“I seriously am most grateful,” she said. “If that dreadful man had got into their house, had put his hands on Amanda ever again . . .” She shuddered visibly and blinked at him. “You cannot know what she went through before she and I met.”
“I think I have an idea,” he said.
“And the child.”
“Your son.”
“Yes, mine.” She blew out a little breath. Of relief, or merely acknowledging the truth? “My . . . son. Though we shall never speak of him as such in the presence of others.”
“Understood. But he will learn someday.”
“Will he?” She frowned. “Amanda thinks we should tell him when he’s older. I believe such knowledge would only cause him pain, and much trouble. Better that he believes he’s the son of a fine London physician than the bastard of a reckless princess.”
He smiled at her. She was so beautiful, so young. Yet she’d been through so much. And all because she refused to confine herself to the role her family dictated for her.
He had heard the way ladies and gentlemen of the court, and the queen’s subjects, spoke of Louise. The “wild princess.” The young royal who fought her parents’ authority at every turn. She demanded the right to study art with commoners and—even more shocking—to sit in the same classes with men and learn what they learned. The princess who caroused in pubs and smoking dens with her Bohemian friends. Until something happened to cause her to settle down.
Gossip said Louise finally grew into adulthood and accepted her royal role. How could she not, with Victoria’s thumb on her? And now that she was married, they expected her husband would take over the reins and control her. He’d give her children to further anchor her to a respectable life. Like a ship caught up in a gale, if you took down her sails and threw out enough anchors, she’d eventually weather the storm. That’s what they thought.
Little do they know.
Byrne watched her sip her tea, select one of the smaller strips of bacon, and nibble it. She gave the appearance of being utterly at peace. But beneath the outward calm he sensed extraordinary effort. Against what forces was Louise fighting now?
He ate without speaking, forcing himself not to gulp down the food all at once. It tasted so good. He felt so good!
That was the best part of a fight. After it was over, you felt more alive than ever, because you had feared, and nearly known, the alternative. Because you’d straddled the line between life and death.
“The Fenians,” she said, out of the blue.
“Yes?” He lifted his eyes to fix on hers and felt as if he was tumbling into them.
“You are still on their trail? Still concerned that they will strike again?”
“I am, on both counts.”
She finished her bacon in one bite then stared out the window for a long while, as if in contemplation of the future. “Why are you doing this?”
Wasn’t it obvious? “It’s my job.”
“No, I mean, this isn’t your fight, Stephen. You are an American, not a subject of the Queen of England. You are putting your life on the line daily for us. These are dangerous men, desperate men. They will stop at nothing.” Her voice quavered with emotion. “Whether or not their cause is valid, what they do is not right. They kill innocent women and children who happen to be in the path of their bombs. They won’t hesitate to murder a man who has vowed to stop them.”
“True.” He studied her profile. It was so finely shaped, she might have been etched in glass or carved from pearly onyx. It seemed right that the sculptress should herself be perfect.
“I am going to ask the queen to dismiss you,” she said.
“What?” He stared at her. Of all the things she might have said to him, nothing could have shocked him more.
“I will tell her you fought again with Brown. Convince her that you are a dangerous influence on her Scot. She will have no choice but to send you home.”
He threw back his head and laughed.
She seemed startled by his reaction and pulled away to stare at him in confusion.
“You would lie to your mother to have me fired? Why?” Then it struck him. She thought she was protecting him. “You can’t believe that I would live my life any differently back in America than I am doing here.”
He saw the fear fill her eyes again. “I can’t watch you . . . watch you die for us!”
“But you can send me packing and never see me again? Is that what you want?”
She stood up abruptly, made it halfway to the door before he caught her around the waist. Byrne pulled her into his arms. He knotted his fingers through her hair, tugged her head back to turn her face up to meet his. He kissed her fiercely and long, and he didn’t release her delicious mouth from beneath his until he felt her body go limp in his embrace and she was fighting for air.
“Oh no!” she cried, staring at him, then kissed him back with equal urgency.
Within seconds, his soldier’s mind took over. Might we be discovered? Unlikely in this rarely used wing of the castle. Will anyone miss her? Yes, possibly, but why look here? Who knows I am here? Brown at least, maybe a servant. Then he remembered Lorne. The marquess had been here too, at least he thought so. A vague memory was coming back to him. Not good. Alternative locations for bedding the lady? None. Solution: barricade.
Byrne spun her around, gripped her shoulders, and without a word, sat her on the bed. He shifted the tea tray from chair seat to floor then wedged the chair back under the latch to prevent it from releasing or the door from swinging inward.
Satisfied, he turned to face Louise, half expecting her to have de-materialized. But she was still there, just as he’d left her. Even better, no questions clouded her beautiful eyes.
“I think Lorne knows,” she whispered.
His already racing heart leapt. His gut clenched, which made his ribs ache. “About us?”
“About me, at least. That my nature is too passionate to stay faithful to my vows.”
“He took vows too. If he cannot keep his—”
“Then why should I? It’s not that simple.”
The pain in her gaze broke his heart. How could any man not throw himself at her feet and beg for the honor of making love to her?
He hesitated, stepped closer to her. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“No,” she said, opening her lovely arms to him. “No talk. Not now.”
He went to her, fell down onto his one good knee, a supplicant. His arms closed around her waist. He laid his head in her lap—all memory of other women and other times gone.
“I have wanted you from the moment I first saw you,” he whispered into the blue satin ocean of her skirt.
“And I you,” she said, her voice husky with emotion.
She’d said no talk, but he couldn’t stop himself. This was too important to be done carelessly or without letting her know his concerns. “I am not your Donovan.”
She laughed. “No. Indeed you are not.”
“I won’t be his substitute.”
“Do stop talking and—” She brought his face up from her lap with her hands and leaned forward to kiss him softly, nibbling his lips again and again until he was driven to press his mouth hungrily over hers. Tasting her. Glorying in the flavors of her breath, the scent of her body. Rose petals and lavender, he thought.
He pressed her down onto the narrow mattress and disheveled linens, stretching his body over hers, holding his weight above her for fear of crushing her. But she would allow not even air to separate them. Reaching up, she wrapped her arms around his chest and brought him down hard on top of her. He winced at the twinge through his ribs.