But she wished that he'd allow himself to have fun, just this once. They were in Qirsi land now, and though she wasn't foolish enough to believe that this simple fact was the answer to all their worries, she couldn't help but feel that the most difficult part of their journey was over. Surely that was cause for celebrating, for taking this one night to be at ease and enjoy their new friends.
Then again, she knew that Grinsa would only rest easy when he had convinced himself that he could keep her and Bryntelle safe. That was his way. Cresenne forced herself to ignore him and trust that he was enjoying himself in his own manner.
The following morning, D'Chul left them. He intended to follow the river southward toward the inland sea, stopping at villages along the way. He recommended that they continue toward the west.
"You're better off now that you're in Qirsi land," he told them, solemnly. "But R'Shev was right when he said that the Fal'Borna are hard. You'll be better off among the J'Balanar. You'll stand out a bit." He grinned. "Unless you have yourselves marked as they do. But they're more likely to welcome you into their settlements. Better still, you could go on to the forest and join the A'Vahl or my people."
"I thought R'Shev said the A'Vahl were arrogant," Grinsa said, smiling.
"They're not as bad as he made out. He did that mostly for my benefit. There's a belief among the other clans that the M'Saaren and the A'Vahl are rivals, probably because we share the woodland, and we fought a couple of wars several centuries ago. The truth is we get along well enough now. The A'Vahl are good people; most of them at least. You could do far worse."
Grinsa stepped forward and embraced the man. "Thank you, D'Chul. You've been a fine guide and a good friend."
"Good luck to you," the lutenist said, smiling broadly.
Cresenne kissed his cheek, surprised once more by how sad she felt to be leaving someone who had been a stranger only days before.
"I'll remember your playing for the rest of my days," she said. "And I'll sing the songs you taught us to Bryntelle. She'll know the words at least, even if I give her only a poor sense of the tune."
D'Chul climbed back onto his cart and picked up the reins. "Farewell," he said. "May there always be open roads before you and kin at your back." He grinned at them one last time. "That's an old Qirsi blessing."
He clicked his tongue at his horse and started away, turning one last time to wave good-bye.
Grinsa and Cresenne watched him go for several moments. Then they climbed onto their horses and began to ride westward. During the time they'd been with D'Chul they'd spoken little to each other. Now that they were alone together, except of course for Bryntelle, Cresenne found that she wasn't certain what to say. She hadn't felt this way around him in a long time, and it made her uneasy. For his part, Grinsa seemed no more inclined to start up a conversation than she was.
Eventually, however, he glanced her way, his expression revealing little. "You've been angry with me," he said.
A faint smile touched her lips and was gone. He knew her so well; better, she sometimes believed, than she knew him.
"I wouldn't say angry," she answered, an admission in the words. "Then what?"
She considered this. "Frustrated," she finally said.
He didn't look at her, and his expression didn't change, but he nodded once, acknowledging what she'd said. She would have preferred it if he'd gotten angry with her. That's probably what she would have done had their roles been reversed. But he always found a way to control his emotions. It was something else that she admired in him, and that she also occasionally found… well, frustrating.
"Are you going to tell me why?" he asked at length.
"I want this to work, Grinsa. I want us to find a home here, somewhere we can be happy, where Bryntelle can grow up proud of who and what she is."
He looked at her. "I want that, too."
She exhaled and ran a hand through her hair. "I know that. But it seems like you're always looking for the next thing that's going to go wrong."
"That's not true."
"Isn't it? D'Chul sings us a song, and all you can think about is how the Blood Wars haven't really ended. Last night all of us were laughing and singing songs, but you spent the entire night huddled with that old Fal'Borna peddler talking about who knows what." She shook her head.
"It seems to me that you refuse to be happy."
He smiled sadly. "I'm happy with you and Bryntelle."
Cresenne smiled in return. "I know that. I love you, Grinsa. You know I do. But I'm tired of carrying the weight of the world on our shoulders. We did that in the Forelands, and I've had enough of it. I just want to live a quiet life here. Can't we do that?"
"I want to," he said. "But it's not quite that simple. There are matters here that you and I need to discuss, things we have to be ready for." "See?" she said. "This is what I mean. Maybe you and I are just different in this way. I know there are going to be problems, but we can deal with them as they arise. We don't have to let them occupy every waking thought."
He frowned. "I think some problems can be handled that way, but
I'm not certain this is one of them."
"Are our lives at stake?"
Grinsa's eyebrows went up. "Our lives? No, I don't suppose they are."
Cresenne shrugged. "Then, it can wait."
Again, she expected him to get angry. Instead he laughed. "All right," he said. "But don't forget that I warned you."
"Fair enough."
They rode on, once more saying little. Every now and then, however, Grinsa would chuckle to himself, until at last Cresenne demanded to know what he found so funny.
He merely shook his head. "You don't want to know," he said, sounding as close to coy as she'd ever heard him.
Darkness fell before they reached a settlement. They passed another night under the stars and resumed their travels with first light of morning. By midday, they were several leagues into Fal'Borna land, and had yet to see any villages or towns.
"I'm beginning to think there aren't any villages here at all," Cresenne said at last, raising herself up out of her saddle and scanning the horizon.
"There aren't," Grinsa said mildly. "What?"
He looked at her, smiling slightly. "The Fal'Borna have established towns along the Silverwater and the other rivers in their territory-the Thraedes and the K'Sand-and also on the shores of the Ofirean Sea. But away from the water, they're nomads. They follow wild herds of what they call `rilda,' which I gather are like the highland antelope of the Forelands."
"So, we're not looking for a settlement. You've known this all along." "It didn't seem like the type of thing you'd want to hear about."
She gave him a sour look, though it was all she could do not to laugh. "Is there anything else I should know?" Before he could say anything she raised a hand and shook her head. "No, don't answer. I said that I didn't want to hear."
Perhaps two hours later, they came within sight of what looked to Cresenne to be a settlement of some sort. As they drew nearer, though, she realized that all the structures she saw were temporary, fashioned from animal skins, cloth, and wooden poles. Still, she could see a good many people-as many as she would have expected to see in a country village in the Forelands. A narrow stream wound past the shelters, and then by a large paddock in which grazed at least two hundred horses of various colors. Smoke rose from a dozen small fires and near the paddock children ran and laughed.
Cresenne and Grinsa had halted upon seeing the structures. Now Grinsa glanced at her.
"Are you ready to meet the Fal'Borna?"
For several days, she'd been looking forward to doing just that, but faced with the prospect of riding into this odd-looking village that stretched out before her, Cresenne realized that she was more than a bit intimidated.
"I think so," she said. "Are you?"
"As ready as I'm likely to be."
They looked toward the village again, and saw four riders coming toward them, their hair gleaming white in the sun, spears held ready.