Iome straightened, looked downhill at her knights. “Leave us,” she said in the firmest voice she could muster.
There was a long, uncomfortable silence. Someone coughed. Duke Groverman watched her with unblinking eyes. “My Queen...”
“There's nothing you can do. There's nothing anyone can do!” Iome said. Gaborn knew she spoke not of the murder, not of the demands of justice, but of everything—Raj Ahten, this whole senseless war. Most of all, she spoke of death.
“These men...this is murder,” Groverman insisted. “House Orden should pay for this insult!” By ancient law, a lord was responsible for the behavior of his vassals, just as a farmer was responsible for damage done by his cow. By law, Gaborn was as guilty of murder as Borenson.
“Gaborn's father lies dead with two thousand of his best knights,” Iome answered. “What more do you want of House Orden?”
“He's not the killer—it's the knight at his feet we want! This is a matter of honor!” some knight shouted, after having decided all on his own that Gaborn was innocent. Gaborn did not recognize the fellow's device, two crows and an oak tree over the Sylvarresta boar.
Iome said, “You say honor is at stake? The knight at Gaborn's feet, Sir Borenson, saved my life yesterday, and the life of my father. He slew an Invincible outside Longmont for us. And he matched wits with Raj Ahten and helped drive the knave from our kingdom—”
“It's murder!” the knight shouted, shaking his axe. But Groverman reached out a hand, silencing the fellow.
“You say,” Iome stammered, “it's a matter of honor, and perhaps it is. King Orden, my father's best friend, first ordered our deaths.
“And who among you is to say he is not right in this? My father and I were Dedicates to our sworn enemy. Who of you would have disobeyed such an order, were our roles reversed?”
“My father gave endowments to Raj Ahten, thinking it a small thing, just as I did. But many small wrongs can make a very great evil.”
“Is it murder for this knight to slay his enemies, to follow orders? Or is it honorable?”
Iome arose now, hands covered in blood; tears streamed down her face. She argued for Borenson's acquittal with her whole heart, and Gaborn wondered if he'd have had the presence of mind to do the same under such circumstances.
For his part, Borenson just glared at the knights blankly, as if he did not care how they judged him. Kill me, his eyes said, or let me live. Just be done with it.
Groverman and his men neither advanced nor retreated. They held their ground, as yet undecided.
Iome bit her lip, and her jaw trembled so that she pierced the lip, unnoticed. Such rage and hurt shone in her eyes. She couldn't deal with this any longer, couldn't argue. Her people were angry; she felt hurt and betrayed to the core of her soul—to lose all her family in the space of two days.
Gaborn had seen the aftermath when his own mother was slain, and now his father. He knew how desolate Iome must feel, knew how her own pain must outmatch his own.
Iome said to Gaborn facetiously, “Milord King Orden, Sir Borenson—after all your great kindness these past two days, I bid you get away from here, lest my people slay you. Ours is a poor land, and our hospitality suffers for it. Get out of here. For your service, I grant you your lives, though my vassals wish me to be more penurious.”
She spoke in a tone that mocked her own people, but Gaborn knew that she was serious, that she could not cope any longer.
“Go on,” Gaborn whispered to Borenson. “I'll see you at Bredsfor Manor.” To his relief, Borenson stood and marched to his horse, executing the order without complaint.
Gaborn went to Iome, pulled off his right gauntlet, and let his hand rest on her shoulder. She seemed so slight, so frail beneath the thin cotton of her dress. He could not imagine that she'd hold up under the pressure she now felt.
She no longer looked as beautiful as the first star of evening. She no longer looked wretched. Her only glamour now was her own, and Gaborn could not have loved her any more than he did at this moment, could not have longed to hold her any more than he did right now.
“I love you, you know,” he said. Iome nodded once, only slightly. “I came to Heredon to ask for your hand, milady. I want you still. I'd have you for my wife.” He did not say it to confirm his feelings to Iome. He said it only for the benefit of her people, so that they would know.
In the crowd, several people hissed at the proposal. Some cried aloud, “No!”
Gaborn could see he wasn't in favor at this moment. These people didn't know how he had schemed and fought for their freedom. They'd witnessed only this last craven deed. He would not win their hearts this day, though he hoped to, in time.
Iome reached up and stroked his hand, but offered no words of comfort.
Gaborn walked to the top of the hill, where his horse pawed the snow in an effort to graze on the sweet grass beneath, then followed Borenson south.
At his back, Gaborn's Days broke from the crowd, following in his shadow.
59
The Healer
As Iome sat over the body of her father, she wondered if she could even live another day. It seemed that her energy, her will to struggle, had been drawn out from her as completely as her beauty had been drawn out two days before.
She stood over her father's body, wanting desperately to sleep or to scream. The cold snow melted, penetrating her thin boots, just as the stout wind penetrated her thin dress.
Her people were a cold comfort. They knew they needed a lord to protect them, but Iome had no wit with which to guide them, no glamour to inspire them to follow, no brawn or skill in battle.
Without my glamour, they see through me, Iome thought. They see that I am a sham, a nothing. All Runelords are nothing, without their Dedicates to fill them with power, make them substantial.
As she shivered on the hill, Iome found that her people offered her nothing now. No one brought her a shawl or offered a shoulder to lean on.
None dared approach her. Perhaps they believed she needed time to suffer alone.
But Iome was no good at suffering alone.
She felt confused. Gaborn had not ordered her father's death. He'd struggled mightily to keep her father alive. Yet, somehow, she felt betrayed. Perhaps it was because he did not grow irate at Borenson.
Had Gaborn taken the man's wit, or his head, Iome would have thought Gaborn cruel and hard. Yet part of her felt Borenson deserved some unnamable punishment.
To her surprise, it was the wizard Binnesman who first came to her, after an hour, and wrapped a blanket over her. The wizard huddled beside her, handed her some warm tea.
“I—don't want anything,” Iome said. It was true. Her throat felt tight, her stomach in knots. “I just need sleep.” She was too weary to even look up at him.
“Sometimes rest is as good as sleep,” Binnesman said, and he stood watching her. “I put lemon balm and linden blossoms in the tea, along with a bit of chamomile and honey.”
He pressed the hot mug into her hands, and Iome drank. She'd learned long ago that Binnesman knew her needs better than she did, that he could soothe a heart as easily as he could soothe wounds.
The tea seemed to loosen her tight muscles, unknot her. She closed her eyes, leaned her head back, marveling at its effect. The tea made her feel almost as if she'd just been wakened from bed a few moments ago. Yet she felt a deep—seated weariness even the tea could not touch, a tiredness and ache close to the bones.
“Oh, Binnesman, what should I do?” Iome asked.
“You must be strong,” Binnesman said. “Your people need you to be strong for them.”
“I don't feel strong.”
Binnesman said nothing in answer, only put his gnarled arms around her shoulders and held her, as her father had when she was a child and she'd awakened from an evil dream.