“You had no right to tell anyone!” I screeched. “You had no right!” I pounded at her chest while she tried to pull me into an embrace. We were locked a few inches apart, too close to punch as hard as I wanted to, too far to stop me from trying. “You had no right!” Keene ’s arm slipped between us.
A porter emerged and commanded us to stop. Richard inserted his other arm and firmly parted us. I took one step back.
Mom spun out against the wall as if he’d tossed her. She covered her face and cowered there. Passersby stood in the rain to stare. I panicked for a moment that, in the midst of everything else, someone with a cellphone would call the police.
So it seemed perfectly reasonable that, suddenly, a policeman was there. “Hi, Morris,” I said, still catching my breath.
“Hello, Polly.” He nodded at me with formality. Then he turned toward my mother.
“My mom and I were just having an argument. It’s not a big deal,” I explained.
“Polly, step aside, please,” he said. Then he repeated that I should step aside, so I did.
“Miranda Bailey, I’d like you to come with us,” he began.
Mom brushed her hair with her hands. She wiped under her eyes.
“You don’t need to do that,” I said to him, as if he were taking Mom away for harassing me.
“Polly, get back,” he said sharply.
Dr. Keene tried to intervene. “Is this really necessary?” he hissed at the policeman.
For a moment everyone held still. I pressed back against the message board on the wall.
Morris squared his shoulders to Dr. Keene.
“It’s all right, Polly,” Mom said firmly. “The Inspector knows I’m happy to answer any additional questions he may have.”
Morris kept looking at Dr. Keene, waiting for him to back down, but he didn’t. “Mrs. Bailey,” Dr. Keene said to my mom, but looking directly back at Morris, “would you like me to come with you?”
“No!” I said. “No, she doesn’t have to go…”
“Polly,” Mom said firmly. “I’m happy to help.” She took Morris’s arm like they were going to the theater. He passed her off to a uniformed officer. She said to Dr. Keene, “Thank you, but I’ll be all right.”
“Sorry, Polly,” Morris said quietly.
Dr. Keene grabbed Morris’s arm. I couldn’t believe it. I think it’s really important not to touch a policeman. I pulled on Keene to make him stop. I wanted to protect him. I hadn’t jumped up for my mother, but here I was jumping for him.
“I can take it from here, Dr. Keene,” Morris said, shaking him off. “Take a step back, Richard.” I thought, How did he know his name?
“Did you really need to do it this way, Morris? In front of her daughter?”
Morris wagged his head back and forth, then laughed, which was horrid.
“You do your job, Richard, and I’ll do mine. Come along,” he said to the officer. They had a car parked nearby.
“How could you?” I shouted, and I meant, How could you laugh? How could he have a personal squabble about it?
“I’ll be fine,” Mom mouthed at me. I’d forgotten about her for a moment. I’d made myself forget.
I turned and ran the other direction, into the courtyard. First court, second court, around Pepys Library and into the Fellows’ Garden. Some of the colleges are fussy about their Fellows’ Gardens, but Magdalene’s is open. I followed the path that leads away from the river; there are always too many people near the river. I hid in a private little wood that turned out to be a pet cemetery. I sat on the tombstone of a dog that had died a hundred and fifty years ago and put my face between my knees. Breathe.
I thought my mom had been arrested, tactfully. And I thought to myself, My God, she did it. It happened again.
I ran to Millington Road, panting. I knew Liv was at Gretchen’s.
Harry let me in. “Polly! What can I do for you?” He wore an apron and smelled of vanilla.
“Please. I need Liv. Can she come out, please?” I had meant to ask to come in, but I couldn’t face it.
“Liv!” he called over his shoulder, keeping me in sight. I had never heard him speak above a polite volume. I must have looked a wreck.
Liv came around the corner. “Polly?” she asked. We hadn’t spoken since the revelations at the gallery.
“Liv…” I said, and then my eyes cracked open to release a torrent of tears.
“Nick?” she asked, of course assuming that the worst had been discovered.
I shook my head, tossing tears to both sides. “No, no. At least, I don’t think so. I-please come with me.”
She told Harry that she had to go and pulled her jacket out of the closet next to the door. Her arm was in one green sleeve when Gretchen came up from behind. “What’s going on? Is there an emergency?” She sounded concerned but also annoyed.
“Please,” I said. Meaning, I just need to speak to my friend. But she took it differently. She insisted I come in and pulled on Liv’s arm.
She dragged us both into the lounge. Harry prepared hot drinks in the kitchen. Gretchen tried to be stern and parental with me, which was exactly the worst thing under the circumstances. I sobbed till I was almost choking. It was minutes before I could speak.
“My mother,” I croaked out. “My mother,” I said again, with a bit more control. I was getting it together.
“Is she hurt?” Liv asked. It was like Twenty Questions. All I could manage were short answers.
“No. No, she’s all right.” They waited for me to elaborate. I could only hiccup.
“Is she still in Cambridge?” Liv is so sensible. I really admire her.
“Yes, she’s here. She wouldn’t leave.”
“Polly.” Gretchen took me by the shoulders. “You’ve got to talk. You must.”
“Okay,” I said. Harry pressed a cup into my hand. It burned my fingers. That kind of got me together. “Okay. My mother’s been arrested. They took her away.”
“Harry,” Gretchen interjected. “Call Jim. He’ll have a recommendation for a solicitor.” Harry jogged upstairs. Gretchen continued: “Drink up. You’re in shock.”
“Thank you,” I said. I sipped. Time passed.
“I’m lost here,” Liv admitted. “What’s she been arrested for?”
Gretchen knew. She’d connected the dots.
“It’s Nicholas, Liv,” said Gretchen. I nodded to thank her, which was thoughtless.
Harry had come back. He put a pink Post-it on the table in front of me. “Grant Tisch. Would you like me to phone him for you?”
“No,” I said, honestly surprised. “No, I think she did it.”
Gretchen sat up straighter. “Harry, phone the man.”
Things happened around me. Liv gaped. I tried to protest the lawyer, but Gretchen was a force.
The room seemed to be growing larger. The cushions on the couch swelled up and pressed on all sides, lifting me up toward the ceiling. Liv and Gretchen lengthened before me. Liv asked, “Are you all right?” and I said, “Yes,” because I had no force of my own. I didn’t have it in me to explain anything to anyone.
The inside of my head had become bigger than the world around me. It was a terrible place.
Gretchen spoke to the solicitor in front of me, to reassure me that my mother was in good hands. She used a tone with him that suggested he should have preemptively prevented my mother from being arrested in the first place.
“Grant Tisch is going to meet your mother at the police station, Polly,” Gretchen said. Harry put food in front of me, which I ate, I think. Liv was doing whatever she was asked, and generally wringing her hands. I missed a lecture on “Order and Disorder in Material Science.”
No one asked me again what I think it was my mother did.
Gretchen put me into the guest room even though it was daytime. Gretchen has this way. It wasn’t physical how she did it, but with force nonetheless. I said, “I think I should go home now,” and she acted like she didn’t hear it.