Belgium!”
I was shocked by her accusation and by the mention of a name I still cringed to hear. I stammered, “That’s ridiculous. I am not in love with Mr. White, and I was never in love with-”
“Oh, yes, you were.” A spiteful smile lit Emily’s face. “I saw how you looked at him during our French lessons. I saw you writing letters to him and watching the post for his reply. Do you think I’m blind, that I wouldn’t notice?”
Horror filled me. If my self-absorbed sister had noticed, how many other people had guessed my secret love for my professor, the married man over whom I had humiliated myself? I hated Emily for suggesting that I had fallen in love with Gilbert White as unwisely as with Monsieur Heger. She wanted revenge, and if I wanted peace between us, I should let her wound me; but I couldn’t bear to discuss Monsieur Heger-or Gilbert White-in this manner.
“My feelings towards Mr. White are beside the point,” I said coldly. Loath to mention my suspicions of him, I went on: “I may or may not write to him, but the fact is that Isabel has assigned me the duty of conveying the package to her mother. I must go to Bradford at once. Since I shouldn’t travel alone, I need someone to go with me.”
“Not I,” Emily declared with a passion. She huddled closer to the floor, as if sinking roots in it. “When we returned from Belgium, I said I would never leave home again, and I-unlike you-always keep my word.”
Anne’s expression was pensive, worried. Still embracing Emily, she said, “Perhaps you should send the package by post.”
“There must be a reason why Isabel didn’t want to post the package directly to her mother,” I said. “I must deliver it in person. Anne, since Emily won’t go with me, will you?”
Emily turned a fierce gaze upon Anne, who looked torn asunder. I said, “The package is a possible clue to discovering who killed Isabel and attacked us. The only way to learn what’s inside it is to obtain her mother’s permission to look. Papa is too frail to travel, and Branwell too unreliable. Anne, you must go to Bradford with me.”
Neither of my sisters spoke. They looked as they had in childhood, when they would whisper together, and if I came into the room, they would fall silent and wait for me to leave. “Dear Charlotte, I’m sorry,” Anne said with quiet regret.
As I recall the scene above, the wind wails round the parsonage; candles glow. But mine is the only shadow on the wall, for I sit alone at the table. The chairs once occupied by Anne and Emily are vacant. Emily’s bulldog, Keeper, lies near the hearth beside Anne’s little spaniel, Flossy. They prick up their ears and look towards the door, expecting the return of their departed loved ones. How my heart aches with loneliness! In the hope of distraction, I will relate a part of my story which occurred on the same night Emily and I quarreled, although at the time I knew nothing of these events.
John Slade’s travels had again brought him to London. At midnight, the River Thames, black and oily under a clouded, moonless sky, flowed past the city, beneath the arches of London Bridge, and wended onward to the sea. By day, the Thames is a busy highway crowded with ships, barges, and ferries, but the traffic was now ceased, the shipyards deserted, the vessels moored at the wharves. The river slept-until a lone ship glided into view. Her tattered sails had borne her from the Orient. Painted in faded letters on her hull was the name Pearl. She approached the London Docks and navigated the canals along the quays. Warehouses loomed, dark and abandoned except for one: Here, lamplight shone through windows, and a man waited outside.
He was Isaiah Fearon, a prosperous merchant, once a trader in the East Indies. As he spied the Pearl drawing near, he shouted an order. The warehouse discharged a horde of dock laborers. They hurried along the quay to guide the ship into a berth and secure her; they transferred cargo from the Pearl ’s hold to the warehouse. The captain disembarked, carrying a small wooden chest, and joined Isaiah Fearon. The chest exchanged hands. Fearon’s men brought out scores of heavy crates, which they stowed aboard the Pearl. Soon the ship sailed away down the canal. Isaiah Fearon dismissed the men; alone, he locked himself inside the warehouse, a vast, dim cavern filled with goods and reeking of exotic spices. He went to his office, placed the chest on his desk, and opened it. Inside were hundreds of gold coins.