We head downstairs to the bar, which is pretty busy for a Sunday night; my aunt and uncle are both working tonight, which is why I got the day and night off. Jackson had reserved a table earlier right at the front, and he tells me to sit while he goes and gets drinks and orders our food. While he’s at the bar, Emily arrives. She is just gorgeous. She, too, is a surf instructor and an Elle Macpherson lookalike. She is possibly the most laid-back person I’ve ever come across.
“Hey, Georgia, how’s your day been so far?”
“Good, Em, how are ya?”
She nods as she looks around the bar. “Where’s Jax?” She sits herself down in a chair and smiles serenely at me. I know she and Jax smoke a lot of weed between them, but Emily just seems to float through life on a fluffy cloud; at least, that’s the aura she gives off. Obviously, because of the work they do, they aren’t really permanently stoned; that’s just the way Em always is, away with the unicorns, with or without the weed.
“He’s at the bar getting drinks and ordering food; he said he knew what to get you.”
She nods. “Yeah, my baby knows what I love.” She winks at me but says no more. I would love just five minutes inside her head; rainbows, unicorns and pink fluffy clouds are what I would probably find. Jackson arrives back at our table with a bottle of wine in an ice bucket with two glasses and a beer for himself. He places it all on the table and then leans down to Emily, who looks up at him expectantly.
“Hey, beautiful.”
She smiles serenely again, “Hey, baby.” He leans in and kisses her full on the mouth, at the same time cupping her boob in his hand and brushing his thumb over her nipple, not giving a shit about anyone who might be watching. A little pang of jealousy spikes through me at what they have together, but I deal with it by pouring Em and me a wine. Life goes on, and the rest of the world is entitled to love and be loved. An amazing man loved me exceptionally for most of my life; I need to focus on that, rather than what I’ve lost, I tell myself. It doesn’t work, and I blink back tears and gulp down my wine. Jax and Em finally return from their rainbow-coloured cloud of love just as my aunt comes over to the table.
“Hey, George, Em.” She kisses us both on the cheek, pulls up a chair and sits down with us.
“You’re in for a treat tonight, George. Roman’s back in town, and he’s a right spunk.” I spit my wine at her term, remembering the word spunk means something completely different here.
“Mum, Georgia’s English, remember? That place where you come from, where spunk means sperm, semen, jizz? I don’t think Rome would appreciate being referred to as any of those things.” Jax shakes his head as he talks to her, and Kathy turns back to me and winks.
“Shut up, Jax, I just forget sometimes. Georgia, Roman is well fucking fit and his singing ain’t bad, either,” she says in her best cockney accent, which isn’t bad considering she’s lived in Australia for over twenty years. “We only get the pleasure of him during peak season; he works in the mines the rest of the year, but takes four months off and sings all around the local bars while he’s home, ours being his first port of call. Should be a good crowd tonight. I’ll have to introduce you to him. He’d be just your type.”
I smile back at her, I know she means well, but it’s far too soon for me. I’ve not even thought about other men since Sean, and I’ve not had a single stirring of desire in me. I wasn’t sure if that was to do with having my womb removed, or if it was because I was still grieving, but either way, I hadn’t felt the need for sex once, not even with myself.
“Oh, yeah, George, Roman is definitely hot,” Emily agrees. Jackson raises his eyebrows and looks at her. “But not as hot as you, baby. I just meant for George, not for me. You’re all I need.” I’d actually heard different to that. Brooke had told me that Jackson and Em have a pretty out-there relationship and often have threesomes with both other men and women. Oh, well, they seem happy enough; let them live the way they want to.
Kathy stands from the table as the waitress, Zoe, brings our food over. “Enjoy, my lovelies. I’ll send some more drinks over in a bit.” She heads off back to the bar as we tuck into the house special, a world burger.
When I can’t possibly eat another thing, I head off to the ladies room, and as I return to our table, I see him; he’s talking to Jackson. I continue walking towards our table, then he turns his head, his eyes meet mine and it’s instant. I don’t know what it is, but something moves inside me very slightly and my step falters. It’s such a minor sensation, but I feel it and I don’t like it; it unnerves me. He stands up straight as I approach, and his eyes don’t leave mine for a second; they are the most amazing ice-blue, almost grey, and I can’t help but hold his gaze. I reach the table and finally look away from him, and down at my chair.
Before I can sit, Jax says, “George, this is Roman Peterson, a good mate of mine and a bloody good singer.” I look back up and he’s still staring at me. I suddenly worry he knows who I am and my heart rate increases marginally. “Roman, this is my cousin, Georgia. She’s come to stay with us for a while, all the way from London.” He puts his hand out to me across the table, and I look down at it for a few moments before taking it.
“How ya going, Georgia? This would be a little bit different to London at this time of year; a bit warmer, too, I bet.” My smile is automatic, not fake, it just automatically appears on my face and I try to tone it down a bit.
“Yeah, it’s pretty cold there right now, and everywhere would be busy with the build-up to Christmas.” He continues to smile, making the corners of his eyes crinkle; his skin is fairly tanned and quite weathered. ‘Rugged’ my mum would call it.
“Yeah, I studied in London for a couple of years, about ten years ago now. Christmas is manic over there. What brings you to Australia?” I realise he still has hold of my hand, so I very gently slide my fingers away. He puts up no resistance.
“She just needed a break away from it all and decided to visit her favourite cousins. She’ll be helping out around here and the surf school, so you’ll probably see her around.” Jackson speaks for me, for which I’m grateful.
Roman’s smile widens and he nods. “Cool, look forward to it, Georgia; nice meeting ya. I need to go set up; don’t want Big John after me on my first night back.” He turns his head to Jackson. “Jax, Em, keep sending the beers over, would ya.” He winks and walks away. I realise after a few seconds that I’ve remained standing, watching him as he jumps up onto the small stage and undoes his guitar case. I flop down into my chair.
“Told ya he was hot, George,” I hear Emily say, but I keep staring at Roman. His hair is blond and long, pulled back and tied at the nape of his neck. He’s slim, but not as slim as Sean, and he’s muscular, but not as muscular as Cam. He must be around six-feet tall. Why I’m comparing him to Sean and Cam, I have no idea. Jackson says something from beside me, and I drag my eyes away and look at him.
“What?” I ask. He frowns at me. “What did you say?” I ask.
“I never said a word, darl, not a word.” He smiles and I narrow my eyes.
“You did in your head and I heard it. What’s that look for? What were you thinking?”
He gives a little chuckle. “So, you can read minds now, can you, George?”
I shake my head. “I didn’t say I read your mind. I said I heard it. You were thinking something about me, and you were thinking it so hard that I heard it.”
He shrugs. “Okay, I’ll tell ya what I was thinking, but you’re not gonna like it.”
I stare back at him for a few seconds. Dare I ask, knowing how direct and to the point Jackson is? Dare I ask what he was thinking? I drain the last of the wine from my glass.
“Come on then, tell me, for fuck’s sake; what little analytical observation have you made or think you’ve made?” I feel like a science project at the moment, a case study.
He laughs again. “Just go with it, George; that’s what I was thinking. Don’t fight it; if you’re feeling it, then the time’s right. Don’t fight it and don’t beat yourself up over it. Just let it happen and see where it goes.”