"He's setting us up for later," whispered Mebbekew. "This whole dream thing, with us cut off from the family—he's going to disinherit us both."
"Oh, shut up," said Elemak. "He's just letting us know that he knows about what happened on the desert, and he isn't going to make a big fuss about it, but he knows. So this is probably the end of it—unless one of us does something really stupid."
Meb looked at him coldly. "As I recall, it was you who pointed the pulse at Nafai on the desert, not me. So let's not point the finger and call people stupid."
"I seem to remember a more recent incident," said Elemak.
"Of which you were the only witness. Even darling Nyef had no idea, and in fact it isn't even true, you made it all up, you sorry pizdook."
Elemak ignored the epithet. "I hope I never look as stupid as Father did, crying in front of everybody—about a dream."
"Yes, everybody's stupid except Elemak," said Mebbekew. "You're so smart you fart through your nose."
Elemak could not believe how disgustingly childish Meb could be. "Are we still twelve, Meb? Do we still think rhyming smart with fart is clever?"
"That was the irony of it, you poor thick-headed lummox," said Meb in his most charming voice. "Only you're so smart you never understand irony. No wonder you think everybody around you is dumb—you never understand what they're saying, so you think they must not be speaking intelligibly. Let me tell you the secret that everybody else in this camp knows, Elya, my pet brother. You may know how to get through the desert alive, but it's the only thing you do know. Even Eiadh jokes with the other women that you finish with her so quickly she doesn't even have time to notice you've started. You don't even know how to please a woman, and Elya, let me tell you, they're all very easy to please."
Elemak let the insults and the innuendos slide off him. He knew Meb when he was in these moods. When they were both boys, Elemak used to beat him up when he got this way—but then it finally dawned on him that this was exactly what Mebbekew wanted. As if he didn't mind the pain as long as he got to see Elemak so angry and red-faced, sweating, with sore hands from pounding on Mebbekew's bones. Because then Meb knew he was in control.
So Elemak didn't let himself be goaded. Instead he left Meb and joined the others getting their supper at the cookfire. Eiadh was serving from the stewpot—there hadn't been time to cook the hare, so the only meat in it was jerky, but Rasa had made sure to pack plenty of spices so at least there'd be some flavor to the soup tonight. And Eiadh looked so lovely ladling it out into the bowls that Elemak was filled with longing for her. He knew well that Meb was lying—Eiadh had nothing to complain about in their lovemaking—and if there wasn't a baby in her there would be soon. That knowledge tasted sweet indeed to Elemak. This is what I was searching for in all those journeys. And if that's what Father meant by his tree of life—taking part in the great enterprise of love and sex and birth and life and death—then Elemak had indeed tasted of the fruit of that tree, and it was delicious, more than anything else that life had to offer. So if Father thought that Elemak would be shamed because he didn't come to the tree in Father's dream, then he'd be disappointed, because Elemak was already at the tree and didn't need Father to show him the way.
After supper, Nafai and Luet headed for the Index tent. They would have gone before eating, they were that eager—but they knew that there'd be no stock of food for snacking later. They had to eat when meals were served. So now, as darkness fell, they parted the door and stepped inside—only to find Issib and Hushidh already there, their hands together on the Index.
"Sorry," said Luet.
"Join us," said Hushidh. "We're asking for an explanation of the dream."
Luet and Nafai laughed. "Even though it's perfectly clear what it means?"
"So Father told you that, too," said Issib. "Well, I suppose he's right—it's sort of a general moral lesson about taking care of your family and ignoring the fun life and all that—like the books they give to children to persuade them to be good."
"But," said Nafai.
"But why now? Why us?" said Issib. "That's what we're asking."
"Don't forget that he saw what the rest of us have seen," said Luet. "What General Moozh saw."
"What do you mean?" asked Issib.
"He wasn't there," Hushidh reminded them. "I haven't told him yet—about my dream."
"We saw dreams," said Luet. "And even though all our dreams were different, they all had something in common. We all saw these hairy flying creatures—I thought of them as angels, though they don't look particularly sweet. And the Oversoul told us that General Moozh saw them also—Hushidh's and my father. And our mother, too, the woman called Thirsty who stopped Hushidh from being married to General Moozh. And the ones on the ground, too…"
Hushidh spoke up. "I saw the ratlike ones eating—someone's children. Or trying to."
"And Father's dream is part of all that," said Luet, "because even though it's different from the others, it still has the rats and the angels in it. Remember that he said he saw some flying, and some scurrying along the ground? But he knew they were people, too."
"I remember that now," said Issib. "But he skipped right over it."
"Because he didn't realize that that was the sign," said Luet. "Of what?"
"That the dream didn't come from the Oversoul," said Luet.
"But Father already said that," said Issib. "The Oversoul told him."
"Ah, but whom did it come from?" asked Nafai. "Did the Oversoul tell him that?"
"The Keeper of Earth," said Luet.
"Who is that?" asked Issib.
"That's the one that the Oversoul wants to go back to Earth to see," said Luet. "That's the one we're all going to go back there to see. Don't you understand? The Keeper of Earth is calling us all in our dreams, one by one, telling us things. And what happened in Father's dream is important because it really does come from the Keeper. If we could just put it together and understand it ... "
"But something coming from Earth—it would have to travel faster than light," said Issib. "Nothing can do that."
"Or it sent these dreams a hundred years ago, at lightspeed," said Nafai.
"Sent dreams to people who aren't even born?" said Luet. "I thought you had dropped that idea."
"I still think that the dreams might be sort of—in the air," said Nafai. "And whichever of us is sleeping when the dream arrives, has the dream."
"Not possible," said Hushidh. "My dream was far too specific."
"Maybe you just worked the Keeper's stuff into your own dream," said Nafai. "It's possible."
"No it isn't," said Hushidh. "It was all of a piece, my dream. If any of it came from the Keeper of Earth, it all did. And the Keeper knew me. Do you understand what that means? The Keeper knew me and she knew… everything."
Silence fell over the group for a moment.
"Maybe the Keeper is only sending these dreams to the people it wants to have come back," said Issib.