Rowan has to be dressed. Polina will walk him across the park to his nursery school. Elizabeth has a doctor’s appointment: her thirty-six-week check-up. Her life is about numbers. Eight months pregnant. Seven years married. Five days alone. She can picture the last time she saw North. He went to work at the normal time. Kissed her goodbye. She lingered with her lips pressed against his. She and Rowan were going up to the Lake District to spend the weekend with her best friend from university. They didn’t come back until Sunday afternoon. She had tried to call North all day, but he wasn’t answering. She caught a cab from Euston Station and found the house in darkness. Inside it looked like it had undergone a subtle alteration, as if someone had cleaned up after a party but hadn’t managed to put things back precisely where they’d been. Her jewelry was missing. Her passport. Her spare credit card, the ugly gold watch she inherited from her Aunt Catherine…
Elizabeth kept trying to call North, sending him text messages and emails. Finally she phoned her father. Sitting on the edge of the bed, cupping her hand over the mouthpiece, she spoke in whispers so that Rowan wouldn’t hear her.
The family swung into action, calling hospitals, clinics, homeless shelters and finally the police. Two young constables came the next day and took a statement about the robbery.
“You’ll need this for insurance purposes,” said the constable.
“What about my husband?”
“I don’t think your policy covers him.”
The officers laughed. It was a joke. Elizabeth stared numbly at them. By then her mind was full of terrible scenarios: North disturbing burglars or being abducted, or worse.
A large drop of honey has dripped on her blouse. Elizabeth looks at the stain and wants to cry. Hormones.
Rowan is standing at the kitchen door watching her.
“Is you all right, Mummy?”
“I’m fine.”
“Why is you crying?”
“I’m having a sad day.”
“When Daddy comes home you’ll be happy.”
“Yes, I will.”
2
Standing outside the police station in London Road, Elizabeth gazes at the three-storey red-brick building squeezed between a hairdressing salon and the head office of the Richmond amp; Twickenham Times. Be polite but firm, she tells herself. Don’t be fobbed off.
Rowan is dressed in a Spiderman T-shirt and mask. The eyeholes are slightly too wide for his head, which means that only one eye is visible at any given time. He flicks his “web finger” at passing pedestrians who are either arch-villains or super-villains. Elizabeth isn’t an expert on comic book bad guys.
The uniformed officer at the front desk is a woman and she’s not carrying a gun. Rowan is a little disappointed. He was expecting a fellow crime-fighter who could compare weaponry with him and swap tales of saving the world. After waiting forty-five minutes they are taken upstairs through a cluttered open-plan office that looks reassuringly productive.
The detective constable is called Carter and he’s wearing a jacket and tie. He’s quite handsome except for a buzz-cut that makes his ears look like jug handles.
“Please sit down, Mrs. North. Tea? Coffee? Water?”
“No, thank you.”
DC Carter glances at her pregnancy and then smiles hesitantly at Rowan, who has crawled onto Elizabeth’s lap and is staring at him with the intensity that only young children can produce.
“Have you heard from your husband?”
“I wouldn’t be here if I’d heard from my husband.”
There is an awkward pause and DC Carter uses the moment to open the file on his desk.
“It has only been forty-eight hours,” he says.
“It has been five days.”
“Yes, but technically we don’t class a person as missing until a certain amount of time has elapsed.”
“How long?”
“That depends upon the circumstances.”
Rowan slips out of her arms and is now sitting on the floor linking paperclips together into a chain.
Elizabeth looks back at the detective. “What are you doing to try to find him?”
“Your husband is also over the age of eighteen and not considered vulnerable, Mrs. North.”
“What does that mean?”
“He’s not at risk of suicide or self-harm.”
The words sound too harsh. He tries to make amends. “Your husband may have decided to spend a few days away, getting his head together. It happens sometimes.”
“He wouldn’t do that without telling me.”
The detective looks at her tiredly. She’s not going to make it easy for him. Consulting her statement, he goes over the details again.
“Your husband works for a bank.”
“He’s a compliance officer at Mersey Fidelity.”
“Was he having any problems?”
“He was very busy.”
“There is evidence that he used his ATM card at a machine in Regent Street early on Saturday morning. He also bought clothes in Oxford Street on Sunday.”
“North never buys clothes-he hates shopping.”
“Somebody used his cards.”
“I told you we were robbed. It’s in my statement. My jewelry is missing… our passports.”
“Perhaps your husband was planning a trip.”
“We were planning a baby.”
DC Carter smiles at her as though she’s being feeble and irrational. It’s the same look her father used to give Elizabeth when they argued during her childhood.
“Is there anyone your husband could be staying with?”
“No.”
“What about the other woman?”
“What other woman?”
“You hired a private detective because you thought your husband might be having an affair.”
Elizabeth looks at Rowan, who is playing with a stapler and a piece of paper.
“I was worried about North. I knew something was bothering him.”
“So you hired someone to follow him?”
“Yes.”
“Why didn’t you just ask him?”
Elizabeth can feel her features becoming squashed and color rising in her cheeks.
“Don’t patronize me, Detective. Of course I asked him, but he wouldn’t tell me. We argued. I got upset. Nothing changed.”
“Something made you suspicious.”
“I didn’t know what he was doing. I didn’t have any evidence. North said he loved me. I had a friend who recommended an agency. She’d been through a divorce.”
“Were you considering divorcing your husband?”
“No, not at all! Never.”
There is a cry of pain. Rowan has punched a staple through the webbing of his hand. One tooth of the staple is sticking from his skin. Elizabeth holds him tightly and pulls the barb free, kissing away his pain and his tears.
3
Ruiz walks the surrounding streets, interviewing neighbors and passers-by, asking questions the police should have asked. Did anyone see a young woman? She was running. Which way did she go? What sort of boat? Two fishermen. Where did they take her? Upriver.
The men who came looking for Holly were professionals. They drove all-wheel-drive vehicles with heavily tinted windows. They wore dark clothing. Soft shoes. They were trained for this. How does someone train for this? Drowning kittens? Torturing animals?
She managed to get away, but where would she go? Out of London, if she has any sense. Somewhere safe. She needs a friend with a spare room or a sofa bed, someone who doesn’t appear on her phone records or in her address book. How long can she stay hidden? If she doesn’t use her mobile, if she doesn’t call family or friends, if she doesn’t break the law and get caught, if she doesn’t visit a doctor, or withdraw money, or apply for a job…
She’s not going to call him. She probably blames him for what happened.
Ruiz thinks of his own children and how he abandoned them after Laura died. Fled the memories. Replaced one horror with another. He lost himself in Bosnia, Sarajevo under siege, where snipers gunned down people as they queued for bread and collected water. He can remember flowers in the flower boxes, climbing roses that clung to the whitewashed walls like living tapestries.