Hardy put the paper down and was staring out the windows. He felt hands on his shoulders, massaging, coming around to rest on his chest. Frannie kissed the top of his head, and he leaned back into her.
“Hi,” he said.
She patted his chest and straightened up. “I love you,” she said, sliding into the chair next to him, looking in his eyes, “and you’re confused.”
Hardy smiled. “Not so confused.”
“Good.”
“Not that I have any idea what I’m doing, what we’re doing, what any of this means.”
“That’s okay. I don’t either.”
Hardy took her hand. “It’s not casual, though, you know?”
“I know.”
“I’m just trying to figure out what’s my so-called real life.”
“Me or Jane?”
He shook his head. “Not just that. That’s part of it.”
“I’m not staking any claim, you know. But I do want you to know that I love you.”
Hardy looked down at the hand he held. Eddie’s wedding ring was still on her finger. He wanted to say a lot of things-that saying you loved somebody was staking a claim, that he didn’t know where to put his own infatuation, that he didn’t trust what he called “love, the feeling”-he trusted “love, the attitude.” The problem was that he had the feeling with Frannie. With Jane, he was starting to think he had the attitude and was trying to manufacture the feeling, often with decent success. But it wasn’t the same as the racing he felt in his veins now.
He did, however, know that he wasn’t going to just say “I love you” right now. That was too open to misinterpretation.
Instead he lifted her hand and kissed it. “You know when I said I wasn’t so confused?” he said.
She nodded.
“I lied.”
Frannie laughed her wonderful laugh, fixing him with dancing eyes. “Oh, Dismas. Let’s just enjoy this. Eddie’s gone and I miss him horribly and Jane’s not in the picture right now and we’re two grownups who’ve known and cared about each other forever and now are attracted to each other.” She squeezed his hand. “Okay, very attracted. We’ve got a little window in time we can have just for ourselves, so let’s take it. I’m not trying to find a father for the baby and you don’t have to decide between me and Jane, at least until what you call your real life starts again.”
“I’ve never thought of the ‘love as a window in time’ theory.”
“How about if there isn’t any theory?”
“Then something can happen you’re not ready for.”
Frannie laughed again, shaking her head. “You ever think that life is something that happens and that you’re not ever completely prepared for?”
“Yeah, and it makes me uncomfortable.”
“I know. So you want to control everything, but things can’t be controlled. Eddie being killed. Michael dying. Louis Baker putting you and me together like this. It’s just out of our control.”
“How about last night?”
Now a slow smile. “Last night was a freight train without brakes going downhill and you know it.”
“But something had to get it started.”
“It started when you rang my bell here. It started before I married Eddie. It started when I met you. And in our, as you say, real lives, we had it under control. Then this funny thing happened with your life being threatened. Just like funny things happen all the time.”
“Well, your window of time is closing. Jane is coming back. I should move back home. Louis Baker’s in custody. Why don’t I feel like things are over? Settled?”
Frannie leaned over and shut him up with a kiss. “Because some things are just starting.”
Hardy got up and went out to the living room, where last night’s comforter lay heaped on the couch. Glitsky’s file was still open on the coffee table.
Frannie came up behind him and put her arms around his waist, her face against his back. “Okay, here’s the thing,” he said. “Everything seems connected somehow-you, me, this Baker situation. And my instincts are telling me it’s not over. There’s too much unresolved-”
“You mean with Baker?”
“I mean with Rusty Ingraham. But I’m also wondering if that instinct is really me just wanting to prolong things here with you, put off my return to real life.”
She rubbed her hands up and down the front of his shirt. “What’s unresolved?”
He crossed over to the table, picked up the file. “This stuff here. Also, in the paper this morning another guy involved in all this shows up around another violent crime.”
“But didn’t they get Baker at Jane’s? And doesn’t that mean he was after you?”
“Absolutely.”
She folded her arms across her chest. “Well?”
“It doesn’t mean he killed Rusty, or Maxine, or the guy in the projects. It only means he was after me.”
“Okay, but you can infer-”
“Sure you can. It’s what I’ve been doing all along.” He sat down on the couch and Frannie came over. “Last night I almost shot Abe. No, listen. I was one-hundred-percent certain it was Louis Baker on your porch, here to kill me. But I couldn’t take him out without making sure, thank God. Something stopped me from pulling the trigger.”
Frannie sat back, not knowing where he was going.
“If I couldn’t kill Baker last night, how can I do it now?”
“How would you be doing that?”
“Multiple murder rap, he’ll get the gas chamber…”
“But Abe even said-”
“Sure. But Abe’s instincts aren’t always wrong. Often, in fact, they’re right. I mean, I was so scared the last few days I wasn’t interested in anything but saving my ass. And that meant pointing to Baker.”
“And now?”
“Now, I think I can see for the first time that Abe might have had a point, back there when this whole thing started. In his shoes, knowing what he knew, and didn’t know, I’m not sure I would have arrested Baker right away either-”
“But Abe, knowing what he did, finally did arrest Baker, didn’t he?”
“Not exactly. Baker got shot outside Jane’s house, where we suppose he was looking for me to kill me.”
“But didn’t Abe say he was going to charge him?”
“No. It sounded like he said he was going to quit. Maybe let the Ingraham case slide and be happy to have Baker go down for the woman’s murder, or the burglary, or even breaking his parole. He’s fed up, is all.”
“But Baker was coming to kill you!”
“Don’t get me wrong, Frannie. I don’t care too much about what happens to one Louis Baker. But he ought to go down for what he’s actually done.”
“So let a jury decide that. Or Abe.”
“Juries can be wrong, and Abe’s not interested in his current mood.” Hardy flipped some pages in Abe’s file, leaning over the coffee table. “There’s another thing,” he said.
She sat forward, a hand on his back. “What’s that?”
“One way or the other I’m deeply involved in all this, right? So let’s, for argument, let’s say Baker didn’t kill Rusty. Let’s even, just for fun, say Rusty isn’t dead. If either or both of those are true, then why am I, Dismas Hardy, part of this at all… unless I’m being set up.”
“But set up for what?”
Hardy closed the file and leaned back against the couch. “Exactly.”
Hardy was thinking that maybe Frannie’s infatuation had ended, since she was already pissed off at him for going to see Louis Baker in the hospital. He should just leave it alone, she said. But he still felt some danger. If he was being set up… Or maybe he wanted to stay at Frannie’s a little longer and needed an excuse. Or maybe he felt less than a paragon and wanted to soothe his conscience now that his life wasn’t, so far as he knew, directly threatened. It was all jumbled, but also somehow connected.
He and Frannie had had their first fight. She said that compulsive need to find out, to do the right thing, had killed her husband. She wasn’t about to have it happen to Hardy too.
But Hardy knew that idealism hadn’t killed Eddie Cochran four months ago. A bullet in the brain had killed him, and Eddie had had no more control over who had put it there than he did over the wind. Eddie had been going along, living his life, trying to make it a good one, and someone had ended it-abruptly, senselessly. If something in Frannie needed to believe that Eddie’s idealism had gotten him involved in things that had led to that lonely parking lot in the middle of the night, Hardy could accept that. He knew it had been someone else’s agenda, not Eddie’s, that had ended his life.