THE NEXT DAY, Sunday, I design the hat. I can sense right away that I’m back. I know what a hat is today, and I’m able to judge my own work. It’s a good hat. That little hat is a huge load off my conscience. I spend the rest of the day designing ballet costumes that are due in two weeks. I get all sixteen costumes done.
Thanks to my productive day, I’m in a decent mood as I sit down to dinner with Peter Marrick at Per Se. We’re seated near large windows with a beautiful view of Columbus Circle and Central Park.
I’m glad I did my research on Peter because after we place our order and the waiter has explained the detailed history of the three kinds of butter on our table, I’m able to turn to Peter and say, “I watched your interview with the Chinese president on YouTube. It was very impressive.”
“Thanks. Being on Newsroom Live gives me some great international opportunities.” He chuckles. “After I got an interview with him, every Asian leader wanted to talk to me.”
I hope he’s not going to expect me to know the names of any of those presidents. I have an urge to put on a seatbelt because I sense we are about to launch into a detailed conversation that might require a knowledge of the minutiae of world politics. But I’ve got nothing to worry about. Suddenly appearing uninterested in the topic, he veers off and tells me he always dreamed of being creative but somehow never had time, life just whizzed by, propelling him in the direction of TV journalism.
To my surprise, he asks if he can join our group, the Nights of Creation, for just one evening.
“Oh,” I say, startled. “It’s nice you’d want to. I’ll ask them. I know they loved meeting you.”
“Thanks.” He smiles and takes a sip of wine.
“Would you be working on an art project, if you came?”
“Yes.”
“Great. What would it be?”
“I don’t know.” He tears a piece of bread.
“What art form would it be?”
“I don’t know,” he says, buttering his bread.
A bit embarrassed for him, I softly say, “I just mean, would it be, like, painting, or music, or writing, or sculpting…?”
“I know. I don’t know,” he replies, just as softly. We gaze at each other. Then he whispers to me, with a sad, dreamy air, “I must sound like an idiot.”
“Not at all!” I say, thinking he sounds a bit strange. “Which art forms have you tried in the past?”
“Practically none. In school, I drew a bit in art class. And I learned to play the recorder when I was ten.”
I nod. “Were you good at either?”
“No. But I was a total beginner.”
I laugh, and nod again. “Do you have a good imagination?”
He looks away quickly. “Probably not.” He raises his arm high in the air to flag the waiter, which I sense is to hide his discomfort. He orders another bottle of water, even though ours is still three-quarters full.
Feeling sorry for him, my mouth starts uttering words without my brain having completely approved them. “You can come to our Night of Creation. No problem. It’ll be fun. I’m sure the others will be fine with it. We have one tomorrow night, if you’re free.”
He says he is, and thanks me. He seems happy.
Since we set foot in the restaurant, everybody’s been staring at us. Perhaps they’re surprised that this famous news anchor is having dinner with someone so conspicuously unattractive.
But Peter seems completely oblivious to the stares and very much at ease with me as his dinner companion.
During dessert, Peter says to me, “The truth is, I think I haven’t got an ounce of imagination.”
When I did my research on him yesterday, I found out he’s been married once. Since his divorce three years ago, he’s been linked to a couple of women, but nothing serious.
“Do you like being an anchor?” I ask.
“I like it. I don’t love it. When you’re an anchor, you cover events. You don’t create them. You report on contributions. You don’t make them.”
“Reporting on contributions is a contribution, isn’t it?”
“Such a minor one.”
“I disagree. Plus, you’re so good at it. How did you become so successful if you weren’t that interested in your work?”
“Of course I was interested. It’s easy to be interested in a big, fat soap opera — which is what local, national, and world events are, you know. If I could go back and do things over, I might have preferred to become one of the notable people who is notable for something other than reporting on notable people.”
I nod, understanding.
After dinner, he hails a cab for me, smiles down at me, and says, “See you tomorrow.” He kisses me good night on the cheek. It leaves me feeling weak.
When I arrive at my building, Adam the doorman says, “I should change my shift. Seeing you so close to my bedtime gives me nightmares.”
I don’t mention that we have that in common.
THE FOLLOWING EVENING, my friends arrive early to our Night of Creation so that we can watch Peter on the six o’clock local news before he joins us. They’re excited I’ve invited him, and it works wonders to lighten the mood, which frankly was a bit weighty last time, when all we could think about was which one of us was the killer.
We wait for Peter. He finally bursts into my apartment carrying a large drawing pad and exclaiming, “My friends!” with such an air of relief and yearning, it makes us laugh.
When he sees my mysterious, dim, cavernous living room filled with upright, human-sized animals wearing my costumes and masks, he falls silent.
“Oh my God. This place is amazing,” he says, walking in slowly, taking it all in. “I’ve never seen such a beautiful room.”
I’m glad he finds it beautiful. Everyone finds it striking but not everyone finds it beautiful.
“These costumes are gorgeous. Are they your creations?” he asks.
“Yes.”
“It’s like walking into a fantasy land of imagination, of endless possibilities. No wonder your friends like to work here. Did you put this whole decor together yourself too?”
“Yes, but the lighting is what makes it work, and that was done by a lighting designer friend of mine.”
He looks at me and laughs. “The lighting? So on top of being astonishingly talented, you are also breathtakingly modest.”
During the session, he draws imaginary landscapes, but his output is low and his skill is poor. Georgia whispers to me in the kitchen, “If he spent less time gazing at you and more time turning that gaze inward, he’d boost his productivity. If you want to help him, you should sleep with him. It would get that sexual tension out of his system and allow his creative juices to flow.”
I laugh her off. “If you spent less time surfing the Internet and more time working on your novel, perhaps you’d boost your productivity.”
“I can’t. My novel makes me nauseated.”
“Then write a new one.”
“I can’t. I’ve put too much time and work into this one. I can’t just abandon it.”
Peter seems endearingly concerned that Georgia hasn’t been able to write since she lost her laptop and got it back four days later.
He asks her, “If your laptop had been returned to you more quickly, say after one day, do you think you’d be experiencing the same difficulties with your writing now?”
“I don’t know. Why?”