"Passionate?"
"It was more than passion, wouldn't you say?"
"I'd say."
"My God, I was like… an animal or something. I couldn't get enough of you."
"It was great for my ego," he said, grinning.
"I didn't know your ego was deflated."
"Wasn't. But I never thought of myself as God's gift to women, either
" "But after last night you do, huh?"
"Absolutely."
TWenty yards into the woods, they stopped and looked at each other and kissed gently.
She said, "I just want you to understand that I've never been like that before."
He feigned surprise and disappointment." You mean you're not sex crazy?"
"Only with you."
"That's because I'm God's gift to women, I guess."
She didn't smile." Charlie, this is important to me-that you understand. Last night. I don't know what got into me."
" I got into you."
"Be serious. Please. I don't want you to think I've been like that with other men. I haven't. Not ever. I did things with you last night that I've never done before. I didn't even know I could do them. I was really like a wild animal. I mean. I'm no prude but-"
"Listen," he said, "if you were an animal last night, then I was a beast. It's not like me to completely surrender control of myself like that, and it certainly isn't like me to be that.
well, demanding. rough. But I'm not embarrassed by the way I was, and you shouldn't be, either. We've got something special, something unique, and that's why we both felt able to let go the way we did. At times it was maybe crude-but it was also pretty terrific, wasn't it?"
"God, yes."
They kissed again, but it was a brief kiss interrupted by a distant growling-buzzing.
Charlie cocked his head, listening.
The sound grew louder.
"Plane?" she said, looking up at the narrow band of sky above the tree-flanked lane.
"Snowmobiles," Charlie said." There was a time when the mountains were always quiet, serene. Not any more. Those damned snowmobiles are everywhere, like fleas on a cat."
The roar of engines grew louder.
"They wouldn't come up this far?" she asked worriedly.
G'Might."
"Sounds like they're almost on top of us."
"Probably still pretty far off. Sound is deceptive up here; it carries a long way."
" But if we do run into some snowmobilers — "
"We'll say we're renting the cabin. My name's. Bob. mmm. Henderson. You're Jane Henderson. We live in Seattle. Up here to do some cross-country skiing and just get away from it all. Got it?"
"Got it," she said.
"Don't mention Joey."
She nodded.
They started downhill again.
The sound of snowmobile engines grew louder, louder-and then cut out one at a time, until there was once again only the deep enveloping silence of the mountains and the soft crunch and squeak of snowshoes in the snow.
When they reached the next break in the tree line, at the top of the lower meadow, they saw four snowmobiles and eight or ten people gathered around the Jeep, almost three hundred yards below. They were too far away for Christine to see what they looked like, or even whether they were men or women; they were just small, dark figures against the dazzling whiteness of the snowfield. The station wagon was half buried in drifted snow, but the strangers were busily cleaning it off, trying the doors.
Christine heard faint voices but couldn't understand the words.
The sound of breaking glass clinked through the crisp cold air, and she realized these were not ordinary snowmobile enthusiasts.
Charlie pulled her backward, into the darkness beneath the trees, off to the left of the trail, and both of them nearly fell because snowshoes were not designed for dodging and running. They stood under a gigantic hemlock. Its spreading branches began about seven feet above the ground, casting shadows and shedding needles on the thin skin of snow that covered the earth beneath it. Charlie leaned against the enormous trunk of the tree and peered around it, past a couple of other hemlocks, between a few knobcone pines, toward the meadow and the Jeep. He unsnapped the binocular case that was clipped to his belt, took out the binoculars.
"Who are they?" Christine asked as she watched Charlie focus the glasses. Certain that she already knew the answer to Lier question but not wanting to believe it, not having the strength to believe it." Not just a group of people who like winter sports, that's for sure. They wouldn't go around busting the windows out of abandoned vehicles."
"Maybe it's a bunch of kids," he said, still focusing." Just out looking for a little trouble."
"Nobody goes out in deep snow, comes this far up a mountain, just looking for trouble," she said.
Charlie took two steps away from the hemlock, held the binoculars with both hands, peering downhill. At last he said, "I recognize one of them. The big guy who came into her office at the rectory, just as Henry and I were leaving. She called him Kyle."
"Oh Jesus."
The mountain wasn't a haven, after all, but a dead end. A trap.
Suddenly the loneliness of the snow-blasted slopes and forests made their retreat to the cabin appear short-sighted, foolish. It seemed like such a good idea to get away from people, where they would not be spotted, but they had also removed themselves from all chance of help, from everyone who might have come to their assistance if they were attacked. Here, in these cold high places, they could be slaughtered and buried, and no one but their murderers would ever know what had happened to them.
"Do you see. her?" Christine asked.
"Spivey? I think. yeah. the only one still sitting in a snowmobile. I'm sure that's her."
:'But how could they find us?"
'Somebody who knew I was part owner of the cabin. Somebody remembered it and told Spivey's people."
"Henry Rankin?"
:'Maybe. Very few people know about this place."
'But still… so quickly!"
Charlie said, "Six… seven… nine of them. No. Ten. Ten of them."
We're going to die, she thought. And for the first time since leaving the convent, since losing her religion, she wished that she had not turned entirely away from the Church. Suddenly, by comparison with the insanity of Spivey's cult beliefs, the ancient and compassionate doctrines of the Roman Catholic Church were immeasurably appealing and comforting, and she wished she could turn to them now without feeling like a hypocrite, wished she could beg God for help and ask the Blessed Virgin for her divine intercession. But you couldn't just reject the Church, put it entirely out of your life-then go running back when you needed it, and expect to be embraced without first making penance. God required your faith in the good times as well as the bad. If she died at the hands of Spivey's fanatics, she would do so without making a final confession to a priest, without the last rites or a proper burial in consecrated ground, and she was surprised that those things mattered to her and seemed important after all these years during which she had discounted their value.
Charlie put the binoculars back into the case, snapped it shut.
He unslung the rifle from his shoulder.
He said, "You head back to the cabin. Fast as you can. Stay in the trees until you reach the bend in the trail. After that they can't see you from the lower meadow. Get Joey suited up. Pack some food in your knapsack. Do whatever you can to get ready.
"You're staying here? Why?"
"To kill a few of them," he said.
He unzipped one of the pockets in his insulated jacket. It was filled with loose cartridges. When he exhausted the rounds already in the rifle, he would be able to reload quickly.
She hesitated, afraid to leave him.
"Go!" he said." Hurry! We haven't much time."
Heart racing, she nodded, turned, and made her way through the trees, heading upslope, shuffling as fast as the snowshoes would allow, which wasn't nearly fast enough, repeatedly raising her arms to push branches out of her way. She was thankful that the huge trees blocked the sun and prevented much undergrowth because it would have tangled in the snowshoes and snagged her ski suit and held her back.