“You want me to show you what it’s like to be held captive?”
At that, Manny stands up on his feet, bringing me right along with him. He places me gently on the ground, his crazy eyes watching Cain’s.
“What the fuck is wrong with you, man? Get your goddamned shit together. She’s your fucking wife, you asshole. Now, she isn’t going with me, because she belongs with you. I love you like a brother, dude, but treat her like your damn wife and not like you treat every other asshole around you. Christ, Cain! Sometimes I think I don’t even fucking know you anymore. And fucking tell her the goddamned truth.”
Cain sucks in a deep breath. I feel like shit for putting Manny in the middle like this by suggesting I stay with him. Stepping in between the two men, I place a hand on each of their chests, directing my attention to Manny first.
“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said what I did. I’m feeling helpless, ripped apart layer by layer. Thank you for being a friend. I’ll be fine.”
I whirl in Cain’s direction.
“And you! I’m not staying in that house. If you want me to stay with you, then fine, but have the damned decency to take me somewhere else. Preferably with a spare room, because I sure as shit will not be sleeping with you. Leave me there. Lock me up while you tend to your little club whore. Do whatever it is you have to do, and do it fast, because I want the hell out of here.”
“I’m fucking gone,” Manny states before he turns back in the direction we came from, leaving me standing in the dark facing a man who I don’t know anymore. And if I were to be honest with myself, I’m afraid of this stranger standing before me.
“I’m going to let your smart mouth slip just this one last time. If you ever speak to me in front of anyone like that again, I will take you over my knee and beat your ass. And it won’t be the kind of spanking that will bring you pleasure.”
I shake my head, dumbfounded. Beat me? Oh, my God. He’s cracked.
“What happened to you? I’m regretting ever loving you at all, Cain, because you are being so childish right now. So arrogant. Tell me how I’m supposed to act? Do you want me to sit by your side like a good little girl? Do you want me to be the good wife and stay home? Wait for you to come to me at night, hoping like hell you haven’t been with someone else? Or better yet, worry that someone may knock on the door at any given moment and say, ‘I’m sorry to inform you, Mrs. Bexley, but your husband is dead’? I’m your wife on paper only, and you’re the one who made sure of that. I’m not your plaything. And you will never put your hands me. I’m nothing to you. NOTHING!”
Cain hisses at me and grabs my arm hard, causing me to stumble forward. He’s pulling me God knows where, half-dragging me as I teeter back and forth on my bloodied and bruised up feet trying to hold myself upright. I flinch, then cry out in pain.
“Cain, stop! You’re hurting me!”
He isn’t listening.
“Ow!” I scream, my body tumbling to the ground.
“Fuck!” Cain roars, releasing his grip.
I try backing up, to get away, but he’s too quick. He picks me up and carries me in his arms. I want to scream, but my vocal cords are paralyzed. I kick, claw, and escape from this wild animal.
He effortlessly hauls me up a few steps, a light flicking on when we hit the top. I blink my eyes rapidly, adjusting to the light. In no time, the door is flung open. Cain kicks it closed before I get any chance at all to see my surroundings. For the first time since I’ve known him, reality sinks into my veins. My Cain is gone. He has been replaced by a psychopath. A stranger.
“Sit, stay, and shut the hell up.”
He sets me down gently on what feels like a couch. I don’t know; it’s still pitch black in here.
Cain fumbles around, turning on several lights. Once my vision adjusts to the lighting, I look down my arm and see his finger marks embedded into my skin. My big toe is also bleeding. The side of my head hurts like hell.
Cain looks from my face, to my arm, to my toe, then walks directly out of the room without another word. I hear him swearing and the thuds of cupboard doors being slammed before he walks back in a few minutes later with a wet towel in his hands.
I wish he would talk, say something. Anything at all. I start choking back my sobs.
“Cain, you’re really scaring me right now.”
I sit there and cry again, getting no comfort from him at all. He’s probably going to tie me up, chain me to a bed, and leave me there.
“Give me your feet,” he says finally, patting his leg, indicating for me to place them there.
My shoulders sag in defeat and I do as he asks. I’m tired, hungry, and dirty. The slit in the side of my skirt is torn, exposing more leg than I would normally let anyone see, especially the man whose rough hands are delicately touching my feet. Warm, inviting hands, inspecting both the top and bottoms of each foot and then delicately placing them back on his muscular thighs.
His big hands start to work on cleaning up my stubbed big toe. He’s gentle when washing away the grimy dirt and blood, though I wince at the sting of the wet towel and try to move my foot out of his hold. He inspects each foot after he has them wiped clean. Reaching down beside him, he brings up a small tube of some sort of antibacterial medication. Working meticulously, he places dabs of the soothing gel on my scrapes.
“Here, drink this and take these,” he orders, handing me a small glass of water and two pills I didn’t see him holding when he came in a few minutes ago.
I hesitate before taking them, which Cain notices.
“It’s aspirin for the pain,” he says gruffly. “You have a nasty bruise forming on the side of your face. I know you must have a headache and your feet are hurt. Now take them.”
I place both pills on my tongue and wash them down with the entire glass of water.
“Thank you,” I mumble, removing my foot from his leg.
His hands begin to trail gently up my limbs. Smooth, circular strokes send a thrill of pleasure up my spine. Never once does his gaze lift to meet mine. He’s focused on his task, almost as if he is transfixed, worshipping. He suddenly stops when he reaches my knees.
“You’re going to hate me even more for what I’m about to say to you,” he says, shifting his gaze to where my hands rest in my lap.
My eyes wander around the room as I wait for him to continue, finally taking in my surroundings. Whose home is this? It’s stunning. Everything about it screams a man lives here. Black leather couch, matching chair. Wide screen television hanging on the wall. Dark wood blinds on the windows. That’s it, besides a table next to the chair. The deep greenish-blue color of the walls is what really catches my eye, though. It’s enthralling. The deep green fades into blue like a changing kaleidoscope. It… it reminds me of my eyes.
I shake my turmoil-filled head. Black furniture, the shades of the walls...
This is his house.
Everything Manny told me earlier bursts forth in my thoughts. Cain’s hurting. Seeing this is proof to me that he is. My insides shatter. All of a sudden, I’m not frightened of him anymore.
It’s difficult to describe what I am feeling right now, though. It’s almost like a jolt, a forceful sensation deep in my gut telling me to hang on for dear life. I’m torn in two directions. Seeing the tormented expression on his face makes me want to reach out, run the tips of my fingers through his hair, and tell him to just say what he needs to say. Another part of me wants to rip his balls off, shove them up his ass, and tell him to go fuck himself.
But even more so, there’s something powerful trying to claw its way out from under the surface of my skin, to tear away the brick exterior safely guarding my beaten down heart. Even after six years, I still love him. I try to swallow my emotions before I speak.
“Why would I hate you more? What is it?”