"My place. Sorry. I've got early meetings tomorrow."
"Fair enough. Any news?" A stretch limo full of screaming young women passed and I had to shout over them. "I mean, on the Mary Malone case."
"Homicide West isn't much further on. I don't suppose you've had any messages from you-know-who?"
"I might have had on the landline. I'll ring after I've checked."
"Okay." She paused, as if there was something she wanted to say. "Good night" was all she managed.
"'Night," I replied. I should have told her I loved her, and that I was going to jump in a cab and come to her house in Shepherd's Bush. I wanted to nestle up to her so we could both drop into a deep, uninterrupted sleep, rather than go back to an empty flat where a ghost from the past might be waiting to haunt me all over again. But I'd missed my chance and I was sure that she knew it as well as I did.
I shook my head and tried to get a grip. Given the security system in my so-called "ultra-exclusive" block, Sara would have done well even to have got past the armored glass main door. It was over twenty-four hours since Mary Malone's killing and there had been no sign of her. Some scumbag Satanists had got their kicks out of murdering a defenseless woman. Then I asked myself if I really believed that. The answer wasn't encouraging. She was coming for me-even if not now, it would happen at some point in the future.
I found myself walking more quickly, eager to get home to see if Sara was hiding in the wardrobe or even lying on my bed, bold as love. Then it occurred to me that she might not be alone. She was rich enough to hire a small army of mercenaries and hit men. I considered calling Dave. He'd have come without hesitating and he wouldn't have blamed me if the flat was clean.
"Come off it," I told myself. "It's been two years. Why would she come back now?"
I slowed my pace as the glass building rose up ahead of me. It wasn't completely bathed in light, but it was close. I realized that my block and its inhabitants were just as wasteful as the pinstriped specimens in the City. In some cases, they were one and the same, although a lot of the owners were self-employed. I was probably the poorest of those. Still, I'd have to raise the issue at the next building meeting. There were far too many lights in the common areas.
Then I saw something that made me stop walking. My stomach somersaulted and my heart started to hammer. My flat was on the front and the left sides of the block, on the fourth floor. From where I was, I could see up to the left-hand rooms of my place-the kitchen and guest room. Lights had just come on in both. Jesus.
I stepped into the shadows, my eyes locked on the glass running the full height of the rooms. There were venetian blinds and curtains in both. The former had been closed when I left. Someone had opened them before turning on the lights, which suggested it wasn't a burglar, even if one had got past the doors and alarms. It was hardly likely to be Sara or anyone else who had an interest in my demise. They'd made their presence pretty obvious. I thought of ringing Dave again. As I did, I saw a shape move across the kitchen.
Suddenly I was filled with anger. Some bastard had got into my home and was strolling around, poking his nose in my things. To hell with that. I moved forward at a trot that was soon close to a full-on sprint. I slowed as I approached the building because the perimeter camera would pick me up-as it would have my visitor-and the security firm would send a man over if it looked like the place was under assault. I punched my code into the main door and headed for the stairs. I'd only been in the lift once, and that was when I moved in-I wouldn't let the removals guys carry my precious stereo system. I glanced at my watch. My record for the four flights was 19.4 seconds. I did them in 20.2 and jogged lightly down the wide hallway.
At my door, I felt my anger weaken, but not enough to stop me sliding my key silently into the lock. I got my breathing under control, then took out my cell phone and found Dave's number in the memory. If anything adverse happened, I only had to press the button and he'd be connected. He would see my number on his phone's screen and get going. The five of us had set that system up after the White Devil's death and we'd tested it several times.
I was ready. I only wished I had taken some kind of weapon with me. From now on I'd be making sure I was always armed. Three-two-one…I turned the key and pushed the door open, then ran into the living area, shouting, "Who the fuck are you?"
"Daddy?" My daughter's voice was fearful.
When I caught a glimpse of myself in the star-shaped mirror that my editor had given me when The Death List reached number one, I understood why. My eyes were wide, my hair was all over the place and I looked like a chest-heaving Viking in full berserk mode.
"Em, hello, Lucy," I said, exhaling and looking around.
"What happened?" she asked. "You frightened me."
I squatted down and opened my arms, as I'd done since she'd started walking.
After a pause, she ran into my embrace. Eleven wasn't so old after all. I breathed in the scent of her hair and felt the warmth of her against my chest.
"What are you doing here?" I felt like a complete jackass. The only person apart from Karen who had a key, and knew the entry and alarm codes, was my ex-wife, Caroline. I heard the toilet next to the kitchen flush. Any second now, she would be loose.
"I.I was lonely," Lucy said, clutching me. "I wanted to see you, Daddy."
"But I'll be seeing you tomorrow," I said.
The door opened and Caroline walked out, shaking her hands. "Oh, there you are," she said to me, as if I didn't belong in my own home. "The towel in there needs changing."
I stood up and bit back on the sarcastic response. No fighting in front of Lucy was the rule, though it had been broken far too often. "Nice to see you, Caroline," I said. "Just out of interest, what are you doing here?"
"Didn't Lucy tell you?" she said, walking past us. "She wanted to see you. For once, I gave in to her demands. It is a Friday evening, after all, and we were at a concert at the Festival Hall." She moved her head around in a theatrical way. "What on earth do you do with all this space?"
"Play cricket in it," I said, provoking a snigger from my daughter, who had a wicked sense of humor. Unlike her mother. "Did you forget the arrangement?"
Caroline was a hotshot economist with a Japanese bank in the City. She didn't forget anything, apart from the fact that she once loved me. "I called you, Matt. Several times. You didn't answer."
"I was on the Tube," I said. "It didn't occur to you to leave a message?"
"Oh, for goodness' sake, what difference does it make?" she demanded, tossing her black hair. She was still quite a looker but, according to Lucy, she didn't have a "boyfriend," at least not one she brought home. Maybe she took them to a hotel during her lunch break and ate them.
"Absolutely none at all," I said, aware that any mention of Sara or the White Devil, in any language, would cause a meltdown. I smiled at my daughter. "Well, now you're here, do you fancy a fizzy drink?"
Lucy nodded and ran to the fridge.
"Bloody hell, Caro," I said under my breath. "Make sure you do leave a message the next time. What would you have done if Karen had walked in? She quite often gets here before me."
"That's hardly my problem," she said, looking away.
It was then that I realized I'd called her by the diminutive I'd used when we were in love. It must have been six or seven years since I'd last come out with it. I felt about as uncomfortable as a man can with his ex-wife. God knows how Karen would have reacted to this accidental intimacy. I wasn't going to tell her, but Caroline might find a way.
When Lucy came back with her glass, I took her over to the small desk where she kept her things. For weeks we'd been playing an interminable board game involving Sherlock Holmes and a group of anarchists kitted out with round bombs and lit fuses. Unfortunately, they'd never managed to reduce the game to small pieces.