He lifted the knocker and dropped it with a mightier noise than he meant to. He was dully aware that the door, with its four thick bull’s-eye panes above the letter-box, was the same as his mother’s had been; and there was something vaguer, shouts and football whistles on the air, the meagre romance of suburbs petering out into country, that took him back to his Uncle Terry’s council house in Shrivenham. He knew little houses like this, almost knew the voice in the hall, and the shape looming and slipping in the curls of the glass. He felt the clutch of nerves, and set his face sternly when the door opened – a large middle-aged woman who kept her hand on the latch. ‘Oh, good afternoon… I’ve come to see Mr Trickett…’
‘And you are…?’
‘Paul Bryant!’
She nodded and stepped back. ‘Dad’s expecting you,’ she said, without exactly welcoming him herself. She was wearing a thick overcoat in a gloomy brown tartan pattern, and tight brown leather gloves. Paul sidled past her into the narrow hall, catching his look of polite apprehension in the mirror. The glamorous opening that he represented, putting her father in a book, seemed indifferent to her, or perhaps even undesirable. ‘Dad!’ she called out, as if knowing she wouldn’t be heard, ‘he’s here,’ and closing the door, she edged back past Paul and went into the front room. ‘Mr Bryant’s here,’ she said. ‘Now, will you be all right?’ Paul gulped a large breath and seemed to be sighing with gratification as he followed her into the room. The eagerness and charm, the smile confidently friendly but not hilarious, the note of respect with a hint of conspiracy – all this he hoped to sustain in his swoop towards the total stranger struggling up from his armchair with silvery head slightly cocked and the questioning look of a deaf person. ‘You’ll have to speak up,’ said the woman.
Paul shook his hand and said, ‘Hello, Mr Trickett!’ – he’d somehow forgotten about the deafness, and now he heard his own forced note.
‘Are you Paul?’ asked Mr Trickett, with a nervy laugh and again a bird-like way of looking for the answer.
‘That’s right,’ said Paul, finding of course that he was like a child to the old man, or like one of a number of confusing grandchildren. This too was annoying, but he would make the best of it. Jonah Trickett was small but broad-shouldered, with a wide friendly face very finely lined, and large blue eyes that seemed keener from listening as well as watching. He had a full head of hair and the perfect but impersonal dentures that give their own helpless eagerness to an old man’s face. Paul could see that as a boy he might have been appealing, he had something boy-like in him still. Now he lurched slightly as he moved.
‘I’ve got a new hip,’ he said, a half-embarrassed boast. ‘Take the young man’s coat, Gillian.’ His voice was a bit breathy, and like the road he lived in, London with a hint of country to it.
As he put down his briefcase and unbuttoned his coat Paul glanced round the room – some plates on the wall but no pictures, the photos in the window black-and-white weddings, and one more recent gathering in colour. The gas fire made the room disorientingly hot. On top of the TV was a photo of Jonah with a woman, who must surely be, or have been, his wife. Paul felt he should seem appreciative but not nosey, oddly the opposite of the case. ‘Well, I’ll be off then,’ said Gillian, taking his coat with her into the hall. When the front door slammed, he felt a horrible self-consciousness crawling over both of them, and he watched through the window with a paralysed smile as Gillian went up the path and closed the gate behind her. It was as if something intensely embarrassing had just been said. He supposed he need only stay twenty minutes if it didn’t work out. They sat down on either side of the gas fire, with a bowl of water on the hearth. The little bone pipes glowed and fluttered. He had a sense that the occasion had been prepared for: on the table beside Jonah there was a cardboard folder and his own letter under a coloured glass paperweight. He got out the tape-recorder, which had a mike on a stand, and took a minute or two to fit up; Jonah seemed to think this was a bit of a liberty as well as a novelty, but Paul said, ‘Every word you say is important to me,’ which he accepted with a wary smile. Paul pressed the Record button. ‘So how are you today?’ he said.
‘What’s that?’ said Jonah.
Karen, who had secretarial training, offered to transcribe the tape for Paul on her golfball typewriter, and after two tense evenings of sporadic clatter and the sound of men’s voices coming in five-second bursts from her room, incessantly stopped and replayed (his own voice not exactly his, and with its own unsuspected country burr), she came downstairs and handed over a thick sheaf of foolscap paper. ‘There were some bits I couldn’t be sure of,’ she said. ‘I’ve put guesses in brackets.’
‘Oh, okay,’ said Paul, smiling to suggest he wasn’t worried and quickly taking the document off on the search for his glasses. At a glance it seemed both professional and a serious problem. She had set it out in a narrow column, like a play-script, though the play itself would have been some absurdist ordeal of pauses and cross-purposes. ‘We still have the tapes, don’t we?’ Paul said. ‘We’ll keep everything like that for the archive.’
‘I’m not sure that tape-recorder’s much good.’
‘It was quite expensive.’
‘Jonah’s all right, it’s you that’s sometimes very faint.’
‘Well, the mike was by him. It’s what he said that’s important.’
The point was, of course, that Karen often couldn’t make out the questions. He read a bit at random:
PB: Did George Sawle (inaudible)?
JT: Oh, no, he didn’t.
PB: Really? how interesting!
JT: Oh, lord, no! (Cackles)
PB: So was Cecil himself at all (inaudible: fortunate?)
JT: Well he could be, yes. Though I don’t suppose anybody knows that!
PB: I’m sure they don’t! That’s not what you expect! (giggles)
Karen was very free with the exclamation marks, and Shavian stage-directions (sniggers, pauses regretfully, with sudden feeling etc.) attached to quite ordinary-looking statements. Well, she was trying to help, keen to help, and then, as so easily happens, getting in the way. Sometimes Jonah’s deafness itself came to the rescue, and he asked Paul to repeat a question louder. Elsewhere Paul was worried to find he already had no memory of the inaudible thing that had been said; at moments, too, he had let the machine do the listening, when Jonah was talking about the War, for instance, stuff he didn’t need for the book. Perhaps his anxiety at the time had made it hard to listen. His whole interest was in finding out what Jonah knew about Cecil’s dealings with Daphne and with George, and an awkward sense of strategy, of distractedly biding his time, interfered with his concentration. So he found himself next day, when Karen had gone to work, replaying the tapes as he read the transcript, to see if he could make out what she had missed or misinterpreted, and with a muddled angry sense of having got off to a bad start.
He saw that in too much of the interview he had let Jonah wander off the subject of Cecil to talk about life in ‘the old days’ in general, and about his life after the War, with Harry Hewitt, a rich businessman of whom he was clearly much fonder than he had been of the Sawles. The Sawles seemed the subject of some vague unplaceable disapproval, which perhaps outlasted the now forgotten things that caused it.