She looks up at me, grinning as she throws a shimmery black dress at my face. “Tonight, we’re going to find you a guy.”
I set the dress down on the bed and run my fingers along the glittery fabric, smoothing out the wrinkles. “I don’t need to find a guy.”
“Liar. You so need to find a guy, so you can get over that Kyler dude.”
During a drunken conversation, I told Indigo about Kyler. She wasn’t a huge fan of my crush on him, and said I deserved a guy who actually tried to spend time with me. I wanted to argue that we technically have spent time together, but knew my point was probably moot, since a few weekends doesn’t really count.
Knowing there’s no point in arguing with her, I get up and wiggle into the dress then curl my hair. I apply some dark red lipstick and kohl eyeliner then add a drop of eye glitter, just because I love looking sparkly sometimes. Since I’m a newbie at the hair and makeup thing, I make sure to get Indigo’s approval.
“You look fantastic,” she says, admiring my handiwork as she douses her hair in hairspray. “Seriously, you’ve caught onto this whole makeup and hair stuff way faster than I expected you to.”
“Thanks.” While I appreciate her approval, there are times where I still feel like the girl with shiny brown and green hair, wearing the glittery, probably too short dress isn’t me. That I look ridiculous and everyone around me knows it.
My phone suddenly buzzes from the nightstand. Indigo and I trade a quizzical look, because the thing never goes off.
I hurry over and pick it up, worried there might be something wrong at home. But my confusion only deepens when I see the message is from Kai.
Kai: U haven’t sent me any pics yet :( At first I thought maybe it’s because u forgot all about your cute, sexy neighbor next door, but then I realized how impossible that could be and started worrying that maybe something bad happened to u. That’s it, right? Something bad happened to u?
Me: So you’re saying u would rather something bad happen to me?
Kai: Ha! I knew that’d get u to respond.
Me: Whatever. I was never ignoring u, since this is the first time u sent me a message.
Kai: I didn’t want to seem too needy. But then I realized it wasn’t about me. It was about your wellbeing.
I roll my eyes. I can almost picture Kai smiling as he texts me, totally amused with himself.
Kai: So where’s my pic?
“You should probably send him the one we took at the top of the Eiffel Tower. You looked amazing in it,” Indigo says, reading the message from over my shoulder. “But first, you have to explain to me who Kai is.”
“He’s Kyler’s young brother who loves to annoy me,” I say, sinking down on the bed.
She coils a strand of her hair around her finger. “Annoy you, huh?” She seems wistful about something. “Because from what I read through the text, he seems like he’s flirting with you.”
I laugh so hard I almost pee myself. “Kai isn’t flirting with me. Trust me. He’s just made it his life mission to annoy the crap out of me.” I start to send Kai the pic Indigo suggested, but then stop myself.
I don’t fully understand why. Part of me whispers that my hesitancy is that I don’t trust him. But the other part of me whispers that I’m just not ready to take these moments overseas—this fantasy world I’ve been living, where I feel like I can be anyone and do anything—and share it with my old life.
Me: Don’t have any cool pics yet. Sorry.
I leave it at that and put my phone away. He doesn’t reply. I don’t know why I’m surprised or a tiny bit disappointed, but I am. The sucky part is I don’t know what I’m more disappointed about—Kai’s silence, or the fact I was too afraid to send him a damn photo.
I shake the feeling off, though, and focus on tonight. I focus on my next life experience, because that’s what I should be doing.
FOUR HOURS LATER, Indigo and I get in line to ride the London Eye, a ginormous Ferris wheel with oval passenger pods that are covered in windows that are supposed to give you a great view of the city. Indigo and I met Peter just before we got in line to get on, and Peter just happened to bring along his friend, Nyle. Although, I don’t think it was by accident. This is a setup. I get that. What I don’t get is what I’m supposed to do with this cute British guy who keeps looking at me like I’m adorable.
“You want me to get us a drink or something before we get on?” Nyle asks, seeming almost as nervous as I am.
I try to smile like Indigo does all the time, whenever she’s flirting. “Sure. That sounds great.”
He smiles before stepping out of the line to head over to the concession stand.
Indigo gives me this knowing look and I have no idea how to react. Just what exactly does she think is going to happen on this fun-filled Ferris wheel ride of ours?
I shake my head at her then take in the sights around me, the bright lights, the soft music from the street performs, and the energized buzz in the air.
“It’s a beautiful night, isn’t it?” Nyle asks when he returns to the line.
I tear my attention off the starry sky and catch him checking me out. He smiles sheepishly at me as he hands me a bottle of Coke.
“Yeah, it’s really pretty here.” I twist the cap off the bottle and glug down a few swallows, giving myself some time to figure out what to say to him.
It’s not that I’m shy, but I don’t feel as comfortable around him as I do with people I know.
We spend the next ten minutes in awkward silence before we make it to the front of the line and get onto the Ferris wheel. While Indigo chats with Peter about New York, Nyle gets a nervous energy boost and starts babbling to me about himself. I try to listen. I really do. But his opening liner is that he’s a math major, and I end up zoning in and out of the conversation, more fascinated with the breathtaking view than the guy next to me.
I feel like an asshole. I mean, Nyle is trying to get to know me, telling me about his classes, his love for numbers, canoeing, and water polo. I nod my head every so often and offer him a few smiles. He has to be getting exhausted of me and my silence; at least, that’s what I figure when he suddenly grows quiet. But when I look at him, he’s leaning in for a kiss.
“You’re really beautiful, you know that?” he whispers, his gaze flicking back and forth between my eyes and my lips. “And a really good listener.”
So I’ve been told, I think as his lips inch toward mine.
I hesitate, deciding. Just kiss him, even though I have no interest in him? The idea seems both appealing and appalling. I mean, on the one hand, he’s super cute, if you like that preppy, slacks-and-sweater sort of look. On the other hand, I’ve been bored to death the entire last couple of hours.
“Hey, Isa, come chat with me for a sec, would you?” Indigo interrupts the moment, grabbing me by the arm and towing me to the opposite side of the pod, away from listening ears. “What are you doing?” she whispers, glancing back at Peter and Nyle.
“Um, hanging out,” I reply, super confused by the astounded look on her face.
“No, I mean with Nyle,” she hisses, unzipping her purse. “It looked like you were about to faint when he leaned in to kiss you.”
I scrunch up my nose. “You were watching that?”
“Don’t pretend like I’m some pervert. I was just keeping an eye on you, like I promised you I would.” She pulls out a tube of lipstick and applies a coat to her lips. “Now, do you want to tell me why you looked sickened over the fact that a hot guy wants to kiss you?”