CHAPTER 10
When I was five years old Aunt Alice came to babysit us early one morning while my parents went to hunt deer on Mount Taylor. I was crying because I wanted to go with my parents and they’d almost agreed to take me along, but then decided no.
To humor me that morning, Aunt Alice told my sisters and me the story about the Estrucuyu, the big headed monster, and Kochininako, Yellow Woman, who was a fine hunter even when she was a girl. Aunt Alice wanted me to know there had been a brave and clever girl who hunted rabbits to feed her sisters and mother but who also outwitted the Estrucuyu, and stalled the monster long enough for the Twin Brothers to arrive and slay him.
When Aunt Alice told the story about Kochininako cornered in the cave by the dreadful Estrucuyu, she took a great deal of care to describe how the monster demanded the poor girl remove her clothing, piece by piece. Later I understood how the Yellow Woman stories allowed her to express a facet of herself that otherwise was muted. When Aunt Alice got involved in telling a Yellow Woman story she got carried away into her secret self. I will always love her for the indomitable spirit she had, for her love of the old stories and the way she told them to us; and of course, I love her for her gentle eccentricities which I appreciate all the more now that I have a few of my own.
I was six years old the first time my father allowed me to walk with him on the deer hunt. I look back now in wonder: because my father was very serious about hunting and liked to bring home the biggest buck. My father and uncles and their friends were in a competition over that. To take along a six year old child to hunt deer seems to me now a bit unusual for a serious deer hunter like my father was. Yet my parents took me along on the hunt that November.
I was warned again and again about the rigors of deer hunting. My parents told me if I went, there was no turning back. I could not cry if I got tired of walking and I knew my father walked fast. I could not complain if I got cold or hungry. If I did not do everything they told me to do then at lunch break I would be left in the jeep back at camp. Yes, I promised, I would not be any trouble.
It had snowed on Mount Taylor and in the high mountains above Laguna the week before and the snowfall had only partially melted. I will always remember: I wore my black cowboy boots. I hated any shoes with laces and because the decision to allow me to go along came at the last minute, I had no other boots to wear except my black cowboy boots with thin cotton socks. The sky was bright blue and the sun was shining and melting the snow. I had walked only a short distance with my father that morning before my black cowboy boots were soaked with icy snow melt.
The first thing my father taught me that morning is how a hunter walks. Not too fast. Stop frequently to listen. Stop and listen the way a deer listens; then the deer will think he hears another deer or animal moving through the brush, not a human. He showed me how to step from rock to rock to avoid dry twigs or leaves that make noise.
I never told my father how wet and cold my feet were, but when we all met back at camp two hours later, my mother saw the soaking wet cowboy boots and realized my feet must have been cold all morning. Cowboy boots are for horseback riding, not hiking. The adults wore waterproof hiking boots.
During the lunch break I sat near the campfire to dry my cowboy boots and warm my feet. At noon the sun was so warm we had to remove a layer of sweatshirts we wore under our jackets. Afterwards my mother asked if I was sure I wanted to walk again with my father while he hunted that afternoon. By then the sun had warmed the scrub-oak hills and much of the snow melted; it was a beautiful clear day. I told my mother I wanted to hunt.
After lunch my father and I made our way up the east side of a dome shaped lava hill, called a “cerro,” that was fringed with scrub-oak thickets. At the top of the hill we stopped to rest; we still only whispered. My father sat on a big rock in the sun while I went off to the bushes to urinate. As I returned, my father stood up on the rock ledge with his back to me; he raised his rifle and aimed downhill and fired one shot.
When I reached my father he pointed down to some big flat boulders about fifty yards below; at first I couldn’t see anything but my father kept saying he’d shot a big buck that was bedded down on a sunny ledge. Finally I located the wide rack of antlers; the buck’s gray coat blended perfectly with the basalt ledge where he appeared to be sleeping, not dead. It seemed unbelievable that the big mule deer buck basked and dozed so close by but did not smell or hear us when we came up the hill behind him. The wind had blown in our favor that day, and carried our sounds and scents away from the buck.
My father approached cautiously because we still saw no blood or entry wound. Finally my father got close enough to see the buck was dead, but it still took us awhile to find the tiny entry hole between the deer’s shoulder blades where the bullet entered and killed the buck instantly. My father loved animals and hated their suffering, so this one-shot kill made the occasion even better.
For a six year old on her first hunting trip with her father, this was a completely wonderful and amazing afternoon. It was my first visit to the high plateau country below the volcanic craters of Mount Taylor in the Cebolleta Mountains.
As I got older, I visited Mount Taylor many times to work on the L Bar Ranch at branding time to gather cattle on horseback. I recalled that mountain terrain vividly as I wrote my first novel, Ceremony, and my protagonist, Tayo, rode his horse up to Mount Taylor to find the spotted cattle.
Later my father traded our cousin Bill Pratt a pistol for a child-size.22 single shot rifle for me and my sisters. He taught us gun safety from the time we could crawl, and he went over the rules again and again. He took me to the dump down by the river and taught me to line up the sights on the rifle and to squeeze, not jerk, the trigger as we fired. After a few lessons I was allowed to take the rifle and a box of.22 shells to go shoot bottles or targets at the dump by myself.
My father and his brother got their.22 rifles when they were seven, so he felt I should have a.22 rifle when I was seven. There was never any question that I would do anything improper with the.22. He believed toy guns were bad because they led children to think guns were toys. He didn’t like BB guns because they led children to think a gun shot wasn’t lethal and this caused children to use BB guns carelessly and injure one another.
He allowed us to light firecrackers for the same reason, so we would know how to do it safely. We always were extremely cautious with the firecrackers because they might start a brush fire. Every Fourth of July my father ordered great quantities of them — Black Cats, lady fingers, cherry bombs, M-80s, sky rockets, aerial bombs, Roman candles, fountains, pop bottle rockets, “snakes,” cracker balls and sparklers, of course.
My father regarded sparklers as a greater hazard than firecrackers because sparklers were said to be “safe,” even for preschool children, despite the fact that they burn at very high temperatures and might easily blind a child.
There was something of the child still in my father. At Christmas he bought us girls rockets that flew on a fuel of baking soda and vinegar, sling shots, and flying saucers that launched with the pull of a string — all toys he wanted to play with too, though we girls found them exciting and interesting and great fun outdoors.
Some of my earliest memories are of my sisters and me posing for our picture under the hot lights of my father’s photography studio. In the big empty room next to his darkroom and the bedroom which my two sisters and I shared, my father hung a roll of background paper and set up his reflectors and lights and made it his studio to take formal portraits.