When Bill disappeared into the kitchen for a can of Coors, Kirsten's lips formed into a word directed at me.
"What?" I said, cupping my ear.
"Obsession." She nodded solemnly and with distaste.
Returning with the beer, Bill said, "Your life depends on the suspension of your car. A transversal torsion-bar suspension provides-"
"If I hear anything more about cars," Kirsten interrupted, "I am going to begin shrieking."
"Sorry," Bill said.
"Bill," Bishop Archer said, "if I were to buy a new car, what car should I get?"
"How much money-"
"I have the money," the bishop said.
"A BMW," Bill said. "Or a Mercedes-Benz. One advantage with a Mercedes-Benz is that nobody can steal it." He explained, then, about the astoundingly sophisticated locks on the Mercedes-Benz. "Even car repossessors have trouble getting into them," he finished. "A thief can rip off six Caddies and three Porsches in the time it takes to get into a Mercedes-Benz. So they tend to leave them alone; that way, you can leave your stereo in the car. Otherwise, with any other car, you have to lug it around with you." He told us, then, that it had been Carl Benz who had engineered and built the first practical automobile propelled by an internal combustion engine. In 1928 Benz had merged his company with Daimler-Motoren- Gesellschaft to form Daimler-Benz from which had come the Mercedes-Benz cars. The name "Mercedes" was that of a little girl whom Carl Benz had known, but Bill could not remember if Mercedes had been Benz's daughter, grandchild or what.
"So 'Mercedes' was not the name of an auto designer or engineer," Tim said, "but, rather, the name of a child. And now that child's name is associated with some of the finest automobiles in the world."
"That's true," Bill said. He told us another story about automobiles that few people knew. Dr. Porsche, who had designed both the VW and, of course, the Porsche, had not invented the rear-engine, air-cooled design; he had encountered it in Czechoslovakia in an auto firm there when the Germans took over that country in 1938. Bill could not remember the name of the Czech car, but it had been eight-cylinder, not four, a high-powered, very fast car that rolled so readily that German officers were finally forbidden to drive them. Dr. Porsche had modified the eight-cylinder high-performance design at Hitler's personal order. "Hitler wanted an air- cooled engine utilized," Bill said, "because he expected to use the VWs on autobahns in the Soviet Union after Germany took it over, and because of the, weather, because of the cold-"
"I think you should get a Jaguar," Kirsten interrupted, speaking to Tim.
"Oh, no," Bill said. "The Jaguar is one of the most unstable, trouble-prone cars in the world; it's far too complex and requires you to have it in the shop all the time. However, their terrific double-overhead cam engine is maybe the finest high-performance mill ever built, excepting the sixteen-cylinder touring cars of the Thirties."
"Sixteen cylinders?" I said, amazed.
"They were very smooth," Bill said. "There was a huge gap between the flivvers of the Thirties and the expensive touring cars; we don't have that gap now ... there is a complete spread from, say, your Honda Civic-which is basic transportation-up to the Rolls. Price and quality go in small increments, now, which is a good thing. It's a measure of the change in society between then and now." He started to tell us about steam cars and why that design had failed; Kirsten, however, rose to her feet and glared at him severely.
"I think I'll go to bed," Kirsten said.
Tim said to her, "What time am I speaking at the Lions' Club tomorrow?"
"Oh God, I don't have that speech finished," Kirsten said.
"I can improvise," Tim said.
"It's on the tape. All I have to do is transcribe it."
"You can do that in the morning."
She stared at him.
"As I say," Tim said, "I can improvise."
To Bill and me, Kirsten said, "'He can improvise.'" She continued to stare at the bishop, who shifted about uncomfortably. "Christ," she said.
"What's wrong?" Tim said.
"Nothing." She walked toward the bedroom. "I'll finish transcribing it. It wouldn't be a good idea if you-I don't know why we have to keep going into this. Promise me you won't launch into one of your tirades about the Zoroastrians."
Faintly but firmly, Tim said, "If I'm to trace the origins of Patristic thought-"
"I don't think the Lions want to hear about the desert fathers and the monastic life in the second century."
"Then that is exactly what I should talk about," Tim said. To Bill and me he said, "A monk was dispatched to a city carrying with him medicine for an ailing saint ... the names are not necessary. What must be understood is that the ailing saint was a very great saint, one of the most beloved and revered in the north of Africa. When the monk reached the city, after a long journey across the desert, he-"
"Good night," Kirsten said, and disappeared into the bedroom.
"Good night," we all said.
After a pause, Tim continued, speaking in a low voice to Bill and me. "When he entered the city, the monk did not know where to go. Stumbling about in the darkness-it was night-he came across a beggar lying in the gutter, quite ill. The monk, after pondering the spiritual aspects of the issue, ministered to the beggar, applying the medication to him, with the result that the beggar soon showed signs of mending. However, now the monk had nothing to take to the great ailing saint. He therefore returned to the monastery from which he had come, dreadfully afraid of what his abbot would say. When he had told the abbot what he had done, the abbot said, 'You did the right thing."' Tim fell silent, then. The three of us sat, none of us speaking.
"Is that it?" Bill said,
Tim said, "In Christianity no distinction is made between the humble and the great, the poor and the not-so-poor. The monk, by giving the medication to the first sick man he saw, instead of saving it for the great and famous saint, had seen into the heart of his Savior. There was a term of contempt used in Jesus' time for the ordinary people ... they were dismissed as the Am ha-aretz, a Hebrew term meaning, simply, 'the people of the land,' meaning that they had no importance. It was to these people, the Am ha-aretz, that Jesus spoke, and with whom he mingled, ate and slept, that is, slept in their houses-although he did sleep occasionally in the houses of the rich, for even the rich are not excluded." Tim seemed somewhat downcast, I noticed.
" 'The bish,' " Bill said, smiling. "That's what Kirsten calls you behind your back."
Tim said nothing to that. We could hear Kirsten moving about in the other room; something fell and she cursed.
"What makes you think there's a God?" Bill said to Tim.
For a time Tim said nothing. He seemed quite tired, and yet I sensed him trying to summon a response. Wearily, he rubbed his eyes. "There is the ontological proof ..." he murmured. "St. Anselm's ontological argument, that if a Being can be imagined-" He broke off, lifted his head, blinked.
"I can type up your speech," I said to him. "That was my job at the law office; I'm good at that." I rose. "I'll go tell Kirsten."
"There is no problem," Tim said.
"Wouldn't it be better if you were speaking from a written transcript?" I said.
Tim said, "I want to tell them about the-" He ceased speaking. "You know, Angel," he said to me, "I really love her. She has done so much for me. And if she hadn't been with me after Jeff's death ... I don't know what I would have done; I'm sure you understand." To Bill, he said, "I am terribly fond of your mother. She is the person closest to me in all the world."
"Is there any proof of God's existence?" Bill said.
After a pause, Tim said, "A number of arguments are given. Perhaps the best is the argument from biology, advanced for instance by Teilhard de Chardin. Evolution-the existence of evolution-seems to point to a designer. Also there is Morrison's argument that our planet shows a remarkable hospitality toward complex forms of life. The chance of this happening on a random basis is very small. I'm sorry." He shook his head. "I'm not feeling well. We'll discuss it some other time. I would say, however, in brief, that the teleological argument, the argument from design in nature, from purpose in nature, is the strongest argument."