The third shot grazed Roy’s right arm, and the fourth bullet took him squarely in the right leg. He collapsed as dark blood suddenly stained his sleeve and soaked through one leg of his jeans. And for the first time since Colin had known him, Roy looked-in the face, at least-like a child, like the child he actually was. His face was contorted by a look of helplessness, an expression of stark terror.
Colin towered over him and lined the sight up with the bridge of Roy’s nose. He almost pulled the trigger one last time. But before he could take that final step into total savagery, he became aware that there was more than fear in Roy’s eyes. He saw despair, too. And a pitiful, lost look, a deep and abiding loneliness. Worst of all, he saw that part of Roy was beseeching him to squeeze off one more shot; a part of the poor bastard was begging to be killed.
Slowly, Colin lowered the gun. “I’ll get help for you, Roy. They’ll fix the leg. And the other things, too. They’ll help you with the other things. Psychiatrists. Good doctors, Roy. They’ll help you get well. Belinda wasn’t your fault. It was an accident. They’ll help you understand that.”
Roy began to cry. He gripped his shattered leg with both hands and wept uncontrollably, moaned, wailed, rocked back and forth-either because the shock had worn off and his wound was hurting him … or because Colin had not put him out of his misery.
Colin was unable to hold back his own tears. “Oh God, Roy, what they did to you. What they did to me. What all of us do to each other every day, all the time. It’s terrible. Why? For God’s sake, why?” He threw the gun across the room; it hit the wall with a crash, clattered to the floor. “Look, Roy, I’ll come visit you,” he said, through tears that wouldn’t stop. “In the hospital. Then wherever they take you. I’ll always come. I won’t forget, Roy. Not ever. I promise. I won’t forget that we’re blood brothers.”
Roy didn’t seem to hear. He was lost in his own pain and anguish.
Heather came to Colin and tentatively put one hand against his battered face.
He saw that she was limping. “Are you hurt?” “It’s nothing serious,” she said. “I twisted my ankle when I fell. What about you?”
“I’ll live.”
“Your face looks awful. It’s swollen where he hit you with the gun, and it’s turning all dark.”
“It hurts,” he admitted. “But right now we’ve got to get an ambulance for Roy. We don’t want him to bleed to death.” He reached into a pocket of his jeans and took out some coins. “Here. Take this. There’s a pay phone at the service station at the bottom of the hill. Call the hospital and the police.”
“You better go,” she said. “I’ll take forever with this bad ankle.”
“You don’t mind staying here with him?” Colin asked.
“He’s harmless now,” she said.
“Well … okay.”
“Just hurry back.”
“I will. And Heather… I’m sorry.”
“For what?”
“I said he’d never get his hands on you. I failed you.”
“He didn’t do anything to me,” she said. “You protected me. You did very well.”
Tears shimmered in her eyes. They held each other for a moment.
“You’re so pretty,” he said.
“Am I?”
“Don’t ever tell yourself you aren’t. Don’t ever again think you’re ugly in any way. Not ever. Tell them all to go to hell. You’re pretty. Remember that. Promise me you’ll remember that.”
“Okay.”
“Promise me.”
“I promise.”
He went to call the ambulance.
Outside, the night was very dark.
As he walked down the long hill, heading for the phone at the service station, he realized he could no longer hear the voice of the night. There were toads and crickets and the distant rumble of a train. But that low, sinister murmuring that he had always thought was there, that sound of supernatural machinery laboring at evil tasks, was gone. A few steps farther on, he realized that the voice of the night was now within him, and that, in fact, it always had been. It was within everyone, whispering maliciously, twenty-four hours a day, and the most important task in life was to ignore it, shut it out, refuse to listen.
He called the ambulance, then the police.