All eyes were on me. Somewhere in that bleak ice waste was what we sought and I had to steer them all to richness with the hilt runes on my sabre. The smile I gave them back was, I hoped, as bright and sure as sunrise.
We turned back to the line of carts and people, where only a few of the druzhina were now horsed and everyone else so swathed in chapeless bundles that it was hard to tell man from woman, or warrior from thrall. They huddled into their clothes and stamped feet made fat in braided straw overshoes, which the horses kept trying to eat.
'What now, Trader?' demanded Kvasir, wiping the weep from his good eye. Thorgunna made to help and he slapped her hand away, irritated. She scowled in return.
'It needs proper attention.'
'I am doing so. Go and weave something.'
Thorgunna fixed him with her sheep-dropping eyes. 'It is time I died,' she declared firmly. 'Time I was dropped in my grave, for I have nothing left, it seems, to offer this life or the man I have in it.'
'You may live or die as you see fit,' growled Kvasir, sullenly, 'providing you decide without poking my eye. Whatever your decision, we will all have to live with the consequences.'
Finn, hunched up like a seal in clothes and swaddled cloak, offered up a cracked bell of a laugh as Thorgunna threw up one hand in annoyance and left Kvasir and his eye.
'We should cut across the Great White, south to Sarkel,' Finn added. Avraham, hearing this, gave a short, sharp bark of laughter, while Gizur frowned and crushed the ice out of his beard, for the Great White was one sea he could not navigate.
Did you bleat?' Finn asked, sour-faced.
'What has been crossed so far is as nothing compared to what lies out there,' Avraham said, waving a hand in the general direction of the east. 'That is a howling wilderness, which offers nothing to men, summer or winter.'
'You have been there?' Gyrth interrupted and Avraham cocked a haughty eyebrow.
'I am Khazar. I have been everywhere.'
'But there especially?'
Avraham shifted a little. 'No,' he admitted, then thrust his chin out belligerently. 'What sane man would go where there is often no water for flocks in summer, nor reason to be there in the depths of winter? Anyway, it is. . cursed.'
He looked half-ashamed, half-defiant, but it was clear he believed it and it came to me then that where Atil's tomb lay would be thought a cursed place, even if no-one knew it was there. So many deaths to build it, stock it, carry him to it; the steppe here was crowded with moaning fetches every time the wind blew.
'So,' said Jon Asanes sadly, 'you cannot guide us then, if we choose that route.'
Avraham bristled. 'I am Khazar and this is my land — I can guide you anywhere. For a reasonable price.'
'Ha!' growled Finn. 'This is not your land now, though, you prick-cut thief. The Rus rule here.'
'What price?' I asked, seeing Avraham's face darken. He remained staring into Finn's glare for a moment longer — which was brave of him, I had to admit — then quoted the cost of a small farm.
Finn roared before I could even speak. 'You can have the rust off my balls, you arse.'
Avraham smeared a sneer on his face.
'Balls of poor iron — that explains the clinking I heard, for I knew a man such as yourself could not have a purse so rich.'
'My balls were smelted in northern forges, little man,' Finn replied with a broad grin, 'in such a heat where the likes of you would smoulder like an eider duck's tail. They were quenched in cold that makes this seem like a balmy day.'
'I suspect we are speaking in the singular,' Avraham answered. 'I had heard the Norse had to share a pair between two.'
'You heard wrong. Gulls use my prick as a perch, thinking it a mast. When I shit over the side of a racing drakkar, my turds choke whales. I piss fire and fart thunder. And that which you call a howling wilderness is just another little sea to me.'
Others were gathering, hugely enjoying this. It drove away the cold and misery and I was grateful for that. Better still, the chances of them coming to serious blows had slipped away.
'You spout a deal of empty nothing like a whale does, that much I have seen,' Avraham replied and those nearest gave approving noises that made Finn scowl.
'That which we have called the Great White,' Avraham went on, 'is merely those who know being kind to you. The real Great White is a few wheel turns from here, directly south. You will see it from a long way off, because it is a dazzle of ice. After that, if you should survive, you will just have time to make peace with your heathen gods before your famous perch freezes and snaps like a twig. If you ever find this silver hoard it will be because some wolf, tired of gnawing your arse-bone, drops it nearby.'
Finn made a dismissive gesture into admiring 'heyas' of those who thought this a good flyting.
'You are like all who have not had the benefit of being born in Skane, when faced with open space, whether sea or land,' he declared expansively. 'You fear to lose sight of safety. No open space frightens us from Skane and a horizon is an invitation, not a limit. Odin and Vili and Ve fixed the stars for us to find our way and, with them, I know where I am in this world to the length of a sparrow's fart.'
He cocked his head and closed one eye reflectively, blowing out his ice-hung moustaches.
'Anyway,' he added, 'you have never seen a blowing whale, you land-fastened nithing.'
There were appreciative hooms and nods at this, though everyone knew Finn could not find his arse with both hands when it came to navigating a ship and had never seen any live whales himself.
'The steppe respects no-one,' Avraham declared haughtily and I thought this had gone on long enough and said so.
'If the steppe respects no-one, then a guide such as yourself would be useless,' I added and everyone cheered at that — even Finn. Avraham acknowledged defeat with a rueful smile, which he lost when I asked if he could, in fact, guide us.
He looked from me to Finn's challenging grin, to Gyrth and Jon Asanes and then back to me. Then he shook his head and would not meet anyone's eye.
Gizur shifted a little and thumbed snot out of his nose.
'Well,' he declared challengingly, 'I admit it with now shame — the Great White is not known to me and none of my skills will take you safe across it. Best we follow the rivet'
'Ah — who needs this Khazar,' Kvasir bellowed. 'Cross the Great White. It will not be a hard trail to find, I am thinking, Just follow the ruin of Lambisson.'
That thought threw ice into all our veins, though none admitted it as we set off across the Great White. In the end, Avraham came with us, since he had the choice of doing that or staying by the river to die, but it could not be said he guided us anywhere after that.
The Great White swallowed us. The snow drove down in small, slanted flakes, persistent as gnats, piling high round camping places and kept at bay only by the heat of fires and our own bodies. We woke every morning, moving carefully within tents and shelters so as not to shake down the frost which had formed on the inside. We chipped the horse tethers out of the frozen earth, made fires, cooked porridge and, after three hours, were usually ready to move off.
The cold rot turned more noses and toes black; Bjaelfi, Thorgunna and Thordis kept little knives sharp for paring off the spoiled flesh and, at first, we seemed aimless as ants on a sheepskin. Then, as Kvasir had said, matters grew simple; we followed the ruin of Lambisson, while the snow sifted out of the pewter sky, trailed along the land like smoke, stung like thrown gravel in our faces.
It was a trail of tears a blind man could track, from splintered wagon to dead horse to blue-white corpses, little knots of tragedy in an ice-rope that most thought would hang us all. At each one, sick with apprehension, I searched for the familiar face of Short-Eldgrim.