He was pacing back and forth across the morning room while he waited, nine steps one way, nine steps back.
Evelyn von Seidlitz could never be the friend Hester was. She was beautiful, certainly, but she was also as shallow as a puddle, innately selfish. That was the kind of ugliness which touched the soul. Whereas Hester with her angular shoulders and keen face, eyes far too direct, tongue too honest, had no charm at all, but a kind of beauty like a sweet wind off the sea, or light breaking on an upland when you can see from horizon to horizon, as it had in his youth on the great hills of Northumberland. It was in the blood and the bone, and one never grew tired of it. It healed the petty wounds and laid a clean hand on the heart, gently.
There was a noise in the hall.
He swung round to face it just as she came through the door. She was dressed in dark grey with a white, lace collar. She looked very smart, very feminine, as if she had made a special effort for the occasion. He felt panic rise up inside him. This was not a social call, certainly the furthest thing from a romantic one! What on earth had Mrs. Duff told her?
"I only came for a moment!" he said hastily. "I did not wish to interrupt you! How are you?”
The colour burned up her cheeks.
"Quite well, thank you," she said sarcastically. "And you?”
"Tired, chasing an exhausting and un hopeful case," he answered. "It will be difficult to solve, even harder to prove, and I am not optimistic the law will prosecute it even should I succeed. Am I interrupting you?”
She closed the door and leaned against the handle.
"If you were I should not have come. The maid is perfectly capable of carrying a message.”
She might look less businesslike than usual, but she had absolutely no feminine charm. No other woman would have spoken to him like that.
"You have no idea how to be gracious, have you?" he criticised.
Her eyes widened. "Is that what you came for, someone to be gracious to you?”
"I would hardly have come here, would I?”
She ignored him. "What would you like me to say? That I am sure you know what you are doing, and your skill will triumph in the end? That a just cause is well fought, win or lose?" Her eyebrows rose. "The honour is in the battle, not the victory? I'm not a soldier. I have seen too much of the cost of ill-planned battles, and the price of loss.”
"Yes, we all know you would have fought a better war than Lord Raglan,” he snapped. "If the War Office had had the good sense to put you in charge instead!”
"If they had picked someone at random off the street, they would have,” she rejoined. Then her face softened a little. "What is your battle?”
"I would rather tell you somewhere more comfortable, and more private,” he replied. "Would you like to dine?”
If it was a surprise, she hid it very well… too well! Perhaps it was what she had expected. It was not what he had intended to say! But to retreat now would make it even worse. It would draw attention to it, and to his feelings about it. He could not even pretend he thought she was busy, Mrs. Duff had told him she was not.
"Thank you," she said with an aplomb he had not expected. She seemed very cool about it. She turned and opened the door, leading the way out into the hall. She asked the footman for her cloak, and then together she and Monk went outside to the bitter evening, again dimmed by fog, the streetlamps vague moons haloed by drifting ice, the footpaths slippery.
It took just under ten minutes to find a hansom and climb into it. He gave directions to an inn he knew quite well. He would not take her to an expensive place, in case she misunderstood his intent, but to take her to a cheap one would find her thinking he could not afford better, and possibly even offering to pay.
"What is your battle?" she repeated when they were sitting side by side in the cold as the cab lurched forward then settled into a steadier pace. It was miserably cold, even inside. There was very little to see, just gloom broken by hazes of light, sudden breaks in the mist when outlines were sharp, a carriage lamp, a horse's head and forequarters, the high, black silhouette of a hansom driver, and then the shroud of fog closed in again.
"At first, just women being cheated in Seven Dials," he answered. "To begin with it was no more than using a prostitute and refusing to pay…”
"Don't they have pimps and madams to help prevent that?" she asked.
He winced, but then he should have expected her to know such things.
She had hardly been sheltered from many truths.
"These were amateurs," he explained. "Mostly women who work in factories and sweatshops during the day, and just need a little more now and again.”
"I see.”
"Then they were raped. Now it has escalated until they are being beaten… increasingly violently.”
She said nothing.
He glanced sideways at her; as they passed close to another carriage, the light from the lamps caught her face. He saw the pity and anger in it, and suddenly his loneliness vanished. All the times of resentment and irritation and self-protectiveness telescoped into the causes they had shared, and disappeared, leaving only the understanding. He went on to describe to her his efforts to elicit some facts about the men, and from his questioning of the cabbies and street vendors, in order to learn where they had come from.
They arrived at the hostelry where he planned to eat. They alighted, paid the driver, and went in. He was barely aware of the street, or the noise and warmth once they were inside. He ordered without realising he had done it for both of them, and she made a very slight face, but she did not interrupt, except to ask for clarification as he omitted a point, or was vague on an issue.
"I'm going to find them," he finished with hard, relentless commitment.
"Whether Vida Hopgood pays me for it or not. I'll stop them, and I'll make damned sure everyone like them knows they've paid the price, whether it's the justice of the law, or of the streets." He waited, half expecting her to argue with him, to preach the sanctity of keeping the civilised law, of the descent into barbarism, if it were abandoned, whatever the cause or the provocation.
But she sat in thoughtful silence for several minutes before she replied.
The room around them swirled with the clatter of crockery, the sound of voices and laughter. The smells of food and ale and damp wool filled the air. Light glinted on glass and was reflected on faces, white shirt fronts and the white of plates.
"The young man I'm nursing was beaten, nearly to death, in St. Giles,” she said at last. "His father did die." She looked across at him.
"Are you sure enough you can get the right man? If you make a mistake, there can be no undoing it. The law will try them, there will have to be proof, weighed and measured, and someone to speak in their defence.
If it is the streets, then it will simply be execution. Are you prepared to be accuser, defender, and jury… and to let the victims judge?”
"What if the alternative is freedom?" he asked. "Not only freedom to enjoy all the pleasures and rewards of life, without hindrance or answer ability for wrong, but the freedom to go on committing it, creating new victims, on and on, until someone is murdered, maybe one of the young ones, twelve or fourteen, too weak to fight back at all?”
He stared at her, meeting her clear eyes. "I am involved. I am the jury, whatever I decide. Omission is a judgement as well. To walk away, to pass on the other side, is as much a decision.”
"I know," she agreed. "Justice may be blindfolded, but the law is not.
It sees when and whom it chooses, because it is administered by those who see when and whom they choose." She was still frowning.