But it wasn't there. There wasn't a trace of the mass.
"Bless you!"
"Now wait a minute, Henrietta. I want you to have a mammogram at the hospital."
As she straightened up and refastened her bra, her eyes still held that glow. "If you wish, Doctor."
Don't look at me like that!
"Today. I'll call the hospital now."
"Anything you say."
Alan fled the examining room for his desk. He picked up the phone to call the radiology department at Monroe Community Hospital. And stopped. For a few seconds he couldn't think of the hospital's main number, one he called at least a dozen times a day. Then it came back to him. This thing must have shaken him up more than he had realized.
Jack Fisher, the chief radiologist, was not crazy about the idea of squeezing another xeromammography into his schedule, but Alan convinced him of the urgency of this particular request and Jack reluctantly agreed to find a slot for Mrs. Westin.
Alan managed to do a competent job on the rest of the morning's patients, even though he knew he gave a couple of them the bum's rush. He couldn't help it. It was an effort to concentrate on their problems when his mind throbbed with the question of what had happened to the tumor in Henrietta Westin's breast. It had been there! He had felt it! And there was no way it could have been anything less than a malignancy with those nodes in the axilla.
And then it had been gone.
This was crazy!
His state of distraction had one unexpected benefit: He hardly heard Mr. Bradford as he went through his usual catalog of the color, caliber, and frequency of each of his stools since his last visit.
Finally, lunchtime came and he'd made his call-backs and sent Connie and Denise out to eat. He wished Ginny were still working here. She'd started off as his receptionist when he first moved into the building but soon decided it wasn't for her. Maybe she was right. After all, none of the other doctors' wives she hung around with worked for their husbands.
He heard the phone ring up front at Connie's desk, saw a light start blinking on the phone beside him. It was the private line he reserved for the hospital, pharmacists, and other doctors. He stabbed at it.
"Hello."
"Nothing there, Alan." It was Jack Fisher, the radiologist. "A little fibrocystic disease, but no mass, no calcifications, no vascular changes."
"And you checked the axilla like I asked you?"
"Clean. Both sides. Clean."
Alan didn't speak. Couldn't speak.
"Okay, Alan?"
"Yeah. Yeah, sure, Jack. And thanks a lot for squeezing her in. I really appreciate it."
"Anytime. Sometimes the only way to handle these kooks is to humor them."
"Kook?"
"Yeah. The Westin lady. She was going on and on to anyone who'd listen about how you had 'the healing touch.' How she'd had a tumor there for the past month and with a single touch you made it disappear." He laughed. "Every time I think I've heard it all, somebody comes up with a new one."
Alan managed to get off the phone with a modicum of grace, then slumped into his chair and sat staring at the grain in the oak paneling on the opposite wall.
Henrietta Westin now had a left breast that felt normal and showed clean on xeromammography. But that hadn't been the case two hours ago.
He sighed and stood up. No use worrying about it. She wasn't going to lose her breast or her life, that was the important thing. When he had more time he'd try to figure it out. Right now it was time for a bite to eat and then into the afternoon session.
The phone rang again. It was a patient line this time. He hadn't signed out to the answering service yet so he picked it up.
It was Mrs. Andersen and she was sobbing. Something about Sonja. About her ear.
Oh, Christ! Just what he needed now.
"What's wrong?" he asked. "Is she still in pain?"
"No!" the woman wailed. "She can hear out of her right ear again! She can hear!"
"How do I look?"
Alan snapped back to the here and now. He had made it through the afternoon hours without committing any medical negligence, but now that he was home, his mind was constantly tugged toward Sonja Andersen and Henrietta Westin.
He looked up. Ginny was standing at the far side of the kitchen table, modeling slacks and a blouse of different shades of green. "You look great." It was the truth. Clothes fit her perfectly right off the rack. The greens of the fabric caught the green of her contacts. "Really great."
"Then how come I always have to ask?"
"Because you always look great. You should know that."
"A girl likes to be told sometimes."
For perhaps the hundredth time this year—the first time was New Year's Eve—Alan promised to be more attentive to Ginny and less absorbed in his practice. They didn't have much of a life together anymore. To an outsider they probably looked like the perfect couple—all they needed was two and a half children and they'd be the ideal American family. They had talked about getting their lives on the same track again countless times, but all their good intentions seemed to remain intentions. The practice kept demanding more and more of Alan's time, and Ginny seemed to be getting increasingly involved with the club, along with her civic and hospital-related groups. Their paths crossed at breakfast, dinner, and, occasionally, at bedtime.
He would be more attentive and he would be less self-absorbed. Soon. But tonight was certainly a special case, especially after what had happened today.
Ginny set a plate of shrimp salad on a bed of lettuce, plus a loaf of sourdough bread before him.
"You're not eating?" he asked as she continued to buzz around the kitchen.
She shook her head. "No time. Why do you think I'm dressed up? Tonight's the Guild meeting and I've got to give a progress report on the fashion show."
"I thought the Guild met on Thursday nights."
"Tonight's a special meeting because of the fashion show on Sunday. I told you about it."
"Right. You did. Sorry. Just wanted to talk."
Ginny smiled. "Great. Talk."
"Sit," he said, pointing to the chair opposite him.
"Oh, I can't, honey. Josie and Terri are going to be here any minute to pick me up. Can't you tell me quick?"
"I don't think so."
"Give it a try." She sat down across from him.
"Okay. Something weird happened in the office today."
"Mrs. Ellsworth paid her bill?"
Alan almost laughed. "No. Weirder."
Ginny's eyebrows rose. "This ought to be good."
"I don't know if it is or not." He took a deep breath. This wasn't going to be easy. "Somehow, some way, I… I cured two people of incurable illnesses today."
After a short pause, Ginny shook her head slowly, a puzzled expression constricting her features. "I don't get it."
"Neither do I. You see—"
There was a honk from outside in the driveway. Ginny leaped up.
"That's Josie. I've got to go." She came around the table and gave Alan a quick kiss. "We'll talk about it later tonight, okay?"
Alan managed to smile. "Sure."
And then her coat was on and she was out the door.
He jabbed his fork into the shrimp salad and began to eat. Maybe it was just as well. Both he and Ginny knew doctors who had developed God complexes. All he had to do was start talking about healing with a touch and she'd have him ready for the funny farm.
And maybe she'd be right.
He swallowed a mouthful of shrimp, put the fork down, and leaned back. He wasn't hungry; he was just eating so he wouldn't get hungry later.
What right did he have to think he had anything to do with Sonja regaining her hearing or with the disappearance of the lump in Henrietta Westin's breast? Thinking yourself some sort of magical healer was the road to big trouble.