I allowed him to understand that I did not care, would be happy to leave it all to him.
“Tell me, Sirius, now that you have seen everything and thought about it, in your opinion, is the right thing to be done?”
I exploded, out of long months of indignation and revulsion: “I would call in our fleet of Flame Makers and destroy these squalid little animals.”
He was silent for a long time.
“You are shocked, of course,” I said.
“No. I—we—cannot afford to be shocked. We have in fact destroyed cultures that have become corrupt.”
“I am surprised that the great Canopus should use such means.”
“Or surprised at our admitting it?”
“Yes. I suppose that is it.”
For we certainly would not have admitted it, in similar circumstances.
“But when we have been forced to use such means, in order to keep our balances within measure, then these been small local cultures. A city… a group of two or three cities… even a few particularly damaging individuals. At this very time, in the area of the great inland seas…” and he seemed distressed, in pain “…we are being forced to take certain steps… This is not the most pleasant of tasks, this Shikastan assignment.”
“No. It is a horrible place.”
“But are you actually suggesting we should destroy all life over a continent?” he asked reproachfully.
“They should be treated as they treat others.”
“A hard rule, Sirius… tell me, have you ever reflected that our behaviour influences theirs?”
This came too close to certain private thoughts of mine, and I exploded with: “The native tribes may be sympathetic enough now, harmless, but you know as well as I do that given opportunity they will become as bad as the Lelannians. That is why this is such a planet.”
“It is not the fault of the planet.”
“That way of thinking is not within our scope, Canopus,” I said, looking at him as forcefully as I could, hoping that he would—at last, as I then saw it—begin to reveal truths, secrets, Canopean expertise.
“Why isn’t it, Sirius?”
This silenced me. He was saying that I had admitted our inferiority and that he was challenging its inevitability.
“Why? … and here we are,” he added, in a low, reproachful voice.
“Very well then, what do you think should be done?”
“I propose that we space-lift all the Lelannians away from this planet.”
“Where to?”
“Why,” he said smiling, “Shammat, of course. Each to his own.”
I laughed. “There are a million of them!”
“You are rich, Sirius. You have large fleets. You are in the habit of transporting populations from planet to planet. And you suffer from underemployment.”
“It is absolutely out of the question that I could get Administration to agree. They would not waste so many resources on such an inferior species.”
He was silent for a while. “Sirius, very often a great deal of time, effort, and resources are spent on ‘inferior’ species. Everything is relative, you know!”
I did not choose to “hear” this. Not at that time.
“You are also very rich, Canopus. Are you telling me that you do not transport populations from planet to planet?”
“Yes, I am telling you that. Not for the reasons you do, at least. Very rarely. We have a very finely balanced economy, Sirius. Exactly and delicately tuned. And if we were to undertake to transport a million animals from here to Shammat, then this would impose a strain on us.”
There was a great deal of information in this, of the kind I wanted so much to have from him—about Canopus and its nature. But I was too disturbed at that juncture to take it in.
“I tell you, it is not possible for me to arrange it.”
“Not possible for one of the five senior administrators of the Sirian Colonial Service?”
“No.”
“I appeal to you. It may surprise you to know that your economy is more flexible in certain ways than ours.”
“I am sorry.”
“Then we shall have to undertake it.”
I attempted to joke in the face of his evident disappointment, and even worry. “A million all at once will certainly impose a strain on Shammat!”
“It might keep them busy for a bit, at least. And I must confess it does give me some pleasure, unworthy though it is, I am sure, that these will become slaves now in their turn. Shammat is short of labour at this time.”
“I share your feelings.”
“Will you help us perhaps with the task of rehabilitating the tribes?”
And now I did hesitate for a long time. I did feel in the wrong about refusing our aid in the matter of the mass space-lift. I was feeling lacking generally in relation to Canopus—hardly a new emotion! But I also could not understand why he, or they, should concern themselves with this trivial nastiness.
“Why?” I demanded. “Why take so much trouble?”
“It will be useful for us—for everyone—for the whole Galaxy, if the tribes are enabled to return as far as possible to their old state. They will be returned to their own territories, and encouraged to resume their former simple lives in balance with the environment. Not taking more than they need, not despoiling, not overrunning their geographical areas, or laying waste. Before the Lelannian conquest this continent was in harmony. We shall see that it becomes so again.”
“And for how long?” I enquired, making him face me on this.
“Well, not forever, certainly. No. That we know.”
“Why?—oh, don’t talk to me of the Necessity!”
“There is nothing else, or less, I can talk to you of.”
“Then do so,” I cried, excited and peremptory. “I am waiting. I feel always at the edge of things, and you never come to the point.”
At this he looked, at first, faintly startled, then grieved, and then—as if he had determined to use this aid—amused.
“Sirius, you are indeed hard to please.”
I was angry. I was angry because of knowing I was in the wrong. I even knew then that this was why I was so fatally angry. I rose to my feet, unable to prevent myself, and said: “Canopus, I am leaving now.”
“I shall not prevent you!” said he, in an attempt to remind me of our old ironical understanding of the real situation.
“Very well, you can stop me if you want. But you won’t. Perhaps I would even be glad of that—if you would simply, and once and for all, do something unequivocal.”
And now he laughed. He laughed out, shaking his head with comical disbelief. This finally enraged me. I ran out into the open, summoned the hovering Space Traveller, and turned to see him in the doorway watching.
“May I perhaps give you a lift? To your Planet 10, perhaps? I shall be passing it.”
“I shall be staying here for a while.”
“Then goodbye.”
And that was how this encounter of ours came to its conclusion.
Once again, distancing myself, it was with relief. I was simply not up to it! It was all too much! And, as I approached home again, I found myself muttering: “That’s it then—it's enough!” And: “Very well, if that's how you want it!” But what these defiances actually meant was something I soon discovered, after I reported back and started to re-align myself with the work I had interrupted, for I found my mind was at work in quite other ways.
Recently I was scanning a history of that time in connection with a different subject, when I came across this: “Checks and restrictions were imposed on our experimental and research programmes; and as a result the numbers of animals licensed for use fell sharply.”
In this dry sentence is encapsulated what I am sure must have been the hardest effort of my career. I did not depart for the borders of our Empire. I did not apply for leave—which I was entitled to. I did not do, as Klorathy wanted, anything about our responsibility for Rohanda. But what I did do was engage myself with a fight to force us, Sirius, into a different attitude towards our subject populations, and particularly as regards their use as laboratory material. This battle is by no means over. As I write this, different factions of opinion are still engaged.