As for Kyol? I watch an executioner stab a sword through Kyol’s chest over and over and over again, feeling every wound as if it’s piercing my own heart. The high nobles are looking on, satisfied grins on all their faces because they’re killing the fae who killed their king.
I can’t wake from any of those visions. It’s only my last nightmare that wrenches my soul so hard I lurch upright, sweat-soaked, wheezing, and with Aren’s agonized scream echoing in my ears. He’s locked in silver-plated shackles and forced to watch as I’m thrown onto a bed in a tjandel. We’re both fighting, him trying to get to me and me trying to get away from the sick bastards who want to rape and skin me. The dream only ends when one of those assholes draws a dagger across my throat.
Wide-eyed, I stare at the foot of my bed from my pile of blankets on the floor, attempting to calm down my racing heartbeat. How much of my fear and horror Kyol felt, I don’t know. He isn’t in my world, but his wall is down. He’s worried.
Just a dream, I think, reassuring both him and myself. I’m okay.
After a few deep breaths, I am for the most part all right. I’ve had nightmares my whole life. They’ve never predicted the future. There’s no reason for them to become premonitions now.
I shove away the last traces of the dreams, then climb to my feet. I’m lucky I woke when I did—it’s later than I expected—and I have to throw on my work clothes and skip breakfast to make it to work on time. Judy’s there and waiting. When she asks what happened yesterday, I tell her I had a seizure. It’s clear she doesn’t believe me, but she lets me stay on the condition that, if it happens again, I either need a note from my doctor or I’ll be let go. Considering how I left and the fact that I practically kidnapped Kynlee, that’s more than fair, so I thank her and park myself behind the reference desk.
I’m by myself for the first hour, so I go through my normal routine. I check my e-mail, hoping that I finally have some news on Shane. Not only have I contacted all the London hospitals, but I’ve talked to the police and even the U.S. embassy. None of them have seen or heard from him, and they’re sick of my calls. It doesn’t help that he didn’t enter the country legally.
Paige swears the remnants didn’t take him. She doesn’t have a reason to lie.
But someone had to take him. If she’s not lying, then . . .
Then I don’t know what the hell happened to him.
I click off my e-mail—the three new messages I received were all spam—and scan the library. There’s no sign of Kynlee. That’s not unusual given that it’s a Saturday morning, and she’s usually only here after school. I totally abuse my position and access the library’s patron records. Her last name is Walker, her dad’s name is Nick, and apparently, they’ve lived here for at least the last six years. He’s only checked out a few books over the years, nothing interesting. Even with a fae as a daughter, he’s doing a much better job at living a normal human life than I ever did.
“Excuse me.”
I tear my gaze away from the screen. A woman is standing at the desk.
“Sorry,” I say, clicking off Nick’s account information. “Can I help you?”
Hers isn’t the last question I answer. We get busier during lunch, so I don’t get a chance to call Paige until my break. I need to tell her about my conversation with Lee, but mostly, I want to ask her about Caelar. If he is working with the false-blood, Lena needs to know—and Paige needs to stay the hell away from him and all the remnants. The false-blood is skinning humans. Paige chose her side, but she was my only human friend for almost a decade, and I’m the reason she’s become entangled in the fae’s world. She at least deserves a warning.
Paige doesn’t answer my call, though. This is the longest we’ve gone without talking since I left the Realm. I’m sure she’s probably okay—her cell phone might be dead or lost—but I can’t completely shake off the feeling of dread that crawls across my shoulders.
I leave a voice mail telling her we need to talk.
A day passes. Then another and another. I should be relaxing into my normal, human life, but every morning, I wake up more tense and stressed out than the last one. Paige hasn’t called me back. Neither has Lee, and the time I spend not working drags by almost as slowly as the time when I am. Hell, I even miss Sosch, who abandoned me when he leaped into Kyol’s fissure.
I check the time on my computer screen—it’s just after 3:00 P.M. A little less than an hour until I get off and go home to an empty apartment.
The thought has crossed my mind that today is a weekday, and if Kynlee sticks to her normal schedule, she should be here this afternoon. I have half a mind to make her take me to the Realm again. I won’t. Not only is it dangerous for both of us, but her dad seems like a sling-a-shotgun-over-his-shoulder kind of man.
Still, my gaze keeps going to the teen section. I’m curious about her, and I want to know if any other tor’um live in the area. Do they know any fae at all? Or is her dad keeping them one hundred percent isolated from her people?
“McKenzie?”
“Yes? Can I help—” I choke off my words when my gaze swings toward the voice. There, standing just in front of the reference desk, is Trev. I open my mouth to ask what’s wrong, but close it quickly because I’m not on reference duty alone. A librarian named Rachel is here, and since she’s not staring at Trev’s jaedric armor or protesting the presence of the sword belted around his waist, he has to be invisible. Fae almost always are when they’re in my world.
Rachel’s helping a patron, so I give Trev my best questioning look.
“We need you in Tholm,” he says.
“Tholm?” I cover that question with a cough. Trev nods. Normally, I’d balk at fissuring to that city. Tholm isn’t exactly in the middle of nowhere, but the nearest gate is in Corrist, a full day’s walk away. That’s fine if you’re fae, but not if you’re human. Twenty-something hours of nonstop walking pretty much sucks. It doesn’t, however, suck as much as watching the clock in my world while wondering what’s going on in the fae’s.
And, fortunately, tomorrow’s my day off.
I’m about to stand up when an older man approaches the desk. Trev steps out of the way at the last second.
“Can you help me find information on World War II?” the man asks.
“Um, yes,” I say. My brain is so wrapped up in the Realm and the fae, it’s hard to mentally shift gears, and his request is vague. I should ask him questions to narrow down exactly what he wants, but I just point to the nonfiction section and say, “940s.”
He thanks me and moves on, but there’s a woman in line after him, and another man waiting. It figures that we’d be busy at the most inconvenient time.
“How can I help you?” I ask the woman.
“The computer won’t let me sign in.”
“I need an answer now,” Trev says.
I throw Trev the tiniest glare, then say to the woman, “The pin number is the last four digits of your phone number.”
Nine times out of ten, that solves the problem, but I use the excuse to leave the reference desk and follow the woman to her computer terminal.
“I won’t wait any longer,” Trev grates out.
Chill out, I want to say to him as the woman sits in her chair. There’s only half an hour until I get off work. Rachel can handle the reference desk on her own. She might not even notice I’m gone. On the other hand, she might, and I’m already in trouble with Judy. I could lose my job if I leave now, but if I’m needed in the Realm . . .