“But I’m suffering. My heart feels like it could rip right out of my chest because this child has put himself in danger.” I patted the wrinkled fabric back into place. “Mild danger. Venus is no Luna.”
Nervous laughter from the crowd. Long Meng hovered at my side.
“Crèche work is like no other human endeavor,” I said. “Nothing else offers such potential for failure, sorrow, and loss. But no work is as important. You all know that, or you wouldn’t be here.”
Long Meng squeezed my shoulder. I patted her hand. “Raising children is only for true believers.”
Not long after our seminar ended, Tré boarded Venus’s circum-planetary chuteway and chose a pod headed for Vanavara. The pod’s public feed showed five other passengers: a middle-aged threesome who weren’t interested in anything but each other, a halo-haired young adult escorting a floating tank of live eels, and a broad-shouldered brawler with deeply scarred forearms.
Tré waited for the other passengers to sit, then settled himself into a corner seat. I pinged him. No answer.
“We should have had him intercepted,” I said.
Long Meng and I sat in the back of the auditorium. A choir group had taken over the stage. Bots were attempting to set up risers, but the singers were milling around, blocking their progress.
“He’ll be okay.” Long Meng squeezed my knee. “Less than five hours to Vanavara. None of the passengers are going to do anything to him.”
“You don’t know that.”
“Nobody would risk it. Venus has strict penalties for physical violence.”
“Is that the worst thing you can think of?” I flashed a pointer at the brawler. “One conversation with that one in a bad mood could do lifelong damage to anyone, much less a kid.”
We watched the feed in silence. At first the others kept to themselves, but then the brawler stood, pulled down a privacy veil, and sauntered over to sit beside Tré.
“Oh no,” I moaned.
I zoomed in on Tré’s face. With the veil in place, I couldn’t see or hear the brawler. All I could do was watch the kid’s eyes flicker from the window to the brawler and back, monitor his stress indicators, and try to read his body language. Never in my life have I been less equipped to make a professional judgement about a kid’s state of mind. My mind boiled with paranoia.
After about ten minutes—an eternity—the brawler returned to their seat.
“It’s fine,” said Long Meng. “He’ll be with us soon.”
Long Meng and I met Tré at the chuteway dock. It was late. He looked tired, rumpled, and more than a little sulky.
“Venus is stupid,” he said.
“That’s ridiculous, a planet can’t be stupid,” Long Meng snapped. She was tired, and hadn’t planned on spending the last night of her vacation waiting in a transit hub.
Let me handle this, I whispered.
“Are you okay? Did anything happen in the pod?” I tried to sound calm as I led him to the slideway.
He shrugged. “Not really. This oldster was telling me how great his hab is. Sounded like a hole.”
I nearly collapsed with relief.
“Okay, good,” I said. “We were worried about you. Why did you leave the group?”
“I didn’t realize it would take so long to get anywhere,” Tré said.
“That’s not an answer. Why did you run off?”
“I don’t know.” The kid pretended to yawn—one of the Jewel Box’s clearest tells for lying. “Venus is boring. We should’ve saved our credits.”
“What does that mean?”
“Everybody else was happy looking at rocks. Not me. I wanted to get some value out of this trip.”
“So you jumped a slideway?”
“Uh huh.” Tré pulled a protein snack out of his pocket and stuffed it in his mouth. “I was just bored. And I’m sorry. Okay?”
“Okay.” I fired up the leaderboard and zeroed out Tré’s score. “You’re on a short leash until we get home.”
We got the kid a sleep stack near ours, then Long Meng and I had a drink in the grubby travelers’ lounge downstairs.
“How are you going to find out why he left?” asked Long Meng. “Pull his feeds? Form a damage mitigation team? Plan an intervention?”
I picked at the fabric on the arm of my chair. The plush nap repaired itself as I dragged a ragged thumbnail along the armrest.
“If I did, Tré would learn he can’t make a simple mistake without someone jumping down his throat. He might shrug off the psychological effects, or it could inflict long-term damage.”
“Right. Like you said in the seminar. You can’t know.”
We finished our drinks and Long Meng helped me to my feet. I hung my cane from my forearm and tucked both hands into the crease of her elbow. We slowly climbed upstairs. I could have pinged a physical assistance bot, but my hands were cold, and my friend’s arm was warm.
“Best to let this go,” I said. “Tré’s already a cautious kid. I won’t punish him for taking a risk.”
“I might, if only for making me worry. I guess I’ll never be a crèche manager.” She grinned.
“And yet you want to go to Luna and build a new crèche system.”
Long Meng’s smile vanished. “I shouldn’t have sprung that on you, Jules.”
In the morning, the two young people rose bright and cheery. I was aching and bleary but put on a serene face. We had just enough time to catch a concert before heading up the umbilical to our shuttle home. We made our way to the atrium, where Tré boggled at the soaring views, packed slideways, clustered performance and game surfaces, fountains, and gardens. The air sparkled with nectar and spices, and underneath, a thick, oily human funk.
We boarded a riser headed to Vanavara’s orchestral pits. A kind Venusian offered me a seat with a smile. I thanked him, adding, “That would never happen on Luna.”
I drew Long Meng close as we spiraled toward the atrium floor.
Just forget about the proposal, I whispered. The moon is a lost cause.
A little more than a year later, Ricochet was on approach for Earth. The Jewel Box were nearly ready to leave the crèche. Bruce and the rest of my team were planning to start a new one, and they warmly assured me I’d always be welcome to visit. I tried not to weep about it. Instead, I began spending several hours a day helping provide round-the-clock cuddles to a newborn with hydrocephalus.
As far as I knew, Long Meng had given up the Luna idea. Then she cornered me in the dim-lit nursery and burst my bubble.
She quietly slid a stool over to my rocker, cast a professional eye over the cerebrospinal fluid-exchange membrane clipped to the baby’s ear, and whispered, We made the short list.
That’s great, I replied, my cheek pressed to the infant’s warm, velvety scalp.
I had no idea what she was referring to, and at that moment I didn’t care. The scent of a baby’s head is practically narcotic, and no victory can compare with having coaxed a sick child into restful sleep.
It means we have to go to Luna for a presentation and interview.
Realization dawned slowly. Luna? I’m not going to Luna.
Not you, Jules. Me and my team. I thought you should hear before the whole hab starts talking.
I concentrated on keeping my rocking rhythm steady before answering. I thought you’d given that up.
She put a gentle hand on my knee. I know. You told me not to pursue it and I considered your advice. But it’s important, Jules. Luna will restart its crèche program one way or another. We can make sure they do it right.
I fixed my gaze pointedly on her prognathous jaw. You don’t know what it’s like there. They’ll roast you alive just for looking different.