Hannah tucked her hands deep in her down parka and looked over Macy's lighted window displays where mannequins with perfect figures wore spring dresses. One caught her eye – a beautiful black cocktail dress with a revealing but tasteful slit up the leg. Northeastern University's spring formal was coming up in three weeks and no one had asked her.
In a strange way, she was relieved. Even if someone asked her, she couldn't afford a new dress – not unless she was willing to pull extra shifts at the deli as well as dipping into her grocery money for the next two months. The idea of eating Raman noodles for breakfast, lunch and dinner wasn't appealing, and besides, it wasn't like she could fit into any of these dresses. She would never be thin, not like the girls in the magazines, not like this mannequin or even her two roommates, Robin and Terry, who got up every morning to work out at the gym and ate nothing but salads sprinkled with goat cheese.
Hannah knew she wasn't much of a looker. She was tall, almost six feet in heels, a big-boned, curvy woman with nice hair and a pleasant face. She didn't have much of a chest, thanks to her mother's genes. From her father she had inherited SIS – Shitty Irish Skin that freckled from the sun. The Givens lineage had also given her a lazy eye that, despite her mother's assurances, hadn't corrected itself over time.
The real problem, Hannah suspected, was her personality. She was boring. She was smart, hardworking and good with the books, real good, but that didn't count for much until you got older, when the tables turned and things like brains and a high salary made men stop and take a second look. While Robin and Terry drank dollar drafts at dive bars on Thursday nights and worked the fraternity party circuit Friday through Sunday, Hannah was either working or studying. She wanted to have fun – honestly, she did – but with her two jobs and her course workload, she didn't exactly have a lot of free time.
While she waited for the bus, Hannah passed the time imagining herself five inches shorter and fifty pounds lighter wearing the black dress in the window and a stunning pair of Manolos as Chris Smith, the handsome lacrosse player from her Shakespeare class, escorted her to the spring formal. She'd look like Cinderella going to the ball.
A car horn honked behind her. Hannah turned and saw a black BMW parked against the kerb on the corner of Porter and Summer Streets. The passenger's side window was rolled down.
'Hannah? Is that you?'
A man's voice. She didn't recognize it. She couldn't see who was sitting behind the wheel. The car's interior was dark.
'I'm in Professor Johnson's calculus class,' the man said. 'I sit in the far back.'
Hannah stepped up next to the open window. In the soft blue light coming from the dashboard, she saw the man's face.
He had been in some sort of accident, like a fire. His face was severely scarred, covered with makeup, his nose an awful, crooked mess of skin. His left eye was damaged, wide open and unblinking.
Hannah pulled away from the window. The wind, wild and fierce, whipped curtains of snow across the streets.
'I'm sorry, we haven't been formally introduced. I'm Walter. Walter Smith.'
'Hello.'
'You ready for Johnson's midterm next week?'
'I'm going to do a little studying once I get home.'
'I hope you're not waiting for the bus. They're running waaaay behind schedule on account of the storm. I just heard it on the radio. Hop in. I'll give you a ride.'
Hannah wanted nothing more than to get out of the cold, to get home and slip into a warm bath. She had a long weekend of studying, and she planned on getting a head start tonight, but the thought of getting inside the car with this stranger filled her with anxiety.
'Thanks for the offer,' Hannah said, 'but I don't want to put you out of your way.'
'You're not. I'm heading over to Brighton anyway to visit a friend.' Walter Smith was already moving the backpack and textbook into the back seat.
He wasn't a stranger, not exactly. He was in Professor Johnson's class. She didn't recognize him, but that didn't mean anything. The calculus class was held in a big, musty lecture hall. There were well over a hundred students.
'You'll freeze to death out there,' Walter Smith said. 'Hop in.'
A small statue of the Virgin Mary was mounted on the dashboard. Seeing the statue sent the anxiety away. Hannah opened the door and hopped in, grateful to be out of the cold wind.
The inside of the car was warm and smelled of new leather and cologne.
'I live at one twenty-two Carlton Road,' Hannah said, buckling her seatbelt. 'Do you know how to get to Allston?'
Walter Smith nodded as he pulled away from the kerb. 'One of my friends lives around there,' he said. 'Speaking of which, do you mind if I swing by and pick up him up? It's on the way.'
'No, of course not.'
The city ploughs were out, busy trying to clear the streets and highways. Traffic was slow.
'So,' Hannah said, 'what's your major?'
Walter Smith was majoring in computer science. He wanted to design computer games. He grew up on the west coast – he didn't say where – and told her he was living in the Back Bay although he was seriously considering moving to someplace like Brighton or Allston where rent was considerably cheaper. When Hannah asked him how he liked Northeastern, he shrugged and said he wanted to go to MIT but couldn't afford it.
Hannah thought it was odd he could afford a BMW and to rent a place in the Back Bay but couldn't afford to take out a college loan. If you could go to MIT, why waste your time and money on Northeastern? Hannah didn't want to come across as nosy, so she didn't ask.
By the time they hit Storrow Drive, Walter had grown quiet. He was doing this weird thing with his tongue – gently chewing it on one side of his jaw, then moving it over to the other side. She tried talking to him about music and movies but he seemed distracted. Maybe he was concentrating on the road. The snow was bad, and the roads were pretty slippery. She spotted more than one accident.
Walter took the Allston exit. Ten minutes later he pulled into a small strip mall with a Radio Shack and two other buildings that looked abandoned. The parking lot was empty. He drove behind the building and parked in front of a loading dock. Crates and trash were stacked up next to several back doors. There was nobody back here.
'Dave must be waiting inside,' Walter said. 'Reach inside the glove compartment and grab the yellow sheet of paper. It has Dave's cell number on it.'
Hannah leaned forward and opened the glove compartment. Walter smashed her face against the dashboard.
'I'm sorry,' Walter Smith said as he pressed a bandana against her nose and mouth.
At first Hannah thought he was trying to wipe away the blood; then she inhaled some bitter odour that smelled of spoiled fruit. She struggled to move away but she was caught against the seatbelt.
'I didn't mean to hurt you.' His voice trembled, and he started to cry. 'I'm sorry.'
She grabbed his wrist with both hands and tried to yank it away, but Walter Smith's grip was too strong. She could taste blood – her blood – on the back of her throat and she started to gag.
He was crying harder now. 'I'll make it up to you, Hannah, I promise. I'm going to make you very happy.'
Hannah slumped back against the seat, hearing the windshield wipers going back and forth, back and forth, the Virgin Mary's mournful eyes looking at her with arms wide open, ready to comfort.
5
Walter Smith popped the trunk. He unfastened Hannah's seatbelt and then headed out into the wet, heavy snow, quickly making his way to the passenger's side.
Hannah was heavier than Emma and Judith, and considerably taller. Instead of picking Hannah up and cradling her in his arms, Walter gripped her under the armpits and dragged her to the back of the car. The blankets were already set up.