A good deal of this information Morse had known already, she sensed that. But appearances were that she'd held his attention as tearfully and fitfully she'd covered most of the ground again. He'd not asked her how she knew about the photographs; yet he surely must have guessed. But he would never know about those other photographs, the pornographic ones, the ones of the Swedish girl whom she had recognized from the passport picture printed, albeit so badly, in The Oxford Times. No! She would tell Morse nothing about that. Nor about the joy-riding -and her mental turmoil when first she'd read those words in Philip's diary; words which conjured up for her the confused images of squealing tyres and the anguished shrieks of a small girl lying in a pool of her own blood . . . No, it would belittle her son even further if she spoke of things like that, and she would never do it. Wherever he was and whatever he'd done, Philip would always be her son.
As the car turned left at Carfax, down towards St Aldate's police station, she saw a dozen or more head-jerking pigeons pecking at the pavement; and then fluttering with sudden loud clapping of wings up to the tower above them. Taking flight. Free! And Margaret Daley, her head now throbbing wildly, wondered if she would ever herself feel free again . . .
'Milk and sugar?'
Margaret Daley had been miles away, but she'd heard his words, and now looked up into the chief inspector's face, his eyes piercingly blue, but kindly, and almost vulnerable themselves, she thought.
'No sugar. Just milk, please.'
Morse laid his hand lightly on her shoulder. 'You're a brave woman,' he said quietly.
Suddenly the flood-gates were totally swept away, and she turned from him and wept quite uncontrollably.
'You heard what the lady said,' snarled Morse, as the constable at the door watched the two of them, hesitantly. 'No bloody sugar!'
CHAPTER SIXTY
Music and women I cannot but give way to, whatever my business is (Samuel Pepys, Diary)
JUST AFTER lunch-time Morse was back in his office at HQ listening to the tape of Michaels' interview.
'What do you think, sir?'
'I suppose some of it's true,' admitted Morse.
'About not killing Daley, you mean?'
'I don't see how he could have done it - no time was there?'
'Who did kill him, do you think?'
'Well, there are three things missing from his house, aren't there? Daley himself, the rifle -and the boy.'
'The son? Philip? You think he killed him? Killed his father? Like Oedipus?'
'The things I've taught you, Lewis, since you've been my sergeant!'
'Did he love his mum as well?'
'Very much so, I think. Anyway you'll be interested in hearing what she's got to say.'
'But - but you can't just walk into Blenheim Park with a rifle on your shoulder-'
'His mum says he used to go fishing there; says his dad bought him all the gear.'
'Ah. See what you mean. Those long canvas things, you know - for your rods and things.'
'Something like that. Ten minutes on a bike - '
'Has he got a bike?'
'Dunno.'
'But why? Why do you think-?'
'Must have been that letter, I suppose - from the Crown Court . . .'
'And his dad refused to help?'
'Probably. Told his son to clear off, like as not; told him to bugger off and leave his parents out of it. Anyway, I've got a feeling the lad's not going to last long in the big city. The Met'll bring him in soon, you see.'
'You said it was Michaels, though. You said you were pretty sure it must have been Michaels.'
'Did I?'
'Yes, you did! But you didn't seem too surprised when you just heard the tape?'
'Didn't I?'
Lewis let it go. 'Where do we go from here, then?'
'Nowhere, for a bit. I've got a meeting with Strange first. Three o'clock.'
'What about Michaels? Let him go?'
'Why should we do that?'
'Well, like you say -he just couldn't have done it in the time. Impossible! Even with a helicopter.'
'So?'
Suddenly Lewis was feeling more than a little irritated. 'So what do I tell him?'
'You tell him,' said Morse slowly, 'that we're keeping him here overnight -for further questioning.'
'On what charge? We just can't-'
'I don't think he'll argue too loudly,' said Morse.
Just before Morse was to knock on Chief Superintendent Strange's door that Tuesday afternoon, two men were preparing to leave the Trout Inn at Wolvercote. Most of the customers who had spent their lunchtime out of doors, seated on the paved terrace alongside the river there, were now gone; it was almost closing time.
'You promise to write it down?'
'I promise,' replied Alasdair McBryde.
'Where are you going now?'
'Back to London.'
'Can I give you a lift to the station?'
'I'd be glad of that.'
The two walked up the shallow steps and out across the narrow road to the car park: PATRONS ONLY. NO PARKING FOR FISHERMEN.
'What about you, Alan?' asked McBryde, as Hardinge drove the Sierra left towards Wolvercote.
'I don't know. And I don't really care.'
'Don't say that!' McBryde laid his right hand lightly on the driver's arm. But Hardinge dismissed the gesture with his own right hand as if he were flicking a fly from his sleeve, and the journey down to Oxford station was made in embarrassed silence.
Back in Radcliffe Square, Hardinge parked on double yellow lines in Catte Street, and went straight up
to his rooms in Lonsdale. He knew her number off by heart. Of course he did.
'Claire? It's me, Alan.'
'I know it's you. Nothing wrong with my ears.'
'I was just wondering . . . just hoping . . .'
'No! And we're not going to go over all that again.'
'You mean you're not even going to see me again?'
That's it!'
'Not ever?' His throat was suddenly very dry.
'You know, for a university don, you don't pick some things up very quickly, do you?'
For a while Hardinge said nothing. He could hear music playing in the background; he knew the piece well.
'If you'd told me you enjoyed Mozart-!
'Look - for the last time! - it's finished. Please accept that! Finished!'
'Have you got someone else?'
'What?' He heard her bitter laughter. 'My life's been full of "someone elses". You always knew that.'
'But what if I divorced-'
'For Christ's sake] Won't you ever understand? It's over!'
The line was dead, and Hardinge found himself looking down at the receiver as if someone had given him a frozen fillet of fish for which for the moment he could find no convenient receptacle.
Claire Osborne sat by the phone for several minutes after she had rung off, the wonderful trombone passage from the Tuba Mirum Spargens Sonum registering only vaguely in her mind. Had she been too cruel to Alan? But sometimes it was necessary to be cruel to be kind - wasn't that what they said? Or was that just a meaningless cliche like the rest of them? 'Someone else?' Alan had asked. Huh!
The poorly typed letter (no salutation, no subscription) she had received with the cassette that morning was lying on the coffee table, and already she'd read it twenty-odd times:
I enjoyed so much our foreshortened time together, you and the music. One day of the great lost days, one face of all the faces (Ernest Dowson -not me!). A memento herewith. The Recordare is my favourite bit -if I'm pushed to a choice. 'Recordare' by the way is the 2nd person singular of the present imperative of the verb 'recorder': it means 'Remember!'
CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
A reasonable probability is the only certainty (Edgar Watson Howe, Country Town Sayings)
'You're sure about all this, Morse?' Strange's voice was sharp, with an edge of scepticism to it. 'Completely sure.' 'You said that about Michaels.' 'No! I only said I was ninety per cent sure on that.' 'OK.' Strange shrugged his shoulders, tilted his head, and opened his palms in a gesture of