‘Yes, sire,’ I say. Henry Howard is the eldest son of the Duke of Norfolk, born to a great position and never doing anything to earn it. He is proud, vain, a troublemaker, a self-proclaimed golden youth. But he will be invaluable here where we will need someone handsome and young and proud as a peewit.
‘Then the Spanish duke can go to your rooms and you can have music and dancing and supper and any entertainment you wish. You can do that?’
‘Yes, I can.’
Anthony Denny glances up from his place behind a table at the window where he is copying the king’s orders to be sent to the various councillors and heads of household. I look away so that I don’t see the sympathy in his face.
‘Princess Mary will be with you; she speaks Spanish and they love her for the sake of her mother. The Spanish ambassador, that old fox Chapuys, will bring the duke and make sure that everything goes smoothly. You needn’t worry about Spanish. You can speak in French and English to them.’
‘I can.’
‘He’s not to whisper with her. You’re to show him every courtesy but you’re not to put her forward.’
I nod.
‘And you’re to dress very fine and be very queenly. Wear your crown. Speak with authority. If you don’t know something, say nothing. There’s nothing wrong with a woman being silent. You have to impress them. Make sure you do.’
‘I am sure that we can show them that the English court is as elegant and learned as any in Europe,’ I say calmly.
At last the king looks at me and the pained furrow between his sandy eyebrows melts away and I see a glimmer of his old, charming smile. ‘With the most beautiful queen,’ he says, suddenly warm. ‘Whatever broken-down bad-tempered old warhorse you have for a husband.’
I go to his side and take his hand. ‘Nay, not so old,’ I say softly. ‘And not so broken-down either. Shall I come and show you my gown before I go in to the ambassador? Shall you want to see me in all the finery you have given me?’
‘Yes, come to me. And make sure that you are utterly drowned in diamonds.’
I laugh, and Denny, seeing that I have charmed the king back into good humour, looks up and smiles at us both.
‘I want you to frighten them with my wealth,’ Henry says. He is smiling now but completely serious. ‘Everything that you do, every chain that you wear will be noted and reported back to Spain. I want them to know that we are rich beyond anything they could imagine, quite rich enough to make war with France, rich enough to bend Scotland to our will.’
‘And are we?’ I ask so quietly that not even Denny at the table, bent over the scratching of his quill, can hear me.
‘No,’ Henry says. ‘But we have to be like masquers, like troubadours. We have to have dazzling rags. Kingship and warfare are mostly appearance.’
I put on a great show. ‘Magpie queen,’ Nan remarks as I let them load chain after chain on my waist and put diamonds and rubies on my fingers and at my neck.
‘Too rory?’ I ask, looking in the mirror and smiling at her horrified face.
‘Speak English!’ she commands me. ‘Not your rough country tongue! No, it’s not too much. Not if he told you to load on the jewels. He’ll want an alliance with Spain so that he can go to war with France. Your task is to make it look as if England can afford a war with France. You’ve got an army’s pay on your fingers alone.’
She steps back and scans me from head to foot. ‘Beautiful,’ she says. ‘The most beautiful of all the queens.’
My stepdaughter Margaret Latimer comes towards me with the little box in her hands. ‘The crown,’ she says, awed.
I nerve myself to be unmoved as Nan opens it up, takes out the Boleyn crown and turns to me. I straighten up to take the weight of it and look at myself in the mirror. The beaten silver looking-glass shows me a grey-eyed beauty with bronze hair and a long neck, with diamonds at her ears and rubies at her throat, and this ugly heavy sparkling little crown making her taller still. I think I look like a ghost queen, a queen in darkness, a queen at the top of a dark tower. I could be any one of my predecessors, favoured like one of them, doomed like them all.
‘You could wear your golden hood,’ Nan offers.
I stand, my head poised. ‘Of course I’ll wear the crown,’ I say flatly. ‘I’m queen. At any rate, I’m today’s queen.’
I wear it all evening. I take it off only when the dazzled duke begs us to dance and then Nan fetches my hood. It is a successful evening; everything goes just as the king commanded. The young men are charming and loud and cheerful, the ladies are reserved and beautiful. Lady Mary speaks Spanish to the duke and to her ambassador but is every inch an English princess, and I feel that I have taken another step closer to being the wife that the king needs – one that can deputise for him, one that can rule.
The king requires that I move my bed to be nearer to him while he is sleepless with pain at night, and my household transfers my beautiful bed with the four great posts and the embroidered canopy to a withdrawing room off the king’s own bedroom. With it go my table and chair, and my prie-dieu. With a silent gesture I command that my box of books and my writing box with my manuscripts, my studies, and my translation of the Fisher psalms stay in the queen’s apartments. Although I read nothing but what is approved by the king and his Privy Council, I don’t really want to draw attention to my growing library of theological books or have everyone know that my principal interest is the teachings of the early church, and the call for reform of the abuses of recent years. This seems to me the one thing that a scholar of our time should study; it is the central question of our days. All the great men are reviewing how the church has strayed from its early simplicity and piety, all the discussions and writings are about finding the true way, the authentic way to Christ, whether that is inside the Church of Rome or alongside it. They are translating the documents that tell us how the earliest church was organised, and they keep finding histories and gospels that suggest ways that a holy life can be lived in the world, that show how earthly powers should sit alongside the church. I believe that the king was completely right when he transferred the leadership of the church in England to himself. It must be right that a king rules his lands, church buildings and all. There cannot be one law for the people and one for the clergy. Surely, the church must command the spiritual realm, the holy things of God; the king must command the earthly things. Who could argue against that?
‘Many,’ Catherine Brandon, the greatest reformer of my ladies, explains. ‘And many of them have the ear of the king. They are growing in strength again. They were set back when the king sided with Archbishop Cranmer, but Stephen Gardiner has regained the king’s ear and his influence is growing all the time. Naming Princess Mary with her title will please Rome, and we are extending friendship to Spain, honouring their ambassador. Many of the king’s advisors have been bribed by Rome to try to persuade him to return the ownership of the English Church to Rome – back to where we were before – telling him that we will be in accord with all the other great countries. And then, in the towns and villages, there are thousands of people who understand nothing of this but just want to see the shrines restored at the roadsides and the icons and statues back in the churches. Poor fools, they understand nothing and don’t want to have to think for themselves. They want the monks and nuns to come back to look after them and tell them what to think.’
‘Well, I don’t want anyone to know what I think,’ I say bluntly. ‘So keep my books in my rooms and locked in the chest, Catherine, and you keep the key.’