Sophie nodded, clearly plotting a predinner strategy.
"How's your father?" Rocco asked.
"He's good," Jessica said.
"Is he happy in his retirement?"
If you called abject misery, mind-numbing boredom and spending sixteen hours a day bitching about the crime rate happy, he was ecstatic. "He's great. Taking it easy. We're off to meet him for dinner."
"Villa di Roma?"
"Ralph's."
Rocco nodded his approval. "Give him my best."
"I sure will."
Rocco hugged Jessica. Sophie offered a cheek to be kissed. Being an Italian male, and never passing the opportunity to kiss a pretty girl, Rocco bent down and happily complied.
What a little diva, Jessica thought.
Where does she get it?
Peter Giovanni stood on the Palumbo playground, impeccably turned out in cream linen slacks, a black cotton shirt, and sandals. With his ice-white hair and deep tan he could have passed for an escort working the Italian Riviera, waiting to charm some wealthy American widow.
They headed to Ralph's, with Sophie on point just a few feet ahead.
"She's getting big," Peter said.
Jessica looked at her daughter. She was getting bigger. Wasn't it just yesterday she took her first wobbly steps across the living room? Wasn't it just yesterday that her feet didn't reach the pedals of her tricycle?
Jessica was just about to respond when she glanced at her father. He had that wistful look he was starting to have with some regularity. Was it all retirees, or just retired cops? Jessica wondered. She asked, "What is it, Pa?"
Peter waved a hand. "Ah. Nothing."
"Pa."
Peter Giovanni knew when he had to answer. It had been this way with his late wife, Maria. It was this way with his daughter. One day, it would be this way with Sophie. "I just… I just don't want you to make the same mistakes I made, Jess."
"What are you talking about?"
"You know what I mean."
Jessica did, but if she didn't press the issue, it would give credence to what her father was saying. And she couldn't do that. She didn't believe that. "I really don't."
Peter looked up and down the street, gathering his thoughts. He waved to a man leaning out of the third-floor window of a trinity row house. "You can't make your life all about the job." It isn t.
Peter Giovanni labored under the yoke of guilt that he had neglected his children when they were growing up. Nothing could have been farther from the truth. When Jessica's mother, Maria, passed away from breast cancer at the age of thirty-one, when Jessica was only five, Peter Giovanni dedicated his life to raising his daughter and his son, Michael. Maybe he wasn't there for every Little League game, and every dance recital, but every birthday, every Christmas, every Easter was special. All Jessica could remember were happy times growing up in the house on Catharine Street.
"Okay," Peter began. "How many of your friends are not on the job?"
One, Jessica thought. Maybe two. "Plenty."
"Gonna make me ask you to name them?"
"Okay, Lieutenant," she said, surrendering to the truth. "But I like the people I work with. I like cops."
"Me, too," Peter said.
For as long as she could remember, cops had been Jessica's extended family. From the moment her mother died, she had been cocooned in a family of blue. Her earliest memories were of a houseful of officers. She remembered well a female officer who would come over and take her shopping for school clothes. There were always patrol cars parked on the street in front of their house.
"Look," Peter began again. "After your mother died, I had no idea what to do. I had a young son and a younger daughter. I lived, breathed, ate, and slept the job. I missed so much of your lives."
"That's not true, Dad."
Peter held up a hand, stopping her. "Jess. We don't have to pretend."
Jessica let her father have his moment, as misguided as it was.
"Then after Michael…" In the past fifteen or so years, that's about as far as Peter Giovanni had ever gotten with that sentence.
Jessica's older brother, Michael, was killed in Kuwait in 1991. Her father shut down that day, closing his heart to any and all feelings. It wasn't until Sophie came along that he dared to reopen.
It wasn't long after Michael's death that Peter Giovanni entered a reckless phase on the job. If you're a baker or a shoe salesman, being reckless is not the worst thing in the world. For a cop, it is the worst thing in the world. When Jessica got her gold shield, it was all the incentive Peter needed. He turned in his papers the same day.
Peter reined in his emotions. "You've got, what, eight years on the job now?"
Jessica knew that her father knew exactly how long she had been in blue. Probably to the week, day, and hour. "Yeah. About that."
Peter nodded. "Don't stay too long. That's all I'm saying."
"What's too long?"
Peter smiled. "Eight and a half years." He took her hand in his, squeezed. They stopped walking. He looked into her eyes. "You know I'm proud of you, right?"
"I know, Pa."
"I mean, you're thirty years old and you're working homicides. You're working real cases. You're making a difference in people's lives."
"I hope so," Jessica said.
"There just comes a time when… the cases start working you."
Jessica knew exactly what he meant.
"I just worry about you, honey." Peter trailed off, the emotion once again stealing his words for the moment.
They got their feelings in check, entered Ralph's, got a table. They ordered their usual cavatelli with meat sauce. They talked no more of the job or crime or the state of affairs of the City of Brotherly Love. Instead, Peter enjoyed the company of his two girls.
When they parted company, they hugged a little longer than usual.
17
"Why do you want me to put it on?"
She holds the white dress up in front of her. It is a scoop-neck white T-shirt dress, long-sleeved, flared at the hips, cut just below the knee. It took a little searching to locate one, but I finally found it at a Salvation Army thrift store in Upper Darby. The dress is inexpensive, but on her figure it will look fabulous. It is the kind of dress that was popular in the 1980s.
Tonight it is 1987.
"Because I think it would look good on you."
She turns her head and smiles slightly. Coy and demure. I hope this won't be a problem. "You're a kinky boy, aren't you?"
"Guilty as charged."
"Is there anything else?"
"I want to call you Alex."
She laughs. "Alex?"
"Yes."
"Why?"
"Let's just say it's a screen test of sorts."
She thinks about it for a few moments. She holds the dress up again, stares at herself in the full-length cheval glass. The idea seems to appeal to her. Finally.
"Oh, why not?" she says. "I'm a little drunk."
"I'll be right out here, Alex," I say.
She steps into the bathroom, sees that I have filled the tub. She shrugs, closes the door.
Her apartment is decorated in the funky, eclectic style, a decor comprising an amalgam of mismatched sofas, tables, bookcases, prints, and rugs that were probably donated by family members, with the occasional flourish of color and individuality purchased at Pier 1 or Crate amp; Barrel or Pottery Barn.
I flip through her CDs, looking for something from the 1980s. I find Celine Dion, Matchbox 20, Enrique Iglesias, Martina McBride. Nothing that really speaks to the era. Then I luck out. At the back of the drawer is a dusty boxed set of Madame Butterfly.
I put the CD in the player, forward to "Un bel di, vedremo." Soon the apartment is filled with longing.
I cross the living room and ease open the bathroom door. She spins around quickly, a little surprised to see me standing there. She sees the camera in my hand, hesitates for a moment, then smiles. "I look like such a slut." She turns to the right, then the left, smoothing the dress over her hips, striking a Cosmo cover pose.