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(which must be a clearing deeper in the forest)

there to make friends with the aviators, and beg them to take me in.

Such a life it would be to fly in the air above the forest!

Distinctly I feel above the forest, luckily it is always gloriously morning.

And in a plane, one can easily find one’s way,

though not, of course, back to the world. One could,

I mean, find one’s way deeper into the forest.

SIX

What can I tell you about the forest

that you can’t read in books? Well,

our lives here are bared like the trunks of trees.

We believe fundamentally in things that are

quite obviously not true. On such things

our happiness is often based.

For instance, the allegiance of friends.

We of the forest are known cowards.

We make free with each other’s possession,

make love to each other’s husbands and wives.

At first it is odd, I know.

Pierre for instance, has a gorgeous wife.

She wears a little dress of leaves. People are forever

pulling at it as she curtsies by on her girlish legs.

One day she asked me if I would like

to go and find the Monumental Rose.

Where is it? I asked.

Deeper in, she said. We really must be going.

And so we went. I took Pierre’s name.

He took mine. We shook hands.

Have a fine time, he said. Be good.

The forest is much larger than you think.

THEN — a rustling of leaves. Cora had gone.

I’d better go, I said, following into the rustling

through the glorious light.

SEVEN

The philosophers who end up in the forest

stop writing books and begin instead

trying to grow herb-gardens. Every time

it happens the same way. It’s so funny.

There’s Spinoza. What’s he doing? Pruning oregano.

There’s William James.

What are you doing, William James? I inquire.

But he doesn’t answer, so absorbed is he

in laying string for vines. I watch for a minute,

standing fast by his elbow, intent on his progress.

Before you go, he says absently,

be sure to take a sprig of parsley for your buttonhole.

This I do. Need I say it twice?

We of the forest are terribly dashing.

EIGHT

Everyone in the forest has the same dream every night.

We sleep and are immediately awake again

in a tiny one-room house. There is a storm

in the out-of-doors. It is clear to everyone

that it is the biggest storm there’s ever been.

The forest, in fact, has been flattened.

All of a sudden, the storm halts.

We rush out of the cottage door

and are standing in the middle of a clearing

that stretches infinitely in every direction.

It’s then we realize that the forest

has not been flattened. Nor was there

a storm. Merely that

this is a deeper clearing, one we may

someday find. We wake then, invigorated,

and without so much as a by-your-leave,

rush off into the dew-strewn underbrush.

NINE

East Riding. It is the name that the world has

for the forest. I recall I was a child when I

heard it first. Still, I felt drawn.

I would go sometimes to the highest part

of the farm country and gaze eastward to the sea

of treetops drowsing in the distance,

hazy day, the sun’s rays mingling with the dust

and hanging in the air like the passing of hands.

I believe, I told the village priest, in East Riding.

Dismayed, he spoke with my parents,

counseling them to send me to the part of the world

farthest from East Riding.

But my father laughed. I recall this vividly.

He laughed at the priest, and raised me up

eye level into the air. He said,

“I believe you are going to East Riding.

Already you’ve left us.”

He took my mother’s hand and stood in the doorway

looking off into the distance as though watching

the progress of some traveler on a distant road.

But I was still in the house. My things weren’t even packed.

The priest stuck his sharp elbow in my ribs.

See? he said. So I slipped between my parent’s legs

and walked and walked and walked.

When I reached the distant road, I could see

that they were watching. I waved. They waved back.

And I followed the road where it went

beneath a canopy of trees.

TEN

On the deeper paths, one can’t know

for sure if one is welcome, save by clearings.

If one encounters lovely clearings

and crisp glorious mornings, then one has

cannily chosen the right path.

At other times it’s as dark as the inside

of a leaded window on an old cloudy block.

No one visits anymore, and the oldest man

is older by far than the histories he tells.

This is his defense, and it’s a keen one.

So I know to turn back, sometimes.

Always, it’s then one is given a small but kind