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It had been a slow morning, with the guests still adjusting to their accommodations, the rooms in Inglewood House draftier, Norvill imagined, than they were probably used to. The large east-facing windows in the guest wing let the sun in early, which would have woken anyone whose curtains hadn’t been secured, provided the noise of the servants lighting fires and rustling through the corridors hadn’t already done so. Norvill would have done things differently, of course — ensured no one was disturbed, sent breakfast to the rooms at a later hour. But, as the older of the two brothers, George resided on the estate, an act with which he staked further claim on both his authority and their mother’s affection. When he wasn’t away on his expeditions, he continued in his role as sole executor of the family’s diminishing fortune, which was why Norvill was rowing across the midriff of the lake, and George was sitting in front of him pointing up to the rock face that backed it, explaining how the prickly white stalks of the Spiraea ariaefolia rooted themselves in the nooks of such a vertical plane.

Norvill leaned sideways to press the right oar into service and the prow angled toward the sandy ledge of the shore. Really, when he thought about it, George ought to be rowing. After all, the exploring party was a means of getting everyone outdoors so that George might show off some of his recent plantings, an entertainment wed to his desire to procure expedition funding from the Suttons and his need to appear to all as a man to whom things came easily, a man who could make an afternoon tea worthy of a monarch appear by a lake without so much as a hint of sweat above his scarred and bristle-covered lip. But, Norvill had to admit, it suited him, this delegation of duties. He had rowed briefly at university, and still had some trace of an athlete’s physique. The rowing required him to remove his jacket and roll up his shirt sleeves. He felt himself wholly present in that, at least, in the act of moving things forward by will, stroke after stroke across the waveless water.

The weekend had been Norvill’s idea. One night at the club Edmund had mentioned that he was travelling up to Keighley to look at a small cotton mill, and Norvill had suggested that Charlotte take the journey with him; they’d be welcome to stop up at Inglewood and stay with George. George, sensing an opportunity, had then invited the Suttons. Roger Sutton owned a successful ironworks business and his wife came from plantation money; they’d helped support one of George’s first trips to the Himalayas and always enjoyed a bit of society. They, too, had heard of Edmund’s growing collection and thought the idea of his museum “quaint.” Once Sutton and his wife had accepted, Norvill decided he’d rather not be left out, after which Charlotte asked permission to bring the children. That settled, Norvill presented himself at Kings Cross station on the appointed morning and he, Edmund, Charlotte, the children and their governess caught the first train to Leeds. The plan was to alight there and to lunch at a hotel along the river that George had recommended and then to take the branch line on to Moorgate, and a carriage from there.

The hotel in Leeds turned out to be quite popular. It was bustling and bright with round, linen-clothed tables and high-backed chairs dotting the main room, and white wicker chairs and low tables set up in the conservatory. The waiters carried their silver trays at such a height one could see oneself reflected on the polished bottoms. By the time they had set their napkins down and Charlotte and the children had rustled off to peruse the sweet shop little Celia had noticed on the high street, Norvill had confirmed that things were progressing exactly as he’d hoped: Charlotte was, once again, responding positively and almost openly to his gestures of affection while Edmund, distracted by the prospect of investing in a new mill, seemed completely unaware of where and how his wife was bestowing her attentions.

Earlier, sitting across from her in the train carriage, his knees inches from her skirts, Norvill had at first sensed nothing. Charlotte was tolerating him as if he were a stranger, as if the fervid kiss in the museum months before, as if two years of stolen moments — moments that both exhilarated and humiliated him — had never occurred. And so, to distract himself, he’d spent an hour trying to engage young Thomas with lessons on the formation of mountains and valleys, only half attending to the boy’s questions and therefore unsure whether or not the principles of lateral continuity and vulcanism were being properly grasped. He’d quoted parts of Lyell’s Principles of Geology, pointing out the window at the sloping valleys, and had stared overlong at Charlotte over Thomas’s head, raising an eyebrow at her when she turned from the window to chide Celia and Ned for jostling each other for the better view. To his mind he was demonstrating a kind of paternal attention toward Edmund and Charlotte’s eldest, though truth be told he preferred the younger children. There was a clamminess about Thomas, a veneer of constant effort, as if even the simple act of getting his brain to properly register the age of the earth involved expending a prodigious amount of energy. When they came to the topic of the transporting power of running water Norvill almost imagined he could see turbines start to spin under the glistening furrow of the boy’s brow.

A half hour before they alighted, the issue of sub-marine forests behind him, Norvill began to talk himself out of furthering his relationship with Charlotte; he decided to imagine that he had misread her intentions, or that it was possible he had not been clear in his. During an overdue conversation with Edmund about implementing a board of trustees at the Chester he even began to feel a fissure of guilt, a creeping nausea from the idea of what the break in faith might do to Edmund. The thought of putting Charlotte in such a predicament unnerved him too, though every time he imagined having her to himself, doing certain things to her, these thoughts abated.

They were almost at Inglewood — Norvill gazing out at the cottage houses and trying to imagine what being liberated from his obsession might mean — when Charlotte leaned across the carriage, dropped her gloved hand onto his knee and brushed away a feather that had flitted down from her hat. Norvill looked at his knee and then up at her face, watched as her gaze dropped lightly onto his. A darting glance confirmed that Edmund was deep into his papers beside her, the children following a story the governess was reading dully. Every muscle of Norvill’s body was held in check against his desire to grasp Charlotte’s pearl-buttoned wrist, to fasten her hand with his. Charlotte watched his face studiously, as if to measure her effect. And so he held her gaze as if from a dare, moved his neck against his starched collar, remembering the nick he’d suffered that morning at the end of his razor, willing himself not to reach up to check it for blood.

William, in his lecture, did not mention Charlotte by name. Some of us were ogling the canapés, and some of us were studying the guests, but we all noticed the omission. Those of us closest to Jane were marvelling at how she inserted her own version of events into William’s, how when he said “they travelled by train on the Friday,” Jane immediately placed Charlotte across from Norvill in the coach, and anticipated how the presence of Edmund and the children would force them to behave a certain way. Even then, after the lecture, as we struggled to untie William’s banal account from Jane’s embellishments, and both their versions from the hazy dream that is our own, we were conflicted. There are truths and there are the stories one wants to hear, though we crave both — share a desperate need to locate ourselves in a place, to understand why William’s lecture could so vividly evoke a row of chestnut trees or a bedroom mirror or the view over the lawns from George Farrington’s private library. One of us is convinced that he was once a guest there. Some of us knew only the woods, how the edge of the Farrington property ran right up to the asylum, Farrington’s trees waving their arms at us over a stone wall while we walked in circles over the viewing mound.