She ignored the interruption and pushed on. “And I thought about myself. I’ve lived on my own for ten years and come to value my privacy. It’s been a good ten years. I have my embroidery and my magic and my climbing-though I won’t be doing any of that for the next year or so-and soon will have our daughter.”
I thought glumly that it was a sign of how much she valued her privacy that we were having this conversation here in the grove, not in her house.
“The cathedral probably won’t give me any more needlework once they decide I’m a loose woman, but I’ll still make a good living; I’ll be able to live for months on what the priests paid me these last few weeks.”
“So you don’t want anyone else disturbing your life.”
“That’s not what I’m saying. I’m saying I wouldn’t make a very satisfactory wife to a wandering magic worker. No matter how much I loved you, I’d miss my independence, and I’m afraid I’d take it out on you. No, I think I’m the kind of person who is much better for short visits than for a permanent stay.”
There didn’t seem to be any way to answer this, even though I knew she was wrong. Theodora would be highly satisfactory for a permanent stay. But I considered for a moment what she’d just said. “Then you wouldn’t mind if I visited you sometimes?”
“I would want you to visit as often as you could. You realize, Daimbert, there wasn’t anyone before you, and there won’t be anyone after you.”
She smiled, for the first time in a long time. I seemed to have agreed to an arrangement that in fact I still refused to accept. But I was tired of arguing, and she had said, undeniably, that she loved me- “Is it all right if I kiss you?”
The smile widened. “I’d been hoping you’d suggest that.”
The sun was low as I walked through the narrow city streets to the castle. I wondered vaguely if I was too late to get anything to eat.
Paul met me in the courtyard. “There you are. We wondered where you’d gone. You have a dinner invitation.”
“A dinner invitation.” This didn’t make any sense.
“A priest came by from the episcopal palace an hour ago. The bishop wants you to dine with him.”
“The bishop?” I repeated stupidly.
Paul laughed. “I thought you’d be flattered by the honor! There can’t be many wizards asked to dine by bishops the very evening of their enthronements.”
I managed to pull myself together. “Oh. Yes. The bishop. This will a good time to warn him.”
All summer I had known that if Joachim became bishop our long evening conversations would be over for good. But now he was bishop, and he still seemed willing to talk to me. I should have been delighted but felt no emotion at all. Besides, it would all be different.
“I’ve got something else to tell you,” said Paul, somewhat sheepishly. “I know you didn’t want me to ride Bonfire. But I did anyway. I can’t believe Vincent meant him as a trap, and, besides, I couldn’t help myself. Was there ever something you wanted to do so badly you didn’t care about the consequences?”
I nodded without speaking.
“Bonfire really is as gentle as a kitten, and can he run! He’s even faster than those horses in the borderlands.”
“All right, then, but be careful,” I said inadequately. I hurried inside to scrub my face and to brush the bits of grass out of my hair and beard.
As I walked toward the cathedral a few minutes later, I tried to recall all the concerns I had about a forthcoming attack from an evil wizard. I had feared no one in the Church would be willing to listen, but if Joachim had invited me to dinner he would certainly let me speak.
A young and rather nervous acolyte met me at the palace door, but inside I was pleased to see Joachim’s silent servant, apparently forgiven for his complicity in Norbert’s plot. He nodded gravely and motioned me toward the study.
“Uh, Your Holiness-” I began awkwardly, dipping my head and wondering if Joachim expected me to kneel.
The bishop had been reading his Bible, but he immediately rose to greet me, taking both my arms in his strong grip. “I am glad you were willing to come,” he said with a smile, a genuine smile such as I had not seen on his face very often. “I had been afraid you would refuse. You have been out all afternoon, I understand? You must be starving. Come into the dining room, and we can eat at once.” He wore his ordinary black vestments again rather than the scarlet robes of this morning, although the ruby ring was still on his finger. He looked more comfortable and relaxed than I could remember seeing him for a long time. “And don’t call me Your Holiness, Daimbert, unless you expect me to start calling you Your Wizardliness!”
The candles were lit, and the bishop’s servant brought the soup. I sat down in something of a fog, but as soon as we started to eat I realized that he was right; I was starving.
“I want to thank you, and I want to apologize,” said Joachim. “You removed the magical danger to the cathedral, at much greater personal risk than I had anticipated-although I should have known better. When I got your telephone message last week I drew a relaxed breath for the first time this summer.”
I had to warn him that the magical danger was not all gone, but he was still talking.
“And all the time that you were marshalling your forces against the monster, I selfishly ignored you. I was so caught up in my own concerns, worrying about the bishop, worrying about whether I would be elected myself, that I paid no attention to you. But now the bishop is safely in Abraham’s bosom, and I have been elected to succeed him, for good or ill. I think all the members of the cathedral chapter had a serious lapse of judgment, but, with the help of God I will at least not lead my flock into evil.”
“As you know,” I said, “I’d always thought you’d be a good bishop. And, do you remember?” with a fair approximation of a smile. “I promised you two things if you were elected. I said that I’d go to the land of wild magic, and I’ve done so-or at least to the borderlands, which were wild enough for me. And I promised that I’d try to work with you, to find ways that wizards and priests could stop distrusting each other.”
This might be hard, I realized, since the first thing I was going to tell him was that there was an evil wizard loose in the twin kingdoms. But the servant came back before I could say anything more, to take away our soup bowls and serve the lamb and carrots.
“Put the cheese and fruit on the side table,” said Joachim, “along with the rest of the wine. We can serve ourselves.”
The servant closed the door behind him as he left. Joachim turned his enormous dark eyes on me. “Now I’d like you to tell me what’s really bothering you.”
“I’m afraid a wizard I haven’t been able to find is plotting some massive attack,” I said. “It was he who called the gorgos, and I can’t even imagine what he’s planning next.”
Joachim had put down his fork and was watching my face.
“I don’t know where he is now. I came back from the borderlands as fast as I could because I was terrified he might try to attack the cathedral at your election the way he did at the old bishop’s funeral. Nothing happened, and I can find no sign of wild magic in the city, but that may only mean he hasn’t been able to get a new monster from the north-yet. And I doubt I’ll be able to get any support from the wizards’ school.”
The bishop nodded gravely, still watching me. “But you don’t sound as though you anticipate a magical attack tonight.”
“No, or at least I hope not.”
“Good. Then you can tell me all about it a little later.” He took a few bites, then looked at me again. “Right now you can tell me what’s happened to you, you personally, these last few months. Because something has happened which has affected you even more profoundly than your fight with the monster.”
I forced myself to adopt a light tone. “What makes you think something out of the ordinary has happened to me, besides of course nearly being killed by a gorgos?”